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[color=#FF0000]Hi everyone, I was banded with a 14 ml band in April 2009[/color]. Only my family and a couple of very close friends knew about it. I had some weight loss - but not much. To be honest I thought it would be miraculous.... it wasn't. I thought I knew what I was doing...I didn't.

From July 2009 through to February 2010, all four of my family, child, partner, mother and brother, had five surgeries between them and three acute illnessess. I was distracted and did nothing to support my band at that time.

[color=#FF0000]I had a fill in February 2010 [/color] but from March 2010 an illness (unrelated to the band) kept me off work for over 9 months, .During this time in September 2010I became an empty nester as my daughter went to Uni. I thought that would give me more me time .... it didn't. She had a very difficult time and needed a lot of support again I didn't do things well or use the band properly

I returned to work in January 2011 in that time there had been major changes at work, new manager, new team, and a new role. I work in direct contact with the public in quite a stressful job. I wasn't ready to get back to banding.

[color=#FF0000]Another fill in July 2011 took me to 9ml but didnt feel any difference, the doctor told me I would need two or three more fills, but [/color]I spent this year more absorbed in work than myself. I didn't do things well or use the band properly - ate on the run.

January 2012 brought a milestone birthday - 50 - but don't feel any different really!

2012 Another major restructure consultation at work, and new manager, team and role.... OMG.... here's a [b]whole[/b] lot more stress.

Here we are in October 2012 -[u][b] Im over three years banded and I weigh more now than when I started[/b][/u]. I feel disillusioned and ashamed of myself, I feel I have let my family down.

I just want to get back on it if I can. I feel like I have forgotten everything and need to start totally afresh. I have come back onto the forum as you are all inspiration and I really really need help with discipline

[color=#FF0000]So I beginning my journey again. Yesterday - 26/10/12 I had a fill of 1.5ml I'm now at 10.5ml in my 14ml band[/color]. It was under xray - the doctor said it all is fine with the band and the port and I am probably too loose.

Im following the liquids for 3 days, mushy for 3 days as per my fill advice.

I felt really hungry yesterday - nothing in the morning pre fill then soup, a cup every 2 hours

Today soup again, a cup, 3 hourly and I made jelly so had a cup of that too.... and for the first time in a very long time I felt like I wasnt hungry! omg!!

So I don't know if Im in the green zone, sweet spot what ever you like to call it - I know there is a temporary effect.

This time I know I have to get organised, stick at it and pay attention to myself.