batbat

You're right. I just called my husband a bit ago, and with his help I can make it. I just have to think about me being able to hike again someday.

So many stories on here got me tearful. I want to hug each and every one of you. For me.. I've always been heavy. Even as a child. My mother always made good for us food and I was active, playing soccer and such. Even in high school I'd opt to walk 1.5 miles home from school over taking the bus. As an adult, I've been hit with so many things emotionally and it's been so hard. Fighting with both my mind and my body. Going up and down like a roller coaster. Now I'm 31 and I'm almost double what I was when I was 18, making me 350lbs. I mean I'm mostly fine with my self image, but I can't do anything. I used to love hiking, fishing, cooking, crafting.. So many things. And I can't anymore. Either the mental or physical pain stops me. And I can't live like this anymore. I feel trapped in a cage. I want to be let out and be free again! I want to be able to keep up with my husband and not feel like a ball and chain holding him back. Even if he doesn't feel like I am. Only thing I am afraid of is how long it will take for me to get approved, and the long wait until the surgery date. If I even get approved or get the surgery I want (going to be working with Tricare. D:). I don't know how much longer I can wait to live. I've fought against the idea of WLS for so long, but after hearing about the sleeve.. I know that is what I need.