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well, well, well.... Puddin, you know I luv ya, but the trip to SL not in the near future, but maybe a half way or some fun trip what about Las Vegas? somewhere for girls trip? things crazy for me. down another 8 lbs so now at about 154 or so. feels great although still cant buy a size 8 or 6 cuz my mind wont let me so I have to try on everything then sit in amazement. especially the shirts. size M or L if run real small./ the boobs are great!! especially during the summer no bra first time ever! tank tops and halters are great too never done that before. I am loving the new clothes styles and find I dress much sexier than before therefor much more attention. not that I cheat, cuz one man is enough! not to mention I just about got mine trained! haha he'd smack me if he heard me say that as he "thinks" he is the man of the house! yep, what ever keep dreamin' I have to find time to post better pics maybe a different thread as this is getting really long. I may be needing your help puddin, I'll pm when I get brave and ready or time/ realestate is keeping me busy as well as graduating kids and getting ready for college. I'll try to keep up on things though. goodluck 1

welp, not coming to SL anytime soon. things did not go well with oldest daughter at youngsts graduation. she is so negative and in a down spiral of self distruction that only she can get herself out of.. she was soo drama, at the after party, I finally got pissed and told her off, in front of alot of people. my husband got in the middle of us or she'd be black and blue. dont know where this negative focus she is in came from but I cannot let that negative suck the life out of you environment into my space. so, she is on her own. she needs to grow up and this is one fight mamma cant fight for her, I dont even want to fight it for her, she sucked my energy out more than the 100+ guests and twin 3year olds. being a mom sucks sometimes!!! ok pitty party for me... it over now! things will be happening in my life the next weeks so I wont post much but good luck puddin and keep positive, just remember the only things we control in life is our reaction to situations, we are accountable for that reaction and the consequesnces that follow. take care!

what the heck! gone for a few weeks and... Puddin, you know WE think your great, and have such respect for what you have done to get to the weight you are at. we all talk about lapband being a tool, and that is what it is. you had to have inner stregnth and will power to get to this point, I KNOW that! so you do have the inner power to overcome this addiction as well. we both know about change, but what about the inner acceptance of ourselves once this weight comes off. the protective layer that kept us safe from these decisions all these past years. now that layer is gone and we have to learn about ourselves and our new place in the world as if we were young teenagers again. just dont learn without actually learning a lesson. there is consiquences for all actions, and lessons to be learned from each lesson. Mine is not sex, (hubby wishes) it is the putting up with less crap from people. I live in a small town, so word travels quick! bitch out one person and your a bitch even those others dont know the situation or conversation. I put up with disbelief and lies because I didnt want to cause a seen, well, seen it is! cuz look at me know as I put you in your place I am willing to be seen and heard more so than before. ok. fun note, am coming to SL first week in June. daughter graduates May 27th from high school. my youngest, so we are coming to SL to shop for school clothes as she starts cosmotology school July 8th and needs all black stylish clothes. look out, momma has the credit card!!! We will stay at the Mariiot with the starbucks in it, downtown. other daughter works there. so I will let you know what days and PM you with my cell so we can hook up! propabaly Tues or Wed for about 5 days. Got plans? Got time? Talk to you soon, I will also bring you the materials we talked about too!!

so, youve not been to Lewitown MT!! millions of $$, NOT this listing was 95,000 and thats pretty average unless I sell a ranch or something but then you have to know something about cows other than "steak" I sent Jennifers email to you, I really appreaciate anything you can do, I will send her one and let her know what I did. she is a great girl, she just needs some goals and focus on achieving more than victoria secrets and Marriott. and guys who leach on girls dang that makes me sick!!! me skinny, NO still in 10s although their loose and should be 8s but, not shopping till 6's. the fill made me realize I was eating too much to get to the 6-8 range. i started shoping at the gap. they have a clothing line 1969 which is the year I was born (oops aged myself) so I feel compelled to wear that brand. thats the 10's by end of day toooo loose. loving the boobs, wish I had lipo done on top under boobs. sick of working out soo much. I wish wish wish I was one of those skinny chicks who dont work out ! since not, I will keep working out! UGH will know more about cancer areas after last set of removal resutls are in. they may need to remove more but then it will be gone. thats all I know about that now. it hurt like crap getting skin removed but I lov;e my doc, she numbed the area before the needle on the other areas so I felt nothing until yesterday now I just have little holes on my arms and back! oh well! size 6 did you ever think youd be there? do you look at your legs and think," damn my calves were bigger than my thighs are now!" I sometimes cant believe Ive lost almost half of my body and my senior daughter wieghs less than what ive lost! PIC on its way maybe I can scam one tomarrow he wont pose so I have to be sneaky! not buff, but not fat or skinny. he is super super nice guy - another new guy in town, fitness center owner dark skin, muscles mmmmm, WIFE, BABY. yep, not this one! no goal, just day by day. want to feel good and I do, and I look good too (most days) so just hanging, thanks again for challenge keep me posted of what you think. Thank you!!

