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I am still struggling. had some fill taken out, did good for awhile then back to old habits ! I am terrible. I believe that food is an addiction for me and wouldnt it be nice if I could just STOP eating since that is what i need to do... i think I also have put too much into the fact that you have to eat to lose. Well, if that were true for me, I wouldnt be fat now. I am working on a balance of restricting in take and small meals. less calories, eat more often. I am also trying to eat the protein and not the sliders. Whew, no one said this would be easy but I am really wanting my moneys worth out of this !!!!!!! Getting really ticked with myself too.

It looks like everyone left this forum. That is sad, I really wanted someone to tell me how well they are doing ! I am very discouraged and want to start this new year with a positive attitude. I cant get a fill of any kind or i cant drink liquids. been doing this for 2 years now. one fill a year and it has to be taken out again. where is everyone ??? Even if you arent losing, please let me know how you are doing !

I had to have neck surgery again ! I sat in a recliner for weeks and ate ! Didnt realize how fast and easy it is to gain so much !! I feel like a failure at another DIET once again in my life. I know my DH is wondering why we are paying for this surgery and I am still FAT ! But... I have started walking again and for some reason, my band has tightened back up with all this stress. I was beginning to wonder if it had left me. LOL. Here I go again !!!

hey everyone. I feel like I am back in the race again. I had another fill. Struggling with eating but doing okay. Lost 6 pounds. This is very very hard, but do able as they say. Never give up. I havent. I was eating way too many calories per day. I have to count them or I go over with the bad foods. Does anyone want to post what they are eating daily AND losing ? I would love it. Thanks! Hang in there everyone !

I have not had a bad experience with the NP. All the doctors are hiring NP's now. I hear the complaints from patients about their respiratory dr, their family dr, so the NP is here to stay. Sorry. I thought she was quiet at first, but talk to her. She is easier to talk to than Dr. H. She has never fussed at me! Hang in there !

the band works, my mind doesnt work so well.LOL. I have restriction, I know it swells tight if I over do it. Then I have to be careful. It is difficult to get to the sweet spot. I havent given up...just frustrated and disappointed. There will always be some that take longer or never get there. I think I am in between that group. Best of luck to everyone. Keep trying.

I know!!! I dont get this band anymore....lose a couple, gain it back. Making me sick of it. I hope some day I will figure it out. Some days I cant eat anything but I am not getting any out, been there and done that twice. I just keep hoping something will change ... guess that has to be me and what I am doing. Like Dr Phil says.. How's it working for ya ?? NOT

this board has really slowed down. As we know this isnt a magic fix when you Live to eat. We gotta keep going. I like to look at the before and after pics, they do inspire you. Even my own before and after pic helps me to keep from "giving up". Sometimes I think it is just my body holding on to the weight, also, the calories really sneak up on you, drinking or eating. I have a problem with drinking enough water. Drinking anything..LOL. Lets do this yall !!!!

we will get there! I havent lost any in weeks now but 12 down is better than 20 up ! Wish it wasnt so dang hard to not want to EAT.... I would love a no calorie snack to to eat LOL. We should receive support no matter what at the dr's... they knew we were not perfect at the beginning of this.

the left arm pain... Mine is in my left shoulder/neck. I have had it for a year now. I am sure it is band related. I will get it severely if I overeat or drink too fast. I wish it would hit me sooner but it is usually after I have eaten too much ! It goes away in time. Just another reminder that the band is in there. I have heard it is nerve pain from the tubing. Makes sense to me. It would be a great "full" warning if it would happen sooner. Slower eating and drinking should help.

I think there needs to be some more support and help with the Head issues. Most of us eat without being hungry...I know I do. Restriction is great for a few days but that isnt the healthy way to lose. We know this but we still need some kind of "restriction" on us to stop the mindless eating, the big portions, etc. I dont agree with the chewing out either. That is what makes me do the opposite, always has been a downfall for me to have someone tell me how fat I have become or not to eat that, etc. I have even struggled with the "you might not be eating enough". This has entered my mind way too many times ...........I have talked with other successful lapbanders and they dont worry about if they have eaten "enough" so I am planning now to pay more attention to "hunger pains" .. and healthier choices. I have thought...just stitch my lips together.. then I might lose weight. Emotional issues seem to be the hardest to beat. I am working on it ! Never giving up.. though somedays I want to. Family and friends have given up on me already. I will keep trying !!! I just had to get this out.... those of you that are losing and doing great. --- I am so happy and proud for you. The rest of us --- this will be a struggle... especially with the guilt of having a band and still not getting there to our goal. I want to prove to everyone I can still do this.

