Hi! I've been lurking here for a couple of months now, learning everything I can about the lap band. I saw the surgeon today and got my date, November 12th. Am I happy?... YES; Am I sad?.... YES; Am I nervous?....YES; Is this the right decision for me?....I thought so, but now why would I feel this way?
I'm happy because I realize that I need help. I'm sad because I can't believe it has come to this. I'm nervous because it is surgery.
A month ago I was 100% on board for surgery and knew that is was MY ANSWER! Why now do I doubt myself? Nothing has changed that suddenly lets me lose weight and keep it off, I still feel tired and sluggish, I still feel that life is passing me by, so why for one minute would I think "Maybe this is too drastic"?
When the doctor asked me to tell him why I needed WLS I got sort of emotional. It wasn't like I didn't know all the reasons (to feel better, look better, do more things with my kids outdoors, play tennis and wear the little tennis skirt). I mean I wasn't surprised and I had written all these things down in my general information sheet that they require early on in the process. I think maybe it was because I actually had to say them out loud, to somebody else. Gosh, I don't know.
Please someone tell me this is the normal process. I did pass my psychological test and I've never had any issues.
I hope these feelings of doom and gloom will quickly pass so I can get back to thinking my life will have a second chance starting in November.
Sorry for the long post.