Me & My Beloved

My bypass was 12/16/13. I am SO GLAD I DID this, already... Without even looking, I'm 28 lbs down since the surgery, itself. I have a goal of 80 ounces of Fluid,and 80 ounces of Protein...and no surprise here, when I say, that is HARD... Today, I've committed to sipping but everytime I take a sip, I have the weirdest sensation. No pain, no discomfort but it's like a gurgle that isn't really a gurgle. SUCH A STRANGE sensation, and so difficult to explain. I'm not dehydrating, and I'm totally living on sugar free Popsicles... and shall we discuss the protein? UGH! I'm SO over the shakes, and have begun eating edamame, which seems to be a nice fit with my new "Beloved" pouch. I'm walking, and today I made myself get some baby food, the little 2.5 ounce jars, just to visualize the amount of food I should be aiming for, and I just want to say, I never realized how much my life revolved around food until I did this. You would think the sleep apnea and obesity would've been a clue, lol..however, the ongoing thoughts of food are surprising to me. So, I need friends, I need hints and tips... I'm in it to save my life, and reclaim myself, and overall I'm doing okay, but I know it will be so much easier with more friends and learning of others who have succeeded. Teach me, Lead me, push me, I'm receptive.

Christi: THANK YOU. I will be leaving this house, at o dark thirty to get some "new supplies". Just moving to the Flintstones will cheer me up... I will get the petite calcium citrate too... I think I'm going to get the B12 now, too. Had it not been the holidays, I would have had my next appt. sooner, so I'm going to just pick some of that up tomorrow. I can't EVEN tell you how much the sugar free hot chocolate idea cheered me up.... Thanks Terri, I love that site! Dorian & Ajustice: Thank you, also, for the encouragement. I am grateful to have had the surgery, and I want to remember to be grateful, it helps so much to hear about others who get past this, "Don't drink, Don't eat, Don't want" phase.... How long until the slight nausea goes away? And smack my hands, but will I ever eat again and not feel that strange "not quite gurgle" thing go off. I've never had stomach problems, so I can't really identify what that is, but it also grosses me out... but then I can, almost anything "grosses me out" today... Stay with me new friends, I won't be this needy long... I don't have a lot of people around me who have done this, and I'll be running to the first monthly support meeting, but in the interim, just these little bits of encouragement and awesome ideas, motivates me. I will be eating my crushed (and yes, SUPER GROSS) potassium in some sf pudding in the a.m. I will be going to get Flintstones, and petite calcium and B12 and sf hot cocoa tomorrow... Seriously, thanks guys... you got me through today... I'll toast you all with another sf Popsicle, as soon as my "beloved" a.k.a "new stomach" decides to permit such.. Ohhhhh, she is quite "bitchy" today, if you don't mind me saying. She wants N.O.T.H.I.N.G.....it's like the day of repulsion.... Looking forward to "this passing"...

I'm in Lake Mary. I just posted under "Hmmm, so it starts"... and yes, let's talk.

Thanks Everyone. I'm so grateful for the responses. They are all right on time. Today, I do need some help. These last couple of days, I know I'm not getting in the Fluid or the Protein. Today is day 16 since my surgery, and today my body is not cooperating. For example, I just tried: 1.The dreaded shake, two sips = No thanks. 2. Amy's Chili, one tip of the spoon = No thanks. 3. Vegetable Soup, one sip = No thanks. 4. Baby food (peaches), one tip of the spoon = No thanks. Yesterday, I just flat out did not take the potassium pill or the Vitamins. I convinced myself that I could "skip" a day... Then the guilt set in and I woke up determined, so today, I got the GINORMOUS potassium pill down. (NOW, there HAS to be an alternative to that, Dear God, it's horrible.) And I got down the gross CVS vitamins that make me shudder every time I take them. I can't even begin to imagine chewing the Calcium, not sure if I'm supposed to be yet, or not. And I can't wait to go get my B-12 shot and will be calling tomorrow to find out when that is. Nothing, and I mean NOTHING is desirable. I want to do this right, but my body has decided it is not interested. So somehow, I have got to at least get in the protein and the fluid. Even, the sugar free "OutSource" Popsicle I was in love with, are now no longer desired. Questions: 1. What can I do that gets the fluid and protein in? 2. Are there any alternatives to the gross potassium pill? 3. Are there any alternatives to the gross CVS vitamins? 4. How long will I feel like this? The Good News: I still have a good attitude, I'm just worried about staying in front of dehydration or combating this ridiculous lack of energy... I need tips...

Whew! I'm here...and I am thankful to have found you guys. I just had my surgery on 12/16. I'm out the gate with an amazing experience with my surgical team. I felt prepared and I was fortunate that my hospital stay was pretty uneventful. However, What hindsight I have already gained. I'm still processing the emotions of everything, and I think that is just because this is all so new. I am so glad I am past the surgery, because I did feel anxious about that, probably due to my fear of anesthesia. I am SO glad I'm past that part. Overall the pain has been bearable, and I feel my team took great care of me. So now, the new way, right? I really am trying so hard to focus on this new learning. It's sorta like my body is undergoing the "Spring Cleaning of it's life", while my brain is teasing me with thoughts of foods I am no longer having. Since we are all new, maybe I should spare all the food talk? Probably. Here's what I know, today. 1.) This surgery works. 2.) It is hard work to take the potassium, Vitamins, etc. like we need to. 3.) I am not sure I have had my full 80 ounces of Fluid yet, but I am trying. 4.) I am more sentimental,probably because of the time of the year, how food has been the center of family activities for years, and because I'm in the middle of a HUGE adjustment. I'm committed, I'm trying, and I need to stay connected to you guys, as even though I'm surrounded by supportive friends and family, its an adjustment that requires like minded, walking beside you, type of support.... So glad you guys are here, and even more glad I found you.

Whew! I'm here...and I am thankful to have found you guys. I just had my surgery on 12/16. I'm out the gate with an amazing experience with my surgical team. I felt prepared and I was fortunate that my hospital stay was pretty uneventful. However, What hindsight I have already gained. I'm still processing the emotions of everything, and I think that is just because this is all so new. I am so glad I am past the surgery, because I did feel anxious about that, probably due to my fear of anesthesia. I am SO glad I'm past that part. Overall the pain has been bearable, and I feel my team took great care of me. So now, the new way, right? I really am trying so hard to focus on this new learning. It's sorta like my body is undergoing the "Spring Cleaning of it's life", while my brain is teasing me with thoughts of foods I am no longer having. Since we are all new, maybe I should spare all the food talk? Probably. Here's what I know, today. 1.) This surgery works. 2.) It is hard work to take the potassium, Vitamins, etc. like we need to. 3.) I am not sure I have had my full 80 ounces of Fluid yet, but I am trying. 4.) I am more sentimental,probably because of the time of the year, how food has been the center of family activities for years, and because I'm in the middle of a HUGE adjustment. I'm committed, I'm trying, and I need to stay connected to you guys, as even though I'm surrounded by supportive friends and family, its an adjustment that requires like minded, walking beside you, type of support.... So glad you guys are here, and even more glad I found you.