sweethot143, as I read this thread, I go back to my siminary teacher telling me he would not argue religion with me, as LDS believe that each has their own opinions and arguing raises doubt in your beliefs. I never understood what he ment or why he wouldnt argue with me, but I see now! I no longer participate in or agree with all of the teaching of the church, not for any reasons listed on this thread, and laugh at most of the absurd comments made. If the dumb stuff said on TV wouldnt cause debate they wouldnt show it. But I do commend you on your stregnth and convictions of your religious beliefs. The true LDS religion is so family and member strong that is the one great thing the religion has given me. the importance of family and community.

I work with a personal trainer, she was a the fitness center then went on her own. advertised in local paper. I pay $120 month for 2 days per week 1 hr a day. she has her own facility and its just me and her so I go to her. she would come to my house for the same cost but I dont have all the stuff, plus I like "going" I do live in a small community so the cost is less than larger cities. but it is great and I have seen so much mmore results than at the gym on my own. the gym instuctor might know someone too> good luck!

well, as you know my daughter is in SL, she is having life issues like ones you dont tell your mom everything. she was/is living with this guy and I have been helping w/rent $ and he was to pay other half so she wouldnt have to work 2 jobs and live in trash. the quick of the matter is that I have been paying rent and she has been paying other half and other bills so he could get new quitars and playstation stuff. she is finally fed up as he lost his job 4 weeks ago and she has paid everything because he spent his money on "toys" and $150 cable. she wasnt ablt to go to california (on her $75 she saved) because he spent the electicity money he was to pay on more crap and waited until 5am when she was leaving to tell her. so neither girl got to go, other girls family flew her there and Jennifer stayed home. WHEW!!! she is fed up and their mutual lease is up June 30th so she is looking for her own place- so she tells me! I think she needs a big sister to help or advise her and since she IS the big sis, I just wondered if you wanted a 21 year old challenge? I can give you her email and you can intro yourself however you want. Just a thought, I TOTALLY understand if you have too much going on. let me know... other front, how are you??? I havnt been on much. as you know I got my realestate lisc,. and am in the process of closing my first sale. not sure if this is for me time will tell. also youngests graduation is May 27 so busy planning that. I did get a fill my band now up to 3.2 cc and I lost 4 lbs in the last two weeks. so now 164. feeling better, except found some skin cancer so no more tanning for me. am i reading you ticker right your down to 150? holy you must be soooo thin. send updated pics of your skinny self. later, good luck and hope all is going well. PS found a great guy for you here in MT my hubbys cousin but he is nice and cute and $$$$ he works with dead people. hes the county corenor and funeral home guy. hahah just lookin out for you!

hey, georgia are you around?? hows it going? want a new challenge in Salt Lake??

