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LOL!!! My ex-fiance used to tell me that, and then we started, "you know" and I found out he's 13 from the waste down lol!!!!

My friends do not "allow" me to say a word, any word, the government (if anyone) allows me to say whatever word I want. I dont believe that all black people are the same AT ALL. I have 3 black friends that if you spoke to them on the phone you would have NO CLUE that they were black. I have other black friends that you would definately know, but they dont make an issue out of something stupid like a word. I had to learn a long time ago that a word is just a sound or something written on paper, and when it comes to opinion it no biggy. Ive been being called names since I was little, I had to learn not to let them hurt...I used to have to go home and ask my mom what several things were that kids had called me, do you HONESTLY think that it didnt break her heart?? Ive been called the "n" word before (although Im white) because of the way I was acting. People shouldnt get their feelings hurt so easily. Do you honestly THINK that I dont know what racism is? That I HAVE NEVER experienced this? And I have n respect for anyone who calls themself a man of God and then goes and cheats on his wife. I have no respect for any man who can just run off with another woman. I have my reasons.

This kind of goes with this thread, did anyone watch the 2 part Tyra Body Image special where all kinds of different women all got together, and based JUST on how they looked they gave each one a label. It was FANTASTIC! I loved the way that the thinnest (and rudest) one got the "fat slob"(it was the only stereotype left when it was her turn)! I thought it was hilarious, everyone else used nicer terms to describe people in their initial interviews, but SHE used the most horrible term "fat slob" and then got stuck with it. But watching that episode was a marvelous thing, just thinking about how people perceive you...one lady was labeled "unhealthy" BUT when it all came down to the end, turns out she had lost like OVER 200lbs (gastric bypass)...well Im not going to go on and on, just watch it, it really brings you to life about what we think about others just by looking at them.

Actually if I felt like it I could pull up a few court cases dealing with the "C" word, however Im working on a couple of cases right now (hypothetical and real) and Dont really have the time to dig through the masses of civil cases. I just know that Ive never gotten in a pickle over the "n" word and I live in a very diverse town. But then again Im smart, Im not going to just haul off and call anyone that with the "er" added to the end unless I have a damn good reason, I actually think Ive only done it once in H.S. when a VERY ghetto black girl was walking down the wrong side of the hall and ran into me and didnt apologize, me (being bi-polar) promptly said "excuse you" and she said, "you got somethin to say white girl?" and it escalated, she pushed me, and I told her that if she wasnt acting like such a "n"(er) that MAYBE she would have consideration for someone other than herself, and that if she was going to take this to be a race issue that I could do it just as well. I had to go to the BLACK vice principal over it, and she thought it was funny! If I got mad everytime someone called me cracker, gringa, white b****, or gueda(sp?)...I would forever be calling people racist. Im part Jewish, Im not asking Germany or Egypt or ANY of the other places that persecuted Jews over the years of history. My jewish blood is so diluted that you cant tell that I am...just because one is black doesnt make them African, NOR does it mean that their ancestors were all slaves. A few black people came from other places to America and some were never slaves. I MEAN when some black slaves were set free by their masters, they went and bought other black slaves to work for them. HOWEVER this is not the topic, SORRY. Anyways, a word is a word, thats what you have to take it for. Words should have no actual offense meaning, just some are more uneducated sounding than others and shouldnt be used in certain settings, however freedom of speech means that you can say whatever you want (as long as it doesnt encourage others to commit violent crimes against people and so forth and so on....So take it for what it is, if you are black and someone calls you that word for no reason other than your skin color dismiss them as an ignorant idiot and go on with your life knowing that you are better than that. To tell you the truth, I CANT STAND Martin Luther King. He was a hypocrite and is just annoying, but HE was such an important part of the civil rights movement that I can stand him and realize his place in this world. BUT I can not stand Jesse Jackson OR Al Sharpton! I seriously cant stand to look at them because of the RIDICULOUS things they said about my town. What makes them any different than white supremicists? NOTHING but skin color.

I disagree, ask any of my black girlfriends if they would rather be called the "n" word or the Big C bomb! Bet they choose the "n" word... I believe that the C word is possibly the most controversial and powerful word in the english language. If you EVER want to see a 85 pound anorexic or a 350lb woman go psycho on someone (especially a man) and muster up the energy and strength of a pro-wrestler....Bust out the C word (whether joking or not) SEE WHAT HAPPENS THEN...At least the "n" word is used in casual (hopefully not formal) situations in a joking manner and with other black people, however women USUALLY (there are always exceptions) NEVER joke with the "c" word

I actually agree with this mostly. But I also believe that the word has more than one meaning.

