Nettie

I went in for my follow up and was at 189 lbs. Down 46 1/2 lbs. since surgery. I had to have a slight unfill due to vomitting. I can't seem to get these allergies under controll. It is causing an enourmous amount of mucus. That is what is causing the vomitting. I hope this is a good adjustment for me. I'd like to see the weight start to fall off again. I say, ONE DAY AT A TIME!

I went in for my follow up and was at 189 lbs. Down 46 1/2 lbs. since surgery. I had to have a slight unfill due to vomitting. I can't seem to get these allergies under controll. It is causing an enourmous amount of mucus. That is what is causing the vomitting. I hope this is a good adjustment for me. I'd like to see the weight start to fall off again. I say, ONE DAY AT A TIME!

Wow, I've gone from a size 20 to a size 14! I'm so excited. I went and tried on clothes for the first time in a long time. I knew my clothes had gotten way to big but I was not sure what size I actually was until yesterday (6/18/08). I went and was able to fit in a size 14. Now if my boobs would just shrink a little with the rest of my body I'd feel much better. Life is grand! :biggrin:

Well, I've been banded for 8 months and I have lost 50 pounds :thumbup:. That's almost half way to my goal. The weight has not come off as fast as I would like, but it is coming off :cool:. I'm down to about 185 lbs. That's great considering I was at 235 when I started . So, you would think I would have some of my self esteem back. I would feel beautiful. I would not be ashamed of the way I look. How do I get my mind to gradually catch up with my shrinking body??? I've been fat for so long that I forgot what it feels like to feel beautiful. So, I do feel better about myself but I still think of myself as "FAT" . I will not wear certain clothes because I look fat. I will not go to the water park or the pool because I don't want to put on a swimsuit and look fat. My husband keeps saying "honey your not fat" you look good. :wub: Why don't I believe him??? I need to know how to look at myself and see a beautiful person and not see that Fat girl staring back at me. Does anyone have any suggestions on how to get back your self esteem???? :laugh: I know when I was 140 lbs. I still thought I was fat and I don't want to think that way anymore!!!! :thumbup: Suggestions Please!!!

I tried on clothes yesterday and realized I am down from a size 20 to a size 14!!! YEAH! Go Me!

Wow, I've gone from a size 20 to a size 14! I'm so excited. I went and tried on clothes for the first time in a long time. I knew my clothes had gotten way to big but I was not sure what size I actually was until yesterday (6/18/08). I went and was able to fit in a size 14. Now if my boobs would just shrink a little with the rest of my body I'd feel much better. Life is grand! :cool:

Well...I bought a new swimsuit and took the kiddies to the water park over the weekend. I have to admit that I was very uncomfortable but I made it through the day. All the time wishing I looked like the girl walking by in her suit or the one eating that big honking hotdog and skinny as a rail. Oh...lets not forget the one that was falling out of her suit and my hubby pointed her out to me. She was with a friend that didn't even tell her that her boob was hanging out. How embarrasing. All in all it was a good day! Thank you all for your encouragement!

Thanks for all the support!!! I guess I just need to tell myself each day that I am BEAUTIFUL. Maybe I will start to believe it. I do look back at the before photo's and think.... wow...that was me. I do look different but I still see myself as being fat....I know it's mostly in my head but with my DH's support and all the support I'm getting on here that will change eventually....I hope! Thank you all for your comments!

Thank you Julie. I know you are right. I have never loved myself at any weight. A lot of this has to do with the way I was raised. I love my father but believe me...he never missed a chance to tell me I needed to stop eating. I think I hear his voice in my head every time I look at myself in the mirror. He was never mean to me. He was raised that way so he just doesn't know the proper way to tell someone that they need to watch their weight or the way they eat. I went and got a new haircut yesterday and that made me feel good. I have not wanted to buy clothes becuase I know they will not fit for very long. Maybe a new outfit would make me feel better. Think I will try that. Thanks for your input!