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Sounds like you had a great day with your foster daughter. I never thought of looking into swimming at a hotel. We have 2 public pools in the area but the last time I was there, years ago, they were so crowded. I'll have to look around. It looks like most ppl in here favor the ninja blender because it does the ice. To me, all protein has been awful. I've tried a few different premades and powders and they all taste bad. I just choke it down. Now that I quit smoking, my taste buds will change so maybe ill find one I can semi enjoy. Im going to order the plain protein from unjury to mix in foods. Every little bit of protein counts. I love fish and clams and mussels and shrimp and they are all good for protein. I also love beef Jerky. A lot of the time I will eat an ounce of beef jerky with a low fat 50 calorie cheese stick (frigo cheesehead) and call it my lunch. I never tried any of the juice Proteins. I'll take your word that they taste awful lol. I'm just taking regular one a day vitamins right now. Oh, and I ordered some Biotin to start now. Hopefully by starting biotin now, it will help later when my hair wants to fall out post op. One thing I have noticed...I have only lost 24.2 lbs but, my seatbelt fits sooo much better and more comfortable. I haven't worn a seatbelt in many years even tho its a law here in pa. The last time I got pulled over for speeding, I grabbed my seatbelt quick and I couldn't get it buckled in time so my daughter held it down next to my seat the whole time the officer was at my window so I didn't get cited for no seatbelt too lol. How embarassing. Can you imagine having to explain to a police office that the reason ur not wearing a seatbelt is because you are too heavy?? And he was a hot police officer lol. I would have died. So yeah, buckling up without a hassle made me smile. My fingers are crossed for you that you get your next appt!!! You can do it!! My appts have been once a month. They haven't depended on weight loss. I guess all centers are different. Today, we are going to a cookout at my brothers house. This should be fun since cookouts always have all kinds of Yummy food that I shouldn't eat. Ugh. Moderation, moderation. Maybe it will get rained out lol. Have a great day Terri!! (Pre op) Journey Starting Weight: 341, Current Weight: 319, Goal weight: 140 (After GB) Hoping for December surgery date!!!

Awesome story!!! Great job :-) Love reading success stories here. I can't wait to write my own someday. (Pre op) Journey Starting Weight: 341, Current Weight: 319, Goal weight: 140 (After GB) Hoping for December surgery date!!!

Thanks for the replies. The fitbit scale sounds interesting. I'll check it out. Thanks again!!! (Pre op) Journey Starting Weight: 341, Current Weight: 319, Goal weight: 140 (After GB) Hoping for December surgery date!!!

We get too much snow per year. It's pretty when its falling but I hate driving in it. I used to not mind it. I guess as I've gotten older, things change. I use to love the water when my kids were small but its been so long since I swam. I want to eventually join a gym with a pool but not yet. I want to be able to feel comfortable in a gym. It amazes me how much I've changed since I gained all this weight. I use to love life and meeting new people. Now, not so much. I had my last cigarette at 6pm.. slept from 11-3am, and now I'm up. I never sleep a lot. It's only been 9 hours but so far so good!! I can do this :-) along with sticking to my low calorie low fat diet :-) I'm munching on baby carrots that I poured into the left over pickle juice. Actually very good!!! (Pre op) Journey Starting Weight: 341, Current Weight: 319, Goal weight: 140 (After GB) Hoping for December surgery date!!!

Same here. Only been out of PA about 5x in my whole life. I never even saw a beach until I was 20 lol. And I'm not even sure I like the beach. I like cooler weather but hate PA winters. I've had it with snow. Ugh. Pa isn't even a pretty state aside from maybe the mountains and fall...but I've live with the same scenery so long that I barely appreciate the beauty anymore. (Pre op) Journey Starting Weight: 341, Current Weight: 319, Goal weight: 140 (After GB) Hoping for December surgery date!!!

Wow. I bet your daughter will love it too. What state ate you in? I'm in Pennsylvania. Id love to get out of pa at some point in my life. I was born here and there so much more out there then what PA has to offer. (Pre op) Journey Starting Weight: 341, Current Weight: 319, Goal weight: 140 (After GB) Hoping for December surgery date!!!

Great idea!! Thank you. I will start my skinny bucket list. Never thought of doing that. Top on my list will be fitting into rides at an amusement park which I haven't done in many many years. I don't even care what park...lol. (Pre op) Journey Starting Weight: 341, Current Weight: 319, Goal weight: 140 (After GB) Hoping for December surgery date!!!