Im not a Mac (apple) fan at all either! Well, now they arent so bad, but they used to be HORRIBLE!! Ive considered buying one just for the virus cut-down, but then I would have issues trying to convert and run all my stuff on other ppls computers since most people around here have Microsoft. I like their sleek look, but thats about it lol! I have a Rasberry Red Vaio with matching Dooney and Bourke carrying case, Ive had it for a year, and it still looks good, but I had problems with it from the first day that I bought it (literally, I had to send it back after opening the box and turning it on for like an hour?) And Ive since had a couple of issues with the touchpad, but its still the best computer Ive ever had (and it better be, for OVER $2000.00!) lol

HAHA! Piercings anywhere only hurt a little while TRUST ME, then certain ones are great

I wanted to respond...I feel like its one of those words that is only appropriate in certain settings...my friends (white, mexican, black, asian....etc..) use it around one another as a term of affection.. to call someone that means that you are a GOOD friend, not just an acquaintance...BUT we arent STUPID, we are not going around calling EVERYONE that in our lives, because to us its actually a GOOD thing (well as long as you dont put the "er" at the end of it lol) Now there is no reason for us to call anyone that word with the "er" added to it. I grew up in an almost completely 50/50 town, the word gets thrown around alot, its not ALWAYS a bad thing, JUST dont do it around ANYONE (no matter WHAT color their skin is) that you dont know or dont know very well lol! Im sorry if this is offensive to you or anyone else, but HONESTLY its a WORD, I had to learn a long time ago that words arent important, they dont physically hurt you, so dont let them bother you

I do suppose thats true as well...I had actually thot about that right after I posted, but was in a hurry to get to a Dr.'s Appt

Anyways, I know this isnt really relevant to anything on here, but I just have to get this out! When I first became pregnant I had a low sex-drive, I didnt really even want to consider doing the deed...But now its been like 2 months or so since the last time, and for the past week I have felt like a nymphomaniac!!! All I want is to do "it" lol!!! Its the strangest urge that I cant get rid of, I cant even sleep well at night!!! Its almost all I think about for some reason! Its so weird I went from nothing to everything in like one day!!! I guess part of it is coming from the fact, well the baby had to be made somehow lol! (monogamous relationship btw)...But even with him my drive wasnt very high....However its like its hitting me alllllllllll at once. I have offers lol But I wont act upon them because I dont need that added stress in my life right now...lol I dont even want a real relationship right now, I dont really want any kind of relationship with a guy other than just friends! But OMG! I cant fix this problem.... Thanks to you guys that read through that without going "EW!" And thanks for reading my off-topic post...

LOL! Ive already picked my names out and IDK what Im having yet! lol! Braxton Gage if its a boy (I went to college with a really nice, smart, handsome guy named Braxton, and I liked that name) and Fallon __________ if its a girl (i havent thot up a really good middle name yet)

Wow, Ive never considered being able to afford a private education or having a six figure income middle class.....I grew up middle class, my parents combined dont make a six figure income (its close, but not quite there). I went to public school, had to drop out of college because I am Middle Class, cant afford to pay for college and the government doesnt want to help. I never went without, dont get me wrong, but Im just saying that I wouldnt consider a six-figure income middle-class ??? Upper-Middle maybe

WOW! I totally forgot that I started this thread a long time ago!! Well, since I have moved back to my hometown Ive had pure HELL finding a job!! WOMEN are going over me for thinner candidates! What? Fat makes me lazy? I know over weight people who can get more done in a day than thin people... I definately see the difference in discrimination since Ive moved back. In a city, Im just another person...in my hometown Im a subject of conversation! lol! But now they have something else to talk about...

