j_war06

Its generally based on income of the supporter and other factors, not gender

Lol I know what you mean, but it doesnt WORK!! UGH! But no, Im not jumping off into that situation, much careful thought has made my common sense work again! lol

I just think its the weirdest thing that my drive suddenly became so high!! It was SOOO weird! Im hoping it will ease off soon, atleast for a while, because I frankly cant get anything done for thinking about it, HOWEVER Im not sleeping as much as I was! lol so Im getting a lot more done, its like an energy boost, but I cant get rid of it once Im done using the energy part...Its kind of funny though, how when I had someone I wasnt that interested in the deed, or atleast not with him, and now that Im pregnant and single (and probably for a long time, I dont like to hop from one relationship to another) I want it all the time! UGH! I should just give in and render in to a special kind of relationship with this guy that Ive known FOREVER! We had something goin on when I met my ex, but we didnt live in the same town anymore, so there was no use in persuing anything further, now that Im back in my hometown lol!! IDK? Its the weirdest feeling ever, Ive never felt such sexual frustration before! I do laugh at it though, just the irony in it all!

OH! It also drives me crazy that because Im a single, never married pregnant 20 year old, then I must be a wh***! And that I should get an abortion because of those things...UM NO! Im 20 years old, I can take care of a child...honestly though, does that make me a you know what? Because I was in a serious monogamous relationship when it happened! HE CHOSE TO LEAVE THE BABY AND ME, I didnt choose that. I also hate that because I was with a guy that was not a very good guy that I must be irresponsible...ummm I didnt know at the time that he was a bad guy, when I found out, I told him "buh bye!" How about just because I go to Jr College, I must not be as smart as everyone else...Well some people have to get a degree to be able to pay for their Bachelors! How about that 2 of my best friends are lesbian, so I must be too?? WTF? lol! I have heard that one before (this does not apply to club entourage where as we did tell one CREEEEEEEPY guy that I was a lesbian and my friend's girlfriend! lol!) OH and just because I hang out at the gay club, and I am CC's #1 fag hag lol!, doesnt mean that you ("straight guy" that can not pick up a girl at a regular bar) can hit on me relentlessly! And sneak up behind me on the dance floor and begin grinding my backside! Did you ever think that maybe I go to the gay club so that I DONT get hit on...P.S. My boyfriend is the bartendar/bouncer right over there -------------> lol! Oh and YES I know I have a rather large, round, perky rear-end....but that doesnt mean that I want you (stranger) to slap, poke, feel, grab it at any given time! And that SUPER applies to you Ghetto Black Guys! (no offense, but thats all that ever do it!) Ok this is for you Mexican Guys, Just because I have blond hair and VERY white skin, doesnt mean I dont know what your saying as you walk behind me on the sidewalk, in the mall, the grocery store, anywhere. NEWSFLASH! I lived in Corpus Christi for a year, I hear you talking about my body! And know everything you are saying. Before Corpus I took 3 years of Spanish and have many hispanic friends who have taught me A LOT!

Lol thanks derrick....PROBLEM IS....Im filing charges against my "partner" lol! As in I dont have one anymore! And getting another one, means some kind of special relationship!!! UGH!!! SO FRUSTRATING! I KNOW HOW A 13 YEAR OLD BOY FEELS NOW!

The most important part to remember about being banded is that it is a tool...you can either use it or not, but it wont go away unless you have it removed...SOOOOOO unlike Weight Watchers or those other diets, you can start back right TOMORROW and MAY not even show any effects from your slip up...Probably most if not all of us here have cheated one way or another...it happens, we all screw up, but Tomorrow is a new day. Ya know? When drug addicts and alcoholics go to rehab they dont have to HAVE that addiction to survive. But WE are addicted to food, something WE HAVE to partake in everyday....How successful would a person addicted to Coke or Alcohol be if they had to take a little 3 times or more a day (depending on the specifics of your eating regimen)??? I heard that on a Discovery Channel special...its not excuse by far, but it makes slip-ups more managable and understandable in our heads. Dont beat yourself up, but realize that the continuence of slip-ups will be a waste of time, money, and sick-feelings.

