Oh honey, it was never about them in the first place. You have done an amazing thing but don't let it cloud your perception of who you were. We are made to feel inferior by society just because we weigh more than they deem " normal ". It's time to take back what should have been ours all along.....We Are and always have been good enough. Congrats on all your hard work. The eating changes you make now will carry you through the rest of your life as a much healthier person.