I really do know whats shes going through. My Dr. recommended that, due to my lack of metabolism, that I need to take in about 500-900 cals a day....If I stick to 500 I would lose weight for a little while, very slowly, then it would stop and I would have to do less and less cals til it got to a point that if I went by that I wouldnt be allowed to eat AT ALL lol! He recommends that I eat a lot of chicken, but strangely enough my band will not accept chicken AT ALL, no matter the restriction, in irony lol! it will accept most of a small burger (which I dont eat often). Ive never been an extremely unhealthy eater, nor did I usually eat in large amounts, but I still would put on weight no matter what. Strange isnt it? My band likes to kick in in the strangest situations...like meals with co-workers or out on a date with a nice guy lol! AND now that Im pregnant it has kicked in fairly decently, I can only get food down at night, but I still watch what i eat. My baby Dr is probably starting to freak out because I havent had any morning sickness but Ive consistently lost weight sense Ive been pregnant! Ive lost like 10-15lbs since I got pregnant. Shes not too worried right now, but she wants me to gain 5lbs (without trying ofcourse) by Dec 3! So Im going to get my band completely unfilled soon. I know how forreste feels for sure, seemse like you do everything that everyone else is doing and even extra and it JUST doesnt work! Its intensely frustrating! I feel like a failure most of the time, especially compared to other ppl who have had their band in a shorter period than I have. Ive lost like 60-70lbs MAYBE over 2 years, I should have lost 100lbs the first year, year and a half (according to my Dr).

My fills are only $100.00 and at another center I consdidered going to in San Antonio it was $150 or $200 I cant remember...$500 is RIDICULOUS! lol! You get enough of those fills and you would have paid as must as Breast Implants! lol! made out of the same liquid, Saline lol!

LOL Ive tried the freakin rabbit AND the bullet AND the mini bullet!!! It has nothing to do with an O. Its the connection so to speak. I like to be kissed and adored and worshipped in a way...maybe its just the attention lol! I should just post naked pics on the internet (KIDDING!!) Its more or less the feeling that Im wanted as a beautiful sexual creature. That Im desired...Maybe its because I NEVER got any attention (as far as getting hit on etc...) in school. I was always the "fat girl". So maybe its just psychological, maybe Im a nympho for different reasons...I realize this, I dont like to O its doesnt feel very good to me (dont get me wrong, every now and then its great) but for the most part I just want to know that I CAN please a man, that I am a real woman....And lets just face it, Im addicted to "the game" and Ive only lost once...but Im still playing and trust me, when Im done it will be 1:1 (I have a few secrets of my own after the case settles lol!) I just need to get back on the Prozac heard that would kill it lol

My ex-fiance is trying to make this claim...that I tricked him....(now that he is with a new woman). HOWEVER he was with me at the Dr when she announced that I was fertile again! Which I can document. Men are not tricked, USE A CONDOM if your going to have sex, but if you dont want any responsibility for a child then DONT HAVE SEX! Simple...I begged him to use a condom, I begged to take my freakin BC! I begged him most of the time not to have sex with me (many times the act took place with tears in my eyes). So no I have no pity for the men who say they were tricked! I understand that it does happen, but I still say there are preventative measures to make sure there are no "mini-mes"

Im a natural blonde (but I usually highlight so that I dont have the dishwater look). Ive had professors pass over my opinions in classes and TOTALLY either ignore my comment OR just not answer my raised hand (sometimes the ONLY raised hand). I knew it was because I was a blond. I lived on the beach, but for some reason I was usually the only blonde (bleach or real) in my Political Science classes. I usually had t prove myself through the first assignment (usually writing) in order to get any respect as a VERY intelligent blonde female! Once they read my writing they paid me a little more respect, but I still would get passed over for a darker haired alternative answer. It usually took me all semester to gain the professor's respect in class. They never docked my grade or anything, just acted like whatever I had to say couldnt possibly be applicable or intelligent, but I was usually the one that would end up solving A LOT of tough political problems in class! I admit that I like to keep my head in the clouds a lot, but thats because Im creative, when Im thinking about something, Im thinking about it from all perspectives all angles etc...NOT WHAT COLOR IM GONNA PAINT MY NAILS THAT NIGHT! UGH! I guess it doesnt help that Ive been referred to as a thicker Paris Hilton. Just because I like to wear heels, full makeup, fix my hair, and wear nice clothes and carry designer handbags and have a pink computer DOES NOT MEAN that Im an idiot, it means that im GIRLY!