I just want to say...that I love my gays!! And the only thing they are responsible for is accepting me into their community (although Im a very straight girl) and loving me NO MATTER WHAT! And picketing funerals is just immature, like seriously! How is THAT going to bring the deceased back to life? And last time I checked there are lots of gays in the military (confidential information because they arent supposed to be there) and does that mean that they are committing suicide or killing their fellow soldiers? This man REALLY needs to see a therapist before someone kills him or he kills or seriously injures someone!

lol I hate that people who have been skinny all their lives subconsciously think that all "fat" people look alike....especially girls. I have no idea how many times Ive been spoken to by someone thinking I was some other chunky girl with blond hair! SERIOUSLY! WE LOOK NOTHING ALIKE! I also hate the stereotype that all people from Jasper, TX (my hometown) are Racist Pigs, that we like hold meetings and drag a black person every once and a while for the hell of it! lol! ummm.....I hate that people assume that I eat alot because Im over weight, or that I make unhealthy food choices, AND then when my skinny best friend and I go out to eat and she orders half the restaurant and a Dr. Pepper then I order either a child's plate or partial serving of something and Water or tea and the waiter looks at use like we are weird...its like she thinks my skinny friend hasnt eaten for a week or pukes it up and I that I go home and gorge out on other food! Not true at all, actually its just the opposite...I usually end up puking or not being able to eat for a while and she goes home and gorges! lol But I also hate it when my skinny friend (the same one) and I go to my Lap Band appts together and all the patients in there look at her like she's a horrible person because shes thin! It makes her feel uncomfortable, but I know how they feel in a way. Its like, "why is SHE here?" Also I hate the fact that because I got pregnant before I reached my goal weight, people who havent met me before think Im like 6 months pregnant and Im only like 3!!! I also hate being passed up by guys because Im bigger, for my skinny friends!!! Not to be conceited, but I know I have a more attractive face and personality (and less psychological problems than her lol) BUT apparently in the world of some guys skinny means perfection, until they get to know her, then they look for any possible way out lol! poor girl! I HATE IT WHEN PEOPLE ASUME ALL BLONDS ARE DUMB AND TELL THOSE STUPID JOKES!!! UGH! Seriously, its okay to refer to being ditzy as having a blond day or blond moment, BUT SERIOUSLY! Im not going to effin drown if you put a mirror in the bottom of a pool or whatever that joke is! MOST of the NATURAL blonds that I know are actually very intelligent in their own way! Its the fakes out there that ruin it for everyone! Also one that deals with my weight...I hate that guys think that I will just screw ANYONE because Im "fat"! Seriously! I have standards too! And 50 year old 5'1'' guys are not in the category! I hate it that because I was a member of a sorority, that I must be a drunken whore that follows frat boys around and that i would sleep with them at any whim because they are in a frat and Im in a sorority! Also we are not stupid and we dont buy our friends! TRUST me we dont all get along ALL the time...If I was going to buy my friends I would pay for more stable ones lol! Also, just because Im bi-polar, doesnt mean that Im crazy! That I will kill you because you say something offensive! UGH!! OKAY THERE ARE MORE BUT IM GONNA STOP.............................................................................................. For now lol

I dont necessarily think homeschooling is the answer, number one is because I have to work, other reasons deal with the child's social skills and ability to deal with others and authority that is not its family. The list goes on...plus a couple of my friends were homeschooled and regretted it, not to mention one who was allowed to go to public school once he reached his junior year. He was supposed to be a senior with me, but because of homeschooling,he was held back a year. I went to public school, and I know that I did not get the quality education that I could have gotten had my parents been able to afford the other options...not to mention the fact that I just absolutely do not agree with the way public schools are being run. I am a substitute teacher in my old school district, and things have changed sooooo much. The kids are so much more behind than my class was at those age levels. I also dont agree with all the disciplinary measures taken at public school.

What's so bad about boarding school?? (i know this is off-topic but i want to know)....I hope that Im almost finished with my degree by the time my child goes to school...I was considering either a private school or boarding school....BUT NEVER PUBLIC SCHOOL!