I have finally lost 12 pounds after this last tight fill. I dont know how to stop the head hunger...still working on it. A friend of mine just keeps losing, makes me so jealous. This just isnt working for me like I thought. Right now, I feel very foolish for spending this money !

I got a fill and it feels tight. I am soooo glad to be starting all over again !

Hi everyone! I have been away a long time too. I go for a fill the 17th. I feel really bad, I have gained back 15 pounds out of the 53 I lost. This has not been the great surgery that I thought it would be. I am very down on the band right now. I feel really stupid paying this much and being a failure at 1 yr and 6 months out. I keep paying that bill every month and wishing I could lose again. I cant wait for a new fill. I have started walking again. New job, traveling even more in my car makes this so hard. I havent given up but I defintely need a kick in the butt !! I hope all of you will keep inspiring me. I wish I could start over again. Good luck everyone !!!! ITs been done, so I know I can do it too.!

Hey everyone ! I am getting restriction back and loving it ! The scale is slowly moving back down again. I went up so trying to catch back "down" to where I was for a long time. Still working on the "cant eat that much" and the first bite syndrome, I guess I do have that too. We need some more positive replies on here. Good luck next week with your band !!

sept seems to be the month several of us lost our restriction. weird. i got mine back thank goodness but it took three office visits! Hang in there. i thought i had messed up the band or had a leak, etc. Stress was bad thru that. Now i can start over with the band. I better start losing again too.

I am feeling much better, love having a little restriction to stop me from eating like a pig ! Dr. H is fine, never had a problem talking with him. He is nice too. He does try to get you to exercise more !

newjulie.. ME TOO ! I was there today, got thru last week to betty ! I went thru the front desk not the nurse line. They were bad bad busy today, dr's got delayed in surgery, clinic was way behind. I was just so glad to get in. I did not have a leak, had it all still in there. she thinks my stomach relaxed ? Anyway, i got some more in there today. i feel like i already have some restriction back. I dont know what the deal was in september.. happened to me to. all the sudden no restriction. Maybe some was taken out instead of puttting in.. makes you wonder, huh? Well, i have hit my first year and now i have to pay... i cant afford to be going in all the time either. if my insur denies, which it might, i will have racked up 450.00 in less than a month. i hope you get some restriction back. i hope mine is really there. time will tell. i am suppose to go back this time in 4 weeks. keep calling til you get betty !!! I gained 8 pounds trying to keep from being so hungry just in about 4 weeks. Here i go trying again though !!! Dont give up. I cant, this thing wont be paid for for many years...

that was great ! Thanks

THANK YOU !!! I think 200 is alot but better than what was in my mind ! Right now I am just scared. I am trying liquids, as much as I can : ). I have read the post on other sites, wondering if I have a stretched pouch or erosion. I am praying for the pouch since it COULD go down. If it is a leak, it should have been less in my port. Maybe someone will call me back and tell me what to do. I will try to hang on... The hunger isnt too bad.

Anyone have the fluroscopy and pay for it? I still dont have restriction, a little scare something is wrong, they havent called me back since last week. I am not sure I can afford to fix the band if it is broken. If anyone has paid for it, let me know how much ? The xray. I know surgery would be a lot. thanks !

Hey amber! Well, I had almost the same in there today in my port. just missing a little. WEIRD!! Anyway, got a little more back in plus what i lost. Wish me luck. Drank okay today. Will try mushies tomorrow. I have to call thurs if i have no restriction then get an xray. But... might have to wait on that. Gonna think positive. ya'll stay inthe box. I gained 4 pounds the last two weeks. : (.

thanks sugarbear. will try calling tomorrow. I want to go in tues morning !

thanks everyone. I am so SCARED I have a leak too. I am mad I didnt get called back. I want to go in and see what is in there! There is NO WAY I can get it repaired and I will be very unhappy to say the least. I have a long way to go to pay for the surgery anyway. I am praying that it is okay and he just didnt put much back. I have never felt like this after a fill. I called today and will call every day until they get me in I guess. Thanks for your support and suggestions. Slimfast and protein shakes are probablly what I need. I have gained 6 pounds. : (and I am starving.

I never got that second call back ! I have gained a few pounds too. : ( I gotta get in there and get some more fill !!! I cant go to that conference. My dtr is getting married the 4th. Mad cause I havent lot enough before the wedding. Oh well...I gotta take this one day at a time, especially right now. Yall have a good weekend.