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Dr. Schluman- I am 20-30 lbs away from my goal weight and am trying to decide when to get my tummy tuck. I have had a consult with a great doctor and am very excited. My problem is this, my plastic surgeon recommends me to be as close to my goal weight as i can be/want to be before the tuck. which i completely understand. if i were to continue to lose more weight there is the possibility of my stomach becoming loose and saggy again. my thing is that i carry all of my weight in stomach. the rolls are very big and gross and hang all nasty. i have lost 50 lbs and am not not one pant size smaller because of it. the doctor told me if i thought i would be happy at my current weight, just minus the stomach then to go for it. i think i would be. i love my new legs, they are much thinner and toned, same with my arms. its just my belly that i hate now. what would your suggestion be to a patient that came to see you in my situation? like i said, i think i would be happy at this weight, just looking better, but how do i know for sure that would be the right choice? i know that is MY choice to make, i am just seeking advice. thanks.

heather- thank you so much! i was at a bad place last night when i posted that and was an emotional wreck over my weight. i was feeling a little better today, but after reading your post i feel much better. i am trying not to belittle myself over this "hiccup" as you said and just get back to doing what i know i need to do. thank you for not judging me and thank you for understanding. i have thought about doing the five day pouch test before but never have. i am going to take a better look at it, thanks for the suggestion. i got up early this morning and walked/jogged on the treadmill. that was a great way for me to start the day off right. and so far today i am doing good with my eating/drinking choices. i just have to remember its not the end of the world when i mess up, i just have to start over.

married- i think its great you have such a good relationship with your daughter. that is how my mom and i are, she is my best friend. and i call her when i am sick too, lol. i wouldnt say my girlie gene is weak but i am also not a girlie girl. i fix my hair for work or when we go to do something, but if i am just home for the weekend, a pony tail is it. same with makeup. i do get my nails done though. my real nails break and split and i hate it, so i have the fake gel kind. but i keep them short. my husband doesnt get the point of it since i have them done so short, but i love them. they hold up great during the horse riding or the four wheeler rides or building fence, or whatever we are doing. i love being outside and am horrible at housework. lol, my hubby hates that! i have only one purse at a time. i use it until it has holes and then i buy a new one. they are usually perty generic and brown and from wallyworld. i love my boots. cowboy boots that is. i have a bunch of different ones. ones for riding, and then my assortment of different colored ariat pro-babies. and i love flip flops in the summer. just the cheap ones from wallyworld too. i was super stoked when my hubby brought me home a new pair of carhart bib coveralls that didnt fit a guy he works with. they are so nice and warm and the ick in the corral's didnt get threw them as fast when we were lambing. those late late nights in the freezing cold are much better now. so yeah, i am somewhat girlie, but not fru-fru so, ya know?

my goal is so close i can almost taste it!!!!

lbtalker- starting at square one is a good idea. dont know why i hadnt thought of it like that. i was banded by the same doctor you used, small world. i use a fill center usa doc for my fills. i dont blame any of my problems on him. its all on me and i know this. i think that having restriction again will do wonders for me and i will be able to follow the rules again. especially because i am going to think of this as if i just had the surgery...like you said, start over. my fill is early tomorrow morning and i am so excited to get it. kind of nervous because i have had such bad luck with fills lately, but excited nonetheless. thank you for your response.

i would really appreciate some help. i havent posted on lbt for some time now. i had some problems and in august of 08 had a complete unfill. varying circumstances kept me from getting a fill for almost 6 months. when i could start getting filled i was super sensitive and could only handle very small fills. fast forward to today. i have not lost a single pound since then. well, i lose, i gain, i lose, i gain. i have a fill scheduled for tomorrow. i hope its my light at the end of this damn dark tunnel i am in. a few weeks ago i had a consult w/ a plastic surgeon about my tummy tuck. i set a personal goal that i have to lose 15 more pounds before i can schedule the surgery. but i keep sabotaging myself. i eat crap foods, i dont exercise consistently. i dont know what the hell i am doing. all i have wanted for as long as i can remember is a tummy tuck. now that it is SO close and attainable, i am screwing myself. any advice or suggestions on how to get out of this funk would be greatly appreciated. thanks!

i have been researching plastic surgeons in my area for a long time now. hell, even before i got my band! i am going to have a tummy tuck done. and, eventually, a breast lift with augmention. i have it narrowed down to two doctors. well, let me explain.... i had been looking at dr "a" for quite some time. thought he would be the one. then found out about dr "b" from a friend. really really liked dr b. thought he would be the one. but now that the its getting closer to the time i want it done, i dont know! both doctors have great credentials and certifications, etc... here is my the thing- dr a's photo's, well the before's look more like me. and the after's are amazing. dr b's are really really good as well. i am just concerned that his before patients dont look like me now. the before pictures of dr a, hell, it could be pictures of my belly! no joke. dr b's just arent as bad. but dr b also specializes in ps after weight loss. maybe he just doesnt have those pictures posted on his website. i know they have a whole collection of photos at the office i can look at. how do you pick between the two? i have consultations set up with both of them next week. i really am praying that i will just KNOW after meeting them. any ideas? suggestions? thank you! also, anyone in/around the salt lake city/ogden/orem utah area that has had plastics, please let me know who you used. or if you know of dr berg or dr brzowski, please share your experience with me! thanks again!