LOL! I know, everyone thinks its soooo cute that hes sucking his thumb already (even though developmentally he hadnt learned that yet lol) he was actually, kinda dancing around in there to the sound of the machine or something, he didnt seem startled though, he was just showing off for the camera I guess lol! But he was moving ALOT! I guess they just snapped the pic while his hand happened to be there

Lol! Im not lonely by any means...I just mean that I will have a special bond with someone that I created. And it wont frustrate me to not be able to go out with friends... I already dont go out if my dog doesnt want me to lol! I am not giving my child up for adoption, theres no reason to, My family and I can more than take care of this child. I will be a paralegal soon and be making pretty damn good money, and will be more than able to care for a child. See the problem with the guy is, I thought that I knew him, however due to his extensive lies and such I really didnt, therefore I was mislead. I dont want the baby to be a cure-all, I want it to be a perfectly healthy child. The HPV is most likely not sexually transmitted due to complaints Ive had with Drs in the past about ce of the rtain issues that may have been signs, before I was sexually active, of the disease. Im 20 years old I can care for a child. These baby will never go without anything it needs or wants, trust me. But I do understand your concerns, and perhaps from my post I get where you are coming from, however if you knew me in person, you would know how truly strong I can be, and how determined I can be.

lol my original due date (b4 the sonogram) was April 28th!!! Thats soo funny! As far as hope for a boy or girl...Im torn...I REALLY want a girl, so that we can do girly things together (especially since Im a single parent, I dont want a feminine little boy lol!) But having a boy would be fun too because I can dress them all preppy and put little fohawks on him! lol!! Im really not worried that much about it...but I guess the hope for a girl wins out...

WHY WOULD YOU FEEL SORRY FOR ME? Basically S*** happens, and if its gonna happen to someone I know, its gonna be me...Yes the baby's father is not a good person, that fact is true. I was scared to end the relationship while I was still in CC, but I should have. MY fear caused me to be irresponsible. I should have never have gotten involved with him, I shouldnt have allowed him to walk all over me....What he did was wrong, and the things hes doing now ARE wrong...but if I would have grown "some" this wouldnt have happened. BUT he has given me a great gift, a child, who I can love and be loved back unconditionally. I will never have to be alone again, I will always have someone in my life that is going to love me no matter what. Maybe the technology that your daughter's Dr isnt as good as my Dr's, I had to go to HELL and back to get into my Dr, and I cant believe the insurance will pay her incredibly high prices, however I refuse to use a male Dr, and shes not only one of the few female Dr's around, but also one of the best 3 in this area. Ive seen lotsa people's sonograms and ultrasounds at 8 weeks and further that dont look as good as mine. But trust me, the baby was 8 1/2 weeks at the oldest during that sonogram. BTW, lots of organisms in nature that are fully developed depend on "hosts" to live, without them, they would die. The tiny fish that live on sharks are an example...A great reference to these maybe watching the Most Extreme on Discovery.

SOOOO...I have a question....Ummm....isnt the act of having sex (between a heterosexual couple) TECHNICALLY, TRADITIONALLY to be for the purpose of reproduction, and well one of the benefits is having fun? Like the whole purpose that heterosexual people have sex with the opposite sex is to reproduce.....SOOOO basically your doing the act, of which you are aware of the possible consequences, BUT your not willing to take responsibility for what you have done? Im willing to take responsibility for having sex when I really wasnt ready for a child (which now I am)...I realize that I have to take responsibility for what I chose...so if you dont want children...why do the deed? Thats like buying a bunch of stuff on a credit card, and then reporting the card stolen and keeping the stuff you bought...if you didnt intend to pay for it, why did you buy it? Its irresponsible... Im not saying that I am responsible, by any means, had I been, I would have gotten rid of HIM a long time ago, and wouldnt have had pre-marital sex...however I was ready and willing to accept the consequences....If YOU dont want the child, someone else does!