Well, it has been a long time! I was re-reading some posts and think I am the longest out on this thread. I want to let you know that your body will stall. you shouldnt get dissappointed, this is not like a "diet" we are all used to being on. there were several months I lost nothing. one month I lost zero pounds but I do body measurments and that was 20+ inches tbl. the band is a life change not a quick loose weight. your body HAS to adjust to the new size. your heart has to beat different, blood flw different.. ect. please do not get discouraged. I have learned a few things the past 2 years that no doc call tell you or understand. I like Dr. Rohrer but it is not the same as my original doc. the band surgery was his "baby" and he researched everything, and even did the preop and post op diet cuz patients said how hard it was. I miss him! that being said.. I requested a small .3 fill wanted alittle more but not too much again. Dr. thought it was .3-.5 closr to.5 I am not eating well-quanitiy or quality- and my personal plan was to be healthy not so skinny I was sick, I am giving it this week till wed. then if still uncomfortable back to GT and andother $100 for an unfill. then I am done with fills. I guess my body is happy where it is and the excersize I do will keep me fit. so, as I look back today over the last 2 years, 115lbs, and from a 22 to a 10. this being puky, not eating or eating and not holding it down, having the pb issues or feeling like pbing- is not where I need to be. it is simply not worth it. I did this to have a life, not a life waiting to throw up or not eat at all with get togethers. dont stress about weight loss, it will happen with the band. the most weight I lost was when I had our foster baby. he was very sick, 3.3lbs, and never slpet. my priority was him and I lost like 65 lbs in 10 months and never went to the doc or got a fill or exercised. I just lived my life like a "skinny" chick. great book- why french women dont get fat. have you read it, what did you think? Best of luck all, sorry for rambling need to call a friend to blabber, wrists are killing me! lol Brenda

tracy: Maybe regret is not the right word for me, as I would do it again in a heart beat, but yes, there are those factors that should be considered when having WLS. sagy loose skin, hanging boobs- I had a tt & bl and the difference made the world, I was honestly at the point I looked in the mirror and it was atleast "full" when I was fat and my back didnt hurt from the weight of the breasts. Now 100% happy but the tt & bl did make such a difference. my port is very noticable, and yes, it is an issue when wearing snugger shirts as it looks like a pouge in an otherwise flat tummy. constintly thinking, i wanna try this - food type but will it get stuck, make me pb ect. yes those thoughts still happen not daily but on ocassion. especially eating new place or at peoples homes that dont know. like chicken doesnt work for me, so at family that had bbq chicken and potatoe salad. neither works for me so I starved instead of risking more explaining and then ordered room service from the hotel at midnight- I was starving!!! so yes, issues, but regrets no! just issue to address but much less of an issue then the heart attach or stroke I was headed for.

yep, splash is the fav but it was closed during our trip.

Hey, just got a great idea??? to get your mind off the 21 days, come to MT Ive got lots of painting - outside and in, yard work, geting ready for last kids graduation, and she wants a princess fluff like a wedding party. we wanted outside keg and roasted pig thing, so put on your party pants or paint pants and I'll buy the airline ticket. GAME??? seriously need a time out away from your current surroundings? look me up, we'll find "something" to do. I do like to shop in SL and have a kid there. need to deliver furniture sometime. help me out Gretchen, ideas ideas, ideas. LETS GO SHOPPING ONLINE TOGETHER??? You can do this, you just put on your superwoman cape and stay focused and positive. Hey, post a thread on the great things that happened to you today. good hair day? butt looked cute in your jeans anything that made you feel good. start a feel good thread. mine.. got a lead on buyer wanting home in Lewistown she is coming from Florida next week and wants me to show her a few houses. oh yea, need that commission!! Took photo with group and my hair looks great! Was told I looked like a movie star! ok by 60+ year old woman havent seen in years but a movie star non the less! your turn Gretchen, what is great in your life today???

Just got back from Disneyland- Great time. I didnt "hurt" from rides like I did when heavy, I guess the tightness of the seat belts and grip bars made it worse. I had a tt & bl about 3 months ago, and did feel alittle "rattled around" but that was at California Days. DO NOT DO THE HOTEL HORROR!!! Major scarry ride drops you like 14 floors then up for more- yikes- I puked alot. not a good ride. good laugh for my family but not fun for me! Have a great trip, enjoy the weather and kiss Mickey!

Great thread, just yesterday I was talking to a friend about how I have switched to drinking and shopping. both equally. shop, drink, drink, shop. luckly havnt gotten myself into too much trouble, but did purchase $3000 in Louis Vuitton purse last week while on vacation in california. I rationalized it with my only trip to "Rodeo DRive" just crap I tell ya one obsession for another. It is in alot of other threads but until you put my finger on the point I just dont get it sometimes. So glad to not be the only one with this issue as it seems alot of us on LBT go thru similiar issues. Thanks for positng>