i am also just a few signatures away from divorce being final and i have to say it was been an emotional rollercoaster. my story...
was married 10 years, 2 beautiful sons, got banded january 2003, lost weight, found out was pregnant again, husband met "friend", l lost more weight, went into deep depression, had beautiful 3rd son, lost more weight, husband's friend became "love of his life", kicked his butt out because he couldn't make up his mind, i made it up for him. Filed for divorce, said good riddance to bad rubbish. Have been on my own, with 3 little boys under 5 for almost 2 years and life seems to be getting better. i have never doubted my decision because ultimately it was my decision to kick him out and file for divorce. i do hurt for my boys not seeing their father as much as they need to but he was a very selfish husband and now he's a very selfish father. i may be poorer and my schedule might be more hectic but i am so much happier knowing i'm not with someone who doesn't love me any more.
i deserve to love and be loved in return. after the hell the last year of my marriage was i now have peace and quiet, relatively speaking of course.
we all make decisions, it is not the decisions which are hard, it is the consequence of those decisions that are painful.
good luck
ana