I am slightly outraged, however I JUST got to my computer. Ive been busy all day and at the baby Dr, and taking a test. I am 20 years old, I am perfectly capable of taking care of a child....and Im very sorry my sonogram (which is done vaginally, while an ultrasound is done outside the vagina) is about 8 1/2 weeks not 7-8, that was my mistake, however I still could have had an abortion at that time, and look it looks like a little human, it has arms, and legs, a tummy, a head, a brain, a heart, etc.... That sonogram was taken the first week of October. And by definition that makes it alive, because it was in animation, its been in animation sense conception because it was growing, therefore that makes it alive. BTW, I may be having problems :cry They think I might have HPV! They found a lesion in my pap smear, but because I had never had a PAP b4, they dont know how long its been there, so they dont know if its cancerous or not. They are REALLY sure its not because I was able to concieve and I havent miscarried, but Im having more tests run Dec 3. Heres a story...I had a very LIBERAL friend in college, however we did get along, just tried to stray away from political conversations to keep from getting each others boiling points up. She was BIG on abortion, she ALWAYS said that if she got pregnant she would abort it ASAP, and blah blah blah etc...well one day I realize that I hadnt really seen her for about 3 or 4 days, and she lived across the hall from me. I go knock on her door, she was TOTALLY not herself...very sad, very withdrawn, etc...I asked her what was going on and she finally cracked...She had secretly took a friend of hers from class to get an abortion, and it really messed her up for about 2-3 weeks, now she is adamantly against it. She is still scarred by it, almost a year later. I thought that was interesting, someone SO set in their ways could change their mind that easily.

IDK? what the ultrasounds from implantation was supposed to prove??? however I have a whole book of pics (very high-resolution), and at atleast 8weeks they baby LOOKS like a baby. That was when my last sonogram was done (theres a huge, and uncomfortable, diff between and sonogram and an ultrasound btw). When that baby popped up on the screen i was surprised myself...I was really scared that it wouldnt look like a baby, that I would be looking at pics all throughout the pregnancy and never really realize that it was a baby...but my Dr has GREAT technology, and her pics are very clear! I admit that at some point in the beginning, it doesnt look like a baby at all, but remember all things have a beginning.... OH...and so it technically has to LOOK like a baby to be alive?? Is that the argument made?? And SSN arent issued during the pregnancy AT ALL, so therefore that argument cant stand...

BTW, if you want to see what life looks like at 7-8 weeks, check out my sonogram in my signiture, that definately looks like a baby not a cluster of cells

here's a thought for you guys that dont believe that a baby is not a life until the 2nd trimester.... Some of the definitions of alive: 1. having life; living; existing; not dead or lifeless (trust me from experience the baby is not lifeless before the 2nd trimester, my sonogram proves that) 2. in a state of action (trust me the baby is moving, and growing, so therefore it is in action) 3. alert or sensitive to (trust me, when I perform certain actions, I know the baby is there, even this early) Some definitions of life are: 1. the animate existence or period of animate existence of an individual (trust me the baby is animated) 2.a corresponding state, existence, or principle of existence conceived of as belonging to the soul. (if you believe in souls, then the potential for life constitutes as having a soul) Just something that I thot was interesting...