I know that my court ordered child support (from the father) will be like 50 bucks a month lol! IF THAT! But by chance in hell and it froze over he was to have custody (purely hypothetical, he cant have custody) I would have to pay out the REAR for child support. At one job I make $50 a day at another I make anywhere from 12-16 dollars an hour! I would have to pay more, even though hes 25, has no education and constant job, I have to work 2 jobs and I go to school. Even when I get my AAA I would have to pay even more because I would be making so much more money. But im sure the court does take it somewhat easier on mothers than fathers, I mean after all we carried it around for 9 months and popped it out of a pretty small hole lol!

I get in trouble for this all the time: I will admit that Im a little afraid of black guys (i do have a few that I am friends with, but ones that I dont know scare me). This is because all throughout school (i went to a 50/50 school) I was either made-fun of or touched constantly by black men. The assistant prinicipals and principals never did anything about it! I had one my Sophomore year tell me (and my boyfriend) that he was going to come to my house and kill my parents and rape me, and he wasnt kidding...He tried to touch me during class one day (ran his hand up my leg and up to my crotch). NO ONE would believe me because I was the overweight white-girl!! They thought I wanted attention....Ive had other occassions (since 3rd grade) where black guys were sexually harassing me, so Im just really on-guard around them...Does that mean I treat black male strangers badly, no, actually Im quite friendly, BUT I dont want them touching me or coming any more near me than needed. So now Im pinned for being racist (being from Jasper, Texas doesnt help either). That doesnt make me a racist...Its all psychological, I was scarred by multiple black guys growing up! I used to have nightmares about it! I just wish people wouldnt judge so harshly.. Oh heres another one I just thought of. According to people that Ive chosen to disclose information to because it was important to our relationship, just because I was raped and didnt report it (because I was scared of possible gang activity), then I must have just been drunk and stupid, so I want people to feel sorry for me for being a whore...yeah that one pisses me off

LOL! I think you just described my hometown lol!!!! And im not kidding, SURE there are us that want better in life, but the majority of people here are exactly that! LOL! I lived in a city and was a four-wheel riding, dope-smoking (NOT ANYMORE, THOSE WERE MY CRAZY DAYS), and an alcoholic....BUT IVe NEVER EVER been a redneck! lol

Ive been having the same problem (my left hip hurting). I just roll on my back until it subsides...however I usually sleep on my left side anyway....my problem is horrible body aches!! I cant get rid of them, Im light-headed/dizzy, and i think I was running fever today! IDK what going on, the Dr says no kidney infection (that was my first thought). Im actually at work right now (sub teacher) and I only have 3 hours to go, but I feel like Im gonna pass out lol! as long as the kids will just do their crap and leave me alone, Ill be fine, they def dont want to challenge my hormones right now lol

This is my fill issue: I only feel restriction in the morning time, NOTHING goes down...But by night I can eat practically anything I want. This doesnt mean that I do (well anymore lol) but I could if I wanted. This happens whether Im filled or not. So I would go and increase my fill, and increase it, and increase it, until it was practically full...I still wouldnt feel the right amount of restriction...then one day it would ALL kick in and I would puke until I could arrange to see my Dr and could afford to go (no insurance, plus from my hometown its an 1 1/2 drive and from college it was like 9 or 10 hour drive). IDK whats going on, but I wanted you to know that your not the only one having problems with restriction. I havent had a fill in almost a year, and now Im pregnant so I actually need an unfill (although Im eating normally at night, but my fill actually seems to be working since Ive been pregnant). The Dr is just plain rude to me because I havent lost all my weight yet and its been 2 years for me as well. He says things that are so rude like "such a beautiful girl if you would get down to 125lbs" . I took my thin friend with me last time and SHE was offended by the things he said to me, she even admitted to being jealous of me because she feels like Im prettier than she is. Which I had to deal with (ugh! i hate it when ppl say crap like that), but she was offended because people tell her to gain weight and SHE weighs 135lbs! and the Dr wants me to be 10lbs thinner than her! Its soo frustrating, not getting good treatment because Im not a total success story. He acts as if I lie to him about what Im eating, and I dont! I have extremely SLOW metabolism, he knows that, he says its one of (if not the) slowest he's ever seen. Anyways, back on topic, lol, My fills are abnormalish as well and give me problems, so you're not alone

Oh Ive tried all the good ones out there, but the fact that I have to do it myself doesnt work because no matter what fantasy I imagine, it just goes straight back to the fact that Im a woman touching myself in that way, and im a little homophobic in a real way (not a denial way) lol! Im serious I freak out if another woman comes within so many inches of me, it really grosses me out for some reason