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I just bought a few things for a trip ny husband and I are taking. I just bought a dress in a size 8!!!! I am over the moon right now. My mom would be so proud and I know she's chearing ne on in heaven!!!

When I was 267 lbs I looked in the mirror and never thouggt I looked that big. I told myself my face wasn't fat and I carried it ok. Even tho I was 5'2"and wore a 24 pants I was convinced... Now, I am 144 and wear a size 10 or 8. I look in the mirror and think my face looks normal but my body is huge. My friend gave me a bunch of size 10 and 8 levis and shorts. I held them up and said there is no way they'll fit. I tried them on and they fit but I just feel confused. I am pkanning on making an appointment with my psych because surely these body issues aren't healthy. I still look at plussed size clothes. Is anyone else doing this? I feel like a freak and am sick of oeopke twllibg me I am tiny when all I see is fat and skin.

That's exactly how I feel. I still kind of cringe when people say I am small. My best friend who is so supportive is the one that gave me the clothes. She's in 12s now so we swapped but I always thought she was skinny so being smaller than her is confusing me. I know it doesn't make sense... it just goes to show how our braibs don't catch up. Losing ny mom last week, to obesity related compkications makes me feel that much more depressed, scared and confused... hence my call to my bariatric psychologist. She knew my mom too from when we did Optifast years ago, so I am hoping she can help me make sense of these feelings and fear. Congratulations on your size zero!!! That must be unreal. I can't imagine. I am petite too and small boned and will be thrilled if I can get to a six or four let alone a zero. On a positive note I needed my rings sized again. I am now a 4.5 on my rings.

Get a 16... trust me. I just bought size 12s at the end of february. I bought 4 pairs of work pants and in now in a 10 more like an 8. The 12s are going to goodwill this weekend and some I only wore one time.

Oh excedrine migraine how I miss you.. I agree, this one is huge... Where do you teach college and what subject? My graduate degree is in healthcare administration and I have been thinking about looking into teaching after working over 20 years in that field. I have been in healthcare my entire career but always said teaching would be my 'plan b'. I hold two bachelor degrees; one in english and another in healthcare administration. Although my typing on this site is horrendous due to using my phone. It makes me laugh because I would cringe if I read my writing on here in ' real life'.

I miss birthday cake. Being a dumper im scared of sugar and stat completely away. I'd love a piece of birthday cake, even tiny on my birthday. But I skipped.

I eat popcorn... no issues at all. I eat it dry with no butter cooked at home in olive oil.

Has anyone heard from jeepchick?? Ive missed her. Im hoping she's ok.

I want to dream about mom so badly. I remember when my grandmother died I had the most vivid dreams and they were wonserful. Life is hard but I'll tell you just like Jesus said,"love is the greatest gift". Hugs!!

Aww thank you. It has been tough. My mom passed last Wednesday. She went with all her children and my dad, her husband of 52 years holding, talking, singing and praying over her. I am destroyed but know she's in a better place and I will see her again when it's my time. I haven't worked out in 2 weeks and not eating a lot but trying to get back into my routine. I plan to gym it tomorrow and msde my lunch today. I just have lost an apoetite from nerves but know I need to eat. I am drinking water which is good. You all are so special to me. I am thankful for you all. This journey is hard and after seeing ny mom die of obesity related complications it confirms I never want to go back. Less than 20 lbs to goal and then maintenance for me.

It took me a lot longer but I came off of my bp meds in february. My surgery was last june so don't give up. I was taking 100mg metoprylol and 25 mg of clorothalidone(sp??). He kept dropping the metoprylol and now I am officially off of them all. I take medicine for gout and that's it, it's wonderful!!!

I drink the chike coffee protein too. I put it in the blender with ice and water and it is yummy. I buy the individual packets.

Wow that is phenomenal!!!! Yay and great job!!!!

I was the same as you. My mom was obese and so was I. I got the lapband in 2008 and it was great for the first two years and then I had a lot of serious issues from the band. I ended up with intestibal metaplasia which is a precursor to stomach cancer. I was diagnosed with that in january 2013 and made my decision to have the band removed and revised to rny thst same month. My revision was june 2013 and I am now 145 and 15 lbs from my goal. Unfortunately my mom just died on wednesday from complications from a lifetime of obesity and I vowed back in 2008 I would d I whatever it took to not go through the humilistion sadness and embarrassment of obesity any longer. Even at the end when we decided to bring my mom home with hospice it was a battle because of bed sizes. ny mother was 6 foot tall and weigh 330 lbs but because of chf she haf 60 lbs of fluid on by the time she died. People are cruel and not understanding of large people and our healthcare system is broken beyond belief. Sorry to prattle on but I want you to weigh all of your options. The band is a phenomenal tool but dont go into it just because it can be 'reversed'. There are repercussions to anything we do to a body. So make sure you understand the maintenance and signs of issues. I loved my band but now that it is gone I realize how thankful I am that they caught the intestinal metaplasia early and I listened to my body to tell my dr something was wrong. And yes, fills are expensive. Expect several a year barring issues. PM me if I can provide further insight

My mom passed away tonight. It was the hardest thing I've ever been through. Our whole family was there and surrounded her as Jesus took her to heaven. Thank you all for your kindness and support. God bless you all.

I'm struggling. I'm sitting in a hospital room holding my mom's hand. Her kidneys have shut down and hospice comes tomorrow, we are taking her home. The last six weeks have been horrible. I'm hurting, tired and not taking care of myself. I have to get through this I love my mom more than any one. She is my one true constant.

Congratulations !! You've done so well!!!

That is so cool! I am inspired by you too. I have a goal of 125 but if I can get to 130s I will be thrilled. Im in a 10 petite now and am feeling 'normal' sized for the first time in 20 years. It is wonderful! I love the new me!!

I hit a nice mini milestone today. I am officially closer to 100 lbs than 200! I am 149 and can't believe I finally am lower than 150. I used to say when I was gaining " I'll never be bigger than..." I remember 150 was the first time. It ended when I was 267 and said " 275 is next..." at 5'2" I can't tell you how much better this direction down feels. Well now 125 is next!!!

A triathlon is awesome! I am so impressed! That would be so cool in my book.

Hw 267 Sw 230 Lw 150 Cw 149 Officially closer to 100 than 200!!! Yippee!!!!

I remember a thread for goals but can't find it so I'm starting a new one. What are your goals and where are you with them? My goals Goal1: under 200 - complete Goal2: under 175 - complete Goal3: under 167 (this is my 100 lb loss from my all time high of 267) Goal4: under 150 Goal5: under 125

Yay!!! Those are all great! I especially love the prescription free one. I am almost there having come off of all of my bp meds. Just gout left!

Completely agree; I am 9 months out from ny revision and have been working at this for over five years so by no means has my reaching any of my goals been fast. With that said, they are mine so I am proud when I hit another milestone.

Oh my!! That happened in the hospital for me and it was way worse. Bless your heart!