You have to look at the date of the posts, especially if they are in other threads. Its my fault for telling you guys that hes such a great guy, however, I guess I wanted it to be true...and in previous posts (before September 14ish) I may have been typing around him where he could see the screen or access my account on the computer...PLUS many of those posts where before I knew some information...I learn something new about him almost every week (through my own investigation). I dont necessarily count on him for any support, but when he does do well, he does very well! For some reason when hes down is down, and when hes up hes soaring...as in he goes from broke to having good money all the time. So when he is making money I will get a cut and get some of his tax return. As well as if the lucky ba***** every wins the lottery I will get a good portion of that too. TRUST ME he will be nothing but a check for this baby, he will have no rights to the child as far as visitation goes...ESPECIALLY since I am opting to be the paralegal for my own case. So I have made special requests to my attorney so that he will have to go through a hell of a lot of actions to see the child. such as: 1. Random Drug Testing and BAC Screening 2. Mental Counseling (and the information given in the sessions be recorded well, and may be used against him) 3. Payment of Support (ofcourse) 4. Payment of past damages 5. If ALL of this is met (which it wont be) he will be allowed ONE supervised visit (in which myself and an officer of the law is present), where as it is in a public place and he can not bring his current girlfriend or any other persons to the visit. He also MUST come to my hometown, unless I am actually in Corpus at time of said scheduled visit, where as the same rules apply. The visit may only last for a certain amount of time, at which point he must try no further contact with me or the child other than the visits. ABSOLUTELY ALL negotiations and conversations and attempts to contact me must be done so through my attorney ONLY. *basically if I put his name on the birth certificate, and I ask for child support, then I have to allow some form of visitation as long as he's not considered mentally insane by the state and he hasnt committed crimes against children AND he isnt in jail and so forth....so Im just going to make it the hardest thing in the world just to see his child. P.S. I also didnt tell the whole truth at first, because I wanted to tell you guys that I was pregnant, but I didnt want you guys to rant and rave on me for the poor choice of "sperm donor"

WOW LOL! We were in sync somewhere back there because Im due May 5th! (tentatively, I dont remember my last cycle, so I just have an estimated date)

WOW LOL! We were in sync somewhere back there because Im due May 5th! (tentatively, I dont remember my last cycle, so I just have an estimated date)

HAHAHA!!! SORRY LOL!!! That took my blond self like a whole 2 minutes to figure out what you were talking about! You need a display pic! lol! I guess, for some dumb reason, that I hardly EVER think about guys opinion on abortion

Kagoscuba does make a good point in my book. She has a DNR in case anything happens, which is not against her statements on here. HOWEVER I know a lady who had so many abortions that it messed her up (medically) very badly! She still will not admit that it was the abortions that did it, but the Dr's keep telling her thats what it is. YET When a family member was on life support she absolutely would not allow them to "pull the plug"...HOW IS IT THAT YOU CAN KILL AN INNOCENT CHILD, and let a non-innocent adult live in agony? Also the potential for life is good enough to stand as life in some courts...especially in states where abortion is illegal. A mother can be brought to trial for SEVERAL offenses if an abortion was attempted or committed. Also, what is bacteria but a huge mass of cells? Does that mean it isnt living? Just because it doesnt have facial features and bones etc...doesnt mean it isnt living, so what would the world do without bacteria? We would all DIE because we need bacteria to survive... Its also very funny how many pro-choice people are also for gun-control...THAT MAKES NO SENSE! So its ok to kill something so innocent that its never even had the chance to do something bad, but you want to take away guns because they kill people? ABSOLUTELY RIDICULOUS! A lot of pro-choice people are also enviromentalists, they think its okay to kill a child, YET its a bad thing to cut down a tree to build a house? WTF? P.S. I do not believe in Euthanasia (and I consider that anything that is alive currently, so from birth to old age, I REFUSE to even have animals "put down", however I do understand that if the only reason an individual is alive "technically" is because of life support, and has been on it for VERY long time, that there is likely no hope of them coming back, then it is understandable to finally let them go.)</p>

Actually I work 2 jobs, and I no longer have the bills to pay that I used to, and that was actually a very long time ago...TRUST me after my suit against the father comes through I will be fine financially. And yes you can basically be forced to get pregnant...If you really want details Ill tell you, he threw out my BC pills, and when I got new ones he would find them. He made me have sex with him most of the time, rather than a consensual agreement, and he told me his purpose was to get me pregnant. I didnt do anything about it because I was scared...I didnt know until I was committed fully to the relationship that he had ACTUALLY killed people before, and after a night of almost being choked to death in my sleep, I realized that I couldnt just call the law on him and get rid of him. One of my friends however did...THAT WAS NOT GOOD, he threatened to slit my throat! NOW I am back in the comfort of my own town, and can protect myself here...I still dont go anywhere alone for fear he will find me. I am petitioning the court against him for several suits including assault, battery, negligence, and false imprisonment...as well as child support. I will be fine now and so will the child.