Angie_Blev

Growing up I was told to eat all my food or I couldn't go to bed...because MY mom cooked dinner late at night.... I was being fed grown man portions as a child and of course I ate it all...I grew up pretty heavy. To the point it was really hard for my mom to buy me shoes and clothes. As I grew up and started making decisions on my own I started taking weightloss pills and sometimes I wouldn't even eat. I started to love that feeling of being so hungry. I would get so angry at myself for having no will power over myself I started cutting myself....I hated myself for being over weight because as a teenager you wanted to have boyfriends and awesome friends but I wasn't nothing but a pretty face. I hated hanging out with friends because they would pick me up from home and I prayed there was room for me....I was pathetic. I was so used to feeling this ways about myself I let men mistreat me as a teenager and as an adult. Being treated that way was the normal. I won't blame me being over weight on my mother but I do think that's where alot of my unhealthhy habits came from. Thanks for reading -Angela