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@@s_suther, thanks for your post. Praying for your grandmother. And your stitches too. I'm in great head space today. I threw away three bottles of balsamic vinegar and a bag of croutons last night. If it's not in the cupboard I won't eat it. Since I had a fill, I'm on liquids for 48 hours. So today I started with a Protein shake. For lunch I will walk to Subway and have soup and walk back. That's my 2.25 miles. Thanks for reminding me to start my stairs. Plan on 24 flights today. dinner will be soup again. My daughter comes home for Easter break tonight. Last night I tackled reading the flash drive. I was aggravated at his lies and refusal to provide information. But one step at a time. I have busy work to do to update my own financial figures for the previous 7 months so that's next. I refuse to let my circumstances derail my goals and dreams. I'm gonna get to goal weight. Update: NSETBEx just texted both daughters telling them he and I are getting back together. His idea of a funny April Fool joke. Un. Frickin. Believable. Don't ever marry a narcissist.

My NP is a doll. She always makes me feel better. I gained four pounds since I saw her last. We evaluated my eating, and the big kale salads every night are now a thing of the past. The croutons soaked in oil and balsamic vinegar by the giant bowlful are doing me in. I'm tossing out the remaining salad fixins tonight. I had another tiny fill. 0.10 bringing me to 7.80 in my 14cc band. Seven fills so far. I was able to swallow my Tylenol caplets and the barium went through slower but smoothly. We set a mini goal for me of 180 pounds by June 30. That's twenty. I can do it. My flights of stairs and lunchtime walks are excellent and will continue. Meals will go back to solid Protein first, chewed well, and then solid vegetables if the protein is finished and I still want them. No salads since I was using them as sliders and volume meals. The nuts and seeds I was snacking on at work have to go as well (my idea) because I did much better without snacking between meals. I asked why my hunger returned at three hours after months of being satisfied for four or more hours. She said we underestimate the effect stress has on organ swelling and making the band feel tighter. My stress was acute and new before, and now I'm getting used to this level of stress in my life. In a weird way my body is relaxing and the level of tightness isn't there as much for my band. It sounds weird and I still feel stressed, but my blood pressure was the lowest it's been in months. So who knows. Anyway, I'll be saving the wine for special occasions too. I have a plan. I can do this. And now I'm going to plug in that flash drive and deal with the divorce crapola I've been putting off for days. I am woman. Hear me roar!!

Another flat ass here. I even get sore at the movies. #skinnypeopleproblems

Great ! You're on your way! Congratulations !

@@VSGAnn2014, that's the second cancer-free news I heard today (my friend just had thyroid surgery) and it's wonderful !!!

s_suther, your list inspires me. I'm having a hard day today. I'm depressed and feeling like a failure. I know I'm not a failure but the feelings are so strong today. I'm sure it has something to do with the flash drive from my lawyer that contains the NSETBEx's discovery on it. I went away for the weekend and postponed looking at it and can't postpone anymore. The divorce is just depressing the crap out of me. I have a fill appointment this afternoon. I don't need or want a fill. When I eat correctly I'm plenty tight. I even got stuck a little this last weekend on chicken and steak. But I've been eating foods that don't lead to weight loss and drinking wine. And my weight keeps bouncing just under 200 pounds. My NP is marvelous and I know after I see her today I will feel better. But I'm mad that I weigh the same or a pound or two more than my last visit with her a month ago. Unfortunately the NUT is at a different location. I feel like I need a kick in the ass and I so wanted to be at goal weight by summer. I suppose I could phone the NUT. I never have before but she always said we could call. I'm overwhelmed with the thought of finding a house. I started going to open houses but right now I think I'd better shelve that because it's stressing me out. It's not like the divorce is even close to being settled. I know this post is a downer but it's where I am today. My walk at lunch can't happen because I'm leaving early for the doctor appointment. I ate my cheese and beef and nuts at my desk and I'm walking my stairs. I barely got half a hard boiled egg down this morning. This is just one of those days that SUCKS.

Congratulations !! This is what it's all about!!!