ann- thank you SO MUCH! for posting that link. omg, puddin is HOT! she looks incredible. her before after shots really are great. i am perty sure i am going to just stick w/ dr b like i had planned. i think my panic comes from being so nervous/scared/excited about it being so close to becoming a reality. i have wanted a tummy tuck for so long, its like i dont know how to handle it that its actually going to happen!

so i need some help in a bad way ladies. in october i had a hysterectomy and since then have no desire what so ever to have sex. this is not good. i used to have a healthy sex drive. now i have none. literally NONE! its starting to cause problems with my hubby. he doesnt understand that i dont like being like this either. does anyone have any suggestions? ideas? i have called the doctor and they are going to call in some kind of prescription cream? and she said if that doesnt work then we can try changing my hormones. last night hubby was very very mad/upset with me. i just want to get this figured out! thanks!

omg, i laughed so hard when i read what you wrote and then read what i wrote! i didnt mean if they liked anal on themselves, i meant more like, why they like to have anal (give anal???) to their wife/girlfriend. like, what is different? just the tightness, etc... so i will go ahead and ask them. i have never posted a poll before but will give it a shot.

ok, i will post it. but first i need some input about what we are asking. if they enjoy any rear play on themselves? or why they like anal?

in my case, yes there was clitoris stimulation. but the orgasm is so much different and so intense. so i think its a combination of both. even my best "normal" orgasm was nothing like it.

i have had probably one of the most intense super orgasms ever during anal. just like everyone has said, when done right, it can be great. but that is the key! lots of lube and slow. i read in one post that maybe after an orgasm is the best time to try it so you are relaxed. i know for me its best if i havent yet. just another example of something different for everyone. and i was just wondering if this thread ever got started in the men's room??? curious! curious!

ugh! i hate money. more like i hate the lack of money at present. money money money! i know the pull to munch on something is just because i am upset and stressed. so i am here instead, keeping my fingers busy. i have lost a few pounds the last week or so. that feels good. i have worked out a few times, need to get better about it, but at least it was something. i am really starting to worry about this cruise we are going on in october. will i be at goal in time to have my tummy tuck before? if not am i gonna be at an ok place emotionally? i dont wanna be freakin out all week on the boat! plus, the formal dinners? omg, i have to buy some clothes. the other ladies of the couples we are going with are looking at stuff now...i am getting depressed. i dont wanna look at stuff now! what size will i be then? ughh, what a day so far! and its not even noon. great.

ugh! i hate money. more like i hate the lack of money at present. money money money! i know the pull to munch on something is just because i am upset and stressed. so i am here instead, keeping my fingers busy. i have lost a few pounds the last week or so. that feels good. i have worked out a few times, need to get better about it, but at least it was something. i am really starting to worry about this cruise we are going on in october. will i be at goal in time to have my tummy tuck before? if not am i gonna be at an ok place emotionally? i dont wanna be freakin out all week on the boat! plus, the formal dinners? omg, i have to buy some clothes. the other ladies of the couples we are going with are looking at stuff now...i am getting depressed. i dont wanna look at stuff now! what size will i be then? ughh, what a day so far! and its not even noon. great.

the fill went good. i am now at 1.8cc. this is what i was at when i was losing consistently. slowly, but consistent. i really dont know if the fill has given me restriction or not. i really dont want to eat anything, mushie or not, just because of my last fill. i dont want to irritate my stomach and/or the band. the thought of being that swollen and tight frightens me. that sucked so bad. i have a horrible bladder/kidney infection. omg, the nurse even had me come back and look at the stick, every color was lit up and super bright! more color then the dang chart even showed. she says, this is bad. GREAT! just what i need. but i am assuming that is why my back has been killing me. i hope it goes away w/ the infection. i feel good today. i have this renewed since that i can do this. lol, and i dont even know yet if i have restriction! what a head game this all can be. i am gonna try some mashed potatos, the medication is making me sick to my stomach. i am going to exercise tonight. ride the stationary bike my mom has while the boys are at boxing. i hope my back starts to feel better. then i will be back on the treadmill and weights at home! STUPID freakin cranberry juice! 120 calories for 8 oz. and i am drinking the stuff like crazy for the infection. i wonder if wally world has cranberry pills? does it work the same? think i will check into those! all these empty calories are bad!

i am so excited! my band is back! after being MIA (empty) since august, its back! i got some mashed potatos to try and i only ate just a tad over half the single serving from kfc. and i am full! i dont want anymore. i really probably should not have taken that last bite, but i am not stuck or anything either. ahh, the burp of passing food. lol, how lame am i? to be excited that i have to burp! its a good day.

i am so excited! my band is back! after being MIA (empty) since august, its back! i got some mashed potatos to try and i only ate just a tad over half the single serving from kfc. and i am full! i dont want anymore. i really probably should not have taken that last bite, but i am not stuck or anything either. ahh, the burp of passing food. lol, how lame am i? to be excited that i have to burp! its a good day.

