hbeasley

Thank you! I have told him a lot how much I love him but I guess I need to be more honest about what has driven me to this decision. It is five years in the making and he knows that. And yes, when I am unable to tie my shoes with out being on a bed and in some weird position or when I am at the beach and can't get up and down easily, that drives me. But more than anything I DO want to live. I have diabetes, hypertension and etc. thx for the support! I already feel better and stronger mentally!

He's so against me doing this and says he's scared I will die on the table. He's the type of person that won't fly bc of fear. But I can't let HIS fear cause me to change my mind! I'm doing this to get healthy, right? He's really a great guy. Just sort of quirky.