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i start my 10 day pre-op on the 24 too. i am doing the same thing, like almost in a panic, omg--what shoud i eat now that i wont be able to? i keep thinking i am doing horrible, but i havent gained any so it must not be. tonight my dh and i are going out with his brother and his wife to dinner and to the haunted houses. kinda like my last hoorah before monday. my bil and sil have NO idea that i am doing this though, they just think we are going out for a night w/ no kids. i am looking forward to it. we live in a small rural town and we going into the "city" in the neighboring state, so i get to eat at my favorite GOOD place...now i just have to decide which one that is!!! best of luck on your diet. i am excited to start, it just makes it all real, ya know?

throught this whole process my dh had not been supportive. he really isnt unsupportive either. he flat out told me he didnt want to hear anything about it. nothing, period. so i havent told him much. oh, of course, some of my excitement has spilled over and i have a said a few things here and there, only to be met w/ a plain, oh, or huh. even though i know better, it still stings when he is like this. or when he told me i should just get off my ass and workout. last night i mentioned that i needed to go to GNC (we live in a very small town w/ no where like this to shop, but are going to salt lake this weekend, so i thought i would go then). he asked why and i told him to look into some Protein powders and Vitamins. he was like, why, you wont do it, you wont take them. umm, excuse me, yes i will! i have to! he doesnt know anything about this or how involved i have been, doing research, finding out what i need to do. then he tells me, i didnt know you would have to stuff like this. NO SHIT! you didnt want to hear anything about it, so i havent said anything (minus those occasional slips of course). i dont know why it got me all upset, i am used to this attitude about it from him. part of my thinks he wants me to fail at this too, like i have w/ just about every other diet program i have tried. he doesnt understand that this is a life changing thing, forever. i will finally be that thin(ner) person i have never been! he told me he doesnt think i will do the 10 day liquid diet. like hell! last night i wanted to start it early, just to show him. but i didnt. i ate my salad and i was pissy and upset for a while. oh well. thanks for listening to me vent about it. i feel better just getting it typed out. and i know you all will be supportive of me. thanks.

<p>so monday-the 24-i start my 10 day pre-op liquid diet. i am so excited. i cant believe its so close! finally, a real answer to this problem i have had for my entire life. i cant wait. but i am starting to get nervous. what will i look like thin? what if i still hate me when i am thin? what will my dh think? family? friends? i am not telling anyone, how will i handle the questions? will there be questions? will people even notice? omg, what if nobody notices? what will it be like? will i lose fast? sorry...and these are just a few of whats runnin through my head!</p> <p> </p> <p> how are you all feeling?</p>

<p>so monday-the 24-i start my 10 day pre-op liquid diet. i am so excited. i cant believe its so close! finally, a real answer to this problem i have had for my entire life. i cant wait. but i am starting to get nervous. what will i look like thin? what if i still hate me when i am thin? what will my dh think? family? friends? i am not telling anyone, how will i handle the questions? will there be questions? will people even notice? omg, what if nobody notices? what will it be like? will i lose fast? sorry...and these are just a few of whats runnin through my head!</p> <p> </p> <p>i know there are a few others headed for surgery on the 4th. how are you all feeling?</p> so i think i posted this in the wrong spot maybe? i reposted it on its own thread too. sorry! just figuring all this out..

for those of you with around that much to lose, how much did you lose before your first fill. i have found lots of posts about how much people have lost to begin with. i was just wanting to narrow it done to people with about the same as me. i have been told that the more you have to lose, the faster your loss is to begin with. thanks!

whoa--i didnt even think of that! i am so glad you mentioned it. i did take a couple yesterday, but quickly remembered why i had stopped. i was sick to my stomach and shakey and grumpy. thanks!

or chewable? dont want to limit responses. what vitamins are doing best you everyone? thanks!

i just wanted to say that i enjoyed reading this post and all the responses. more then once, thanks to princess, i nearly fell outta my chair laughing.

i am feeling the same way. i too am scheduled for the 4th. i find myself wondering how life after this will be. what will i say to family/friends at gatherings? we are big into get togethers, bbq's at the brother-in-laws, entire family holiday meals...its kinda nerve racking. i am not telling anyone save for my dh, my mom, and 2 very close friends. i dont want to have to explain any of it to people. i am an emotional eater, how will i "deal" w/ things when i dont have the comfort of food to turn to? omg, i have like a million questions i could ask that just dont have a solid answer. glad to know i am not alone in my nervous anticipation. :nervous

nicole. thanks for the list.

i didnt qualify for surgery in the states, so i am headed to mexico oct 4 w/ dr huacuz. i dont know if the hospital will require pre-pmyt or not. you could always ask them, and ask them if you could set up some sort of pymt plan?? best of luck.

nan42--- i am the same way. my bmi is on the lower end and i couldnt find a doctor in the states that said i qualified for the band. i am being banded oct 4 in tj, mexico by dr daniel huacuz. he has banded several people i know and everyone has great things to say about him and the care you receive. i know his staff as been incredibibly helpful this far.

ok, so i am seriously having a hard time! i am eating everything and thinking of what else i want to eat "for the last time" even though i know its not really going to be like that. i have a countdown going in my head until sept 24--the day i start my 10 day pre-op liquid diet. i posted before i have this sick way of rationalizing what i am doing b/c i am not gaining any weight from my little binges...not good though. and i know this! the scale has been going down a pound or two and back to what it is, but never higher. maybe i am not binging as bad as i think i am? oct 4 is just around the corner. i am so excited. i keep picturing all the cute clothes i will finally be able to fit into. omg, for the first time in my life, i will be thin!!! its an amazing thought, a scary thought, allmost overwhelming, ya know?

i have yet to see where these parking spaces REPLACE a handicap space. around here, they are located after those designated for the handicap. i agree w/ the other poster, i dont think you have small children! and just why does it bother you so? whats the problem?

i just posted in the other thread for october but will do so again here. i am scheduled for oct 4 w/ dr huacuz in Mexico. i cant wait. this seems to finally be the answer for a life time struggle! i have to do a liquid diet 10 days prior to surgery. right now though i am definately on a crash course last meal sort of plan. then i feel super guilty and do good for a few days, then panic and binge. i am staying steady at my weight so i justify it to myself in some sick way. any ideas on how to get myself under control a bit better? i am so excited, but also getting nervous. i have just 2 weeks left to before i start my pre-op diet. the thought of it finally being so close is exciting and scary all at the same time.

<p>i get banded oct 4! i am so excited. not too much longer! i have to do a liquid diet for 10 days prior. i am a little nervous about that, but i want this so badly i dont think it should be too big a problem for me. i am having my procedure done in mexico by dr huacuz. has anyone else used him? i have a friend that did and several of her friends and family have and they are all doing great, its just amazing to see the before and after pictures. i cant wait to be an "after"!</p>