Tomorrow should have been my surgery date. I'd been very nervous - I thought I'd done enough prep reading these boards but a couple of days ago I got really scared that I didn't know what would happen after the ten year mark. What if there's massive nutrition deficiencies? I started reading bad stories - unsupportive stories - and was really nervous that I didn't prepare myself enough. I've had a lot of people question me doing this -my BMI is 40- thinking I should just do it the regular way and I'm taking the easy way out. There's no question this isn't the easy way out. I tell them its the effective way out. Despite my doubts, I was carefully getting ready for the surgery with my pre-op diet.
Then my car got hit on my way to work. It caused some painful whiplash in addition to damage to my car. This - two days before my surgery. I thought I should hold off until Friday, but the surgeons office said the next appointment wasn't until the end of November. I said I wanted to get feedback from my doctor before postponing the surgery. At the doctors office, he told me that he recommended me postpone this because the anesthesia involves a lot of neck manipulation which could hurt worse. I can't define my emotions. Can you have disappointment and relief at the same time? Suddenly I wanted pumpkin pie. 3 weeks was enough time for some pie.
It turns out my X-rays look okay...and now my neck doesn't hurt that bad.. I have everything with work arranged for my leave. My emotions and desires about this surgery crystalized. I want this now. I've prepared for this and I don't want to look back. I didn't eat any pie...but okay I had some Cereal. I mostly kept with my pre-op diet in hopes an earlier time would open up. I made an appointment Friday with a physical therapist and a slot opened up for my surgery on November 4th and I know I'm ready.
