Sheedah Monet

I had my surgery 18 days ago, and the last I checked on the 24th I was down 33 pounds. I started out at 383, I am now 350 (as of the 24th). But I am beginning to go back to bad habits. My indulgence has always been sweets. Today I had 3 Cookies, 1 first, and 2 more 20 minutes later. I then had 4 mini candies. I know to you it may sound like that's not bad, but I feel addicted. I was doing so good, but its as if my motivation only lasts for so long. Lately, I have been feeling depressed and unmotivated. I have already set up a follow up appointment with a psychologist, but I really need some support, and encouragement. Why do I feel this way? I also have to add I have been doing horribly with getting in my Protein in. I have been eating egg white omelets but other than that I can't get down the Protein shakes. They are absolutely disgusting to me not only because of the consistency, but the taste as well. I have started a vlog on Youtube under Sheedah Monet to keep my family and friends updated, but I don't want to feel this way because that's not a positive message to put out into the world. What would you do if you were me?, I am ok with tough love maybe that's what I need right now, or just a good nights sleep. I could even be low on potassium or my sugar could be high. I don't know, all I know is I need the support. Please check out my youtube page, and I need ample feedback. -Thank you Sheedah Monet

Thanks Jerziegirl, and Cinthysline. I needed to hear that, since I don't own a scale yet (which I will by the end of next week), I cannot see how much I am losing. I made it about the number, and since I cannot see the number I think I'm not losing so I'm sabotaging myself. And Jerziegirl, your right food has always been a comfort, I thought and still think about it all of the time. I need to delve into my school work more, and focus on exercise. By the way both are easier said than done, but being able to have a bariatric pal helps a great deal. I need those encouraging words, I also need to continue to have my weight watchers meetings. I need to surround myself with encouragement and support, and keep my goal in mind at all times. This is what I find most difficult, but I am working on it. Cinthysline thanks for the tip about the Atkins shake, I will tell you if I find anymore that task great as well. I'm excited for you and your surgery, Good luck with that. Your right Jerziegirl it doesn't help my stomach at all what I am doing, I need to take accountability for what I am putting into my body. I just don't know why I get so down on myself all the time. Thank you both!!!