Hello my peeps. I was visiting my daughter at college with a girlfriend this weekend. Walked my butt off. Ate all the wrong foods and had plenty of wine. Put back the three pounds I lost last week. Tomorrow I have a fill appointment but I won't be getting a fill. I'm tight enough. I just need to eat the right foods. I've gotten into the bad habit of drinking with my meal in restaurants when I'm having cocktails. That has to stop. I was off work today but will be back tomorrow and plan to resume my hour of walking at lunch and my 24 flights of stairs. Back to solid Protein and salad. Boring but reliable.

Thank you both. Sometimes it just gets to the boiling over point. When that happens I'm glad I have kindred souls here who get it!

Wow! Amazing and inspiring!

Great message. We are all different. Besides our different physical makeup, we exercise and eat differently. The key is staying in contact with your bariatric team and always moving forward.

How much have you lost? - a lot. No really, how much have you lost ? - a real lot. How much more do you want to lose? - you don't really think I'm going to give you a number, do you? *smile*

I have a strong urge to reach out to a person at work who is morbidly obese but I never will. If she asks me about my weight loss I will tell her about my band. Other obese people in electric carts in stores draw my attention like never before. My feelings are a mixture of pity and sadness and sometimes irritation. However I am really angry at one obese person in my life and that is my mom. I struggle daily to bite my tongue. She is active in her food addiction and can barely walk. She has narrowed her life to tiny proportions, rarely goes out, and will not have knee surgery that is long overdue. Her day is scheduled around her one big meal around 1pm. Her feet have started to turn blue sometimes which her doctor recently told her was from poor circulation. I asked what the treatment was and she started to admit the doctor wanted her to "exe......move more". I told her I knew of people who had toes and feet amputated and she said "I'm almost 75. This happens." She then shut down the conversation. My mother eats, lays in bed from 5pm until 9am, watches TV and is waiting to die. At 74. She openly criticizes my food choices and says that I keep too much food in the fridge that goes bad before it's eaten. I have to remind myself daily that these are her issues and not mine. But I know my anger at her is a reflection of how I was raised in an overeating home, and how I took on those binging behaviors myself for so many years. I'm angry. You bet your ass I'm angry. I'm so angry that her remaining years are being wasted. I'm looking at a future of care taking an obese person I cannot lift. One who already spends most of her time lying in bed. I am twenty years younger than her. She's been this way all my life. It has gotten worse with age. I see myself in her and it infuriates me. Yes I'm angry. I want to help her and it will never happen.

Just had a mini stuck episode on a road trip with a friend. Excused myself abruptly to PB and then returned to the table. I've learned to tell a white lie to avoid embarrassment. "I was afraid I ate too fast and got a little queasy, but the feeling passed and now I'm ok." She knows I'm banded but if I admit spitting up food, people get way too wigged out and concerned. This way I just take it easy for the rest of the meal, and they are happy I "avoided an upset stomach". They also don't keep pushing food on me. Get my takeout container and all is well.

Congratulations !

Living well is the best revenge.

Got 2/12 miles in at lunchtime and I'm on track for all my stairs today. Just need to get through dinner and it will be a solidly good day.

I haven't walked my three miles at all this week. Yesterday my lunch hour was spent with the lawyer. Today I hope to get outside. My food has been off the last two days as well. Hmm. Need to get back on track pronto. I did get most of my stairs in Wednesday but not all. I don't want to get discouraged. Today I will start with yogurt and have cheese and Buddig beef for lunch. dinner will be a kale salad and Italian roast beef. Planning a weekend out of town to visit my daughter at college for a sorority parent weekend. That starts Friday morning. I'll post tonight. Have a good day, everyone!

Wow! Sounds wonderful! The pictures are great. You look happy and healthy and beautiful ! Now I want a vacation !

Karma. 'Nuff said.

Six fills here. Good luck! How exciting. You sound like you've got a good mindset. I agree. Be patient. It's a process and we will get to goal. It takes awhile but it's worth it!

I'll post more later. You're not alone! Busy day today and yesterday. Off to an OA meeting now.

Beautiful !!!