the fill went good. i am now at 1.8cc. this is what i was at when i was losing consistently. slowly, but consistent. i really dont know if the fill has given me restriction or not. i really dont want to eat anything, mushie or not, just because of my last fill. i dont want to irritate my stomach and/or the band. the thought of being that swollen and tight frightens me. that sucked so bad. i have a horrible bladder/kidney infection. omg, the nurse even had me come back and look at the stick, every color was lit up and super bright! more color then the dang chart even showed. she says, this is bad. GREAT! just what i need. but i am assuming that is why my back has been killing me. i hope it goes away w/ the infection. i feel good today. i have this renewed since that i can do this. lol, and i dont even know yet if i have restriction! what a head game this all can be. i am gonna try some mashed potatos, the medication is making me sick to my stomach. i am going to exercise tonight. ride the stationary bike my mom has while the boys are at boxing. i hope my back starts to feel better. then i will be back on the treadmill and weights at home! STUPID freakin cranberry juice! 120 calories for 8 oz. and i am drinking the stuff like crazy for the infection. i wonder if wally world has cranberry pills? does it work the same? think i will check into those! all these empty calories are bad!

today is the day! that fill i so ever desperately need is coming this afternoon. i am scared/excited/nervous. i am ready for this. ready for restriction again and to lose this damn weight. right? why am so worried about it? my head is just going in a bunch of different directions. its like, omg, i wont be able to eat bla bla this or bla bla that. and i KNOW that is a good thing, but its also upsetting me right now. how freakin stupid is that? i know its stupid, and yet, i feel that way. but i know i wont miss the pounds i am going to lose. i know i wont miss the massive fat rolls that are me right now. i am so gonna work this so hard now! i can do this. hell, i know i can and i am gonna do it! i printed off a bunch of pictures of swim suits i like. ones that i want to take with me on the cruise in october. i am hangin them up on my fridge and my cabinets at home. that way any time i am tempted to open them and eat i have a reminder! my hubby thinks i am nuts. so be it. if nuts is what it takes to do this again, nuts it is!

to see the me my husband sees.

i am ready to get back on the losing weight track! no more excuses. no more! NO MORE! and because i am tired of beating myself up for gainined weight during my time of being empty. with today's fill its time to be positive and get back into the right way of thinking!

today is the day! that fill i so ever desperately need is coming this afternoon. i am scared/excited/nervous. i am ready for this. ready for restriction again and to lose this damn weight. right? why am so worried about it? my head is just going in a bunch of different directions. its like, omg, i wont be able to eat bla bla this or bla bla that. and i KNOW that is a good thing, but its also upsetting me right now. how freakin stupid is that? i know its stupid, and yet, i feel that way. but i know i wont miss the pounds i am going to lose. i know i wont miss the massive fat rolls that are me right now. i am so gonna work this so hard now! i can do this. hell, i know i can and i am gonna do it! i printed off a bunch of pictures of swim suits i like. ones that i want to take with me on the cruise in october. i am hangin them up on my fridge and my cabinets at home. that way any time i am tempted to open them and eat i have a reminder! my hubby thinks i am nuts. so be it. if nuts is what it takes to do this again, nuts it is!

feel like crap today. guilty crap. basically no exercise this weekend. ate crap. and paying for it. what the hell is wrong with me? why cant i get a grip on myself? please please this fill i have on wed work and get me back to a good place. i feel so gross today. i swear i can feel the fat roll growing under my chin and around my waste. its terrible and disgusting. its so gross to look at myself, its so gross to feel this right now. i have not felt this gross and nasty for the longest time. i have a lot of hard hard work ahead of me. i can not keep doing this. its not worth the hell i put myself through. with this fill in a few days i will have some much super needed restriction. i can get my head back to where it needs to be. i will start exercising right. i know i can do this. hell, i was doing it and i know it works. i just have to get back to that me, not this sluggish, down, icky me. i dont like this me...this FAT me again! i cant believe i let myself get here again. i was so close! so close! so close to goal. and here i am, not so close anymore. god i must be stupid. but no point in doing this self-bashing. i have to keep going. i have to start over and just work it again. i can do this!

feel like crap today. guilty crap. basically no exercise this weekend. ate crap. and paying for it. what the hell is wrong with me? why cant i get a grip on myself? please please this fill i have on wed work and get me back to a good place. i feel so gross today. i swear i can feel the fat roll growing under my chin and around my waste. its terrible and disgusting. its so gross to look at myself, its so gross to feel this right now. i have not felt this gross and nasty for the longest time. i have a lot of hard hard work ahead of me. i can not keep doing this. its not worth the hell i put myself through. with this fill in a few days i will have some much super needed restriction. i can get my head back to where it needs to be. i will start exercising right. i know i can do this. hell, i was doing it and i know it works. i just have to get back to that me, not this sluggish, down, icky me. i dont like this me...this FAT me again! i cant believe i let myself get here again. i was so close! so close! so close to goal. and here i am, not so close anymore. god i must be stupid. but no point in doing this self-bashing. i have to keep going. i have to start over and just work it again. i can do this!