Hi Terri!! I do have a Facebook, but I don't use it anymore. All I did on there was play farmville. Yeah, embarassing lol. It's basically an anonymous FB with all farmville players...and very few people that I actually know that don't speak to me anymore anyway. I stopped playing farmville about a year ago. An online friend now uses my FB/ farms to send herself farmville items. Someone might as well use it. Buffets?? Did u say Buffets?? Where?? Lol. Chinese Buffets are my weakness. My daughter and I hit one on July 3rd AFTER my very first gbs appointment and I started my diet the next day. I made a promise to myself that it was the very last time and so far it has been....but yeah, I miss all that wonderful food!!! Food is definitely an addiction and sadly, its in our faces every minute of every day...But we can do this!! The end results will be so worth it. Just being able to live much easier and longer makes it worth it. Looking much better is just a bonus. We definitely need positive and encouraging people around us thru this. Just reading the boards here has given me so much encouragement to keep moving forward and my hands out of the oreos!! I don't know how to private message here yet but the same goes for you, if you need a boost, message me and ill do my best to boost you up. Some days I feel like I'm wasting my time. I start to think about how my insurance will probably deny me because honestly, I feel horrible daily, I'm in a lot pain daily But, according to blood work, I don't have any medical problems besides obesity and next month I have to see the sleep Dr to be checked for sleep apnea which I'm sure I have. When I sleep I feel like I'm smothering under my own weight. I would be better off with health issues that disappear with weight loss but I don't have any at the moment. Not sure if I should consider myself lucky or not yet. My general Dr. Told me that insurances likes to see medical issues instead of looking at it as medical issues will eventually arise if they deny my surgery. So, that stresses me out and discourages me big time. 5 cigarettes left. They will be gone in the next few hours...things are about to get even more real. Dropping 2 addictions at once seems so overwhelming at this very moment...but I CAN DO IT!! (Pre op) Journey Starting Weight: 341, Current Weight: 319, Goal weight: 140 (After GB) Hoping for December surgery date!!!

I never even went to the Dr when I was sick. If I felt I needed an antibiotic, is wait until after hours to call the Dr and hope they call me in something. Doctors and people that are of normal size don't realize the everyday struggles that comes along with obesity. Just bathing/showering and wiping after using the toilet is a struggle. These are things that need to be done daily. It's things like this that people will never understand. Forget about the obvious things like shopping and clothes never fitting or looking good walking, sleeping eat. I have just about zero support thru this. I mean, my kids understand kinda and support my decision, somewhat. My son tries to encourage me that I can lose all the weight on my own but realistically, that isn't possible at this point and it would take years. I basically have no friends. Over the years, I've become a hermit per say and just slowly faded out of friends lives. I never wanted to go out anymore so eventually, people stop asking. I don't blame them. I know its my weight that caused me to fade out. A few call me once in a while but I don't feel close enough to them to discuss my weight or gbs. And family...well, they are all normal sized so again, I don't discuss my weight with them because of course, they wouldn't get it. I'm glad I found this app. I feel very comfortable here speaking about my size and issues....because everyone here TRULY understands the struggle...and to me, that's the most important thing. One day ill have the courage to put a picture up. I've not liked myself for so long, very few pictures of me exist. We can definitely support each other!!! It's obvious that you definitely 'get it'. I've enjoyed conversing with you. My name is Kelly btw. (Pre op) Journey Starting Weight: 341, Current Weight: 319, Goal weight: 140 (After GB) Hoping for December surgery date!!!

I'm not sure what's wrong with my lower back. It's been a lot of years. Believe it or not, my weight kept me from going to doctors for the last 10years. Everytime I went, I always heard the same thing. "You need to lose weight and quit smoking". I didn't want to hear that nor did I want to know my weight as the numbers got higher and higher. I had no idea how much I weighed until I went to the Dr in July. However, i wasn't shocked to hear 341. The last time I was weighed before July, I weighed 180, alot for 5'2, so my weight almost doubled in 10years. I'll be 40 in December and I was feeling like death was right around the corner for me. I woke up one day and said, enough is enough. If I have to live like this every day, in this fat suit with no energy, then I don't want to live anymore....and I made a Dr appt. So, I still need to find out what's wrong with my back. And then I broke my step on the deck yesterday and banged up my knee really bad. Now I'm limping between my back and knee. I grabbed the pringles can after I fell and said I was eating the entire can...but I stopped at 1 serving (15 chips, 150 cals) I was proud of myself even tho it was a bad choice. I should have grabbed the carrots or even pickles but whatever. Today will be my last day smoking so....my journey will be put to the test for sure. Oh wow...another novel lol. Sorry so long. (Pre op) Journey Starting Weight: 341, Current Weight: 319, Goal weight: 140 (After GB) Hoping for December surgery date!!!

I too can only walk short distance. My lower back is so sore all the time. A trip through the grocery store and I'm shot. Honestly, I'm ready to put down the cigarettes...I'm not even enjoying them anymore. I get so winded between the weight and smoking. I'm also only 5'2 so 341 is A LOT. I try to do some Wii fitness but its so hard...but every little bit helps. Your little girl is beautiful. Just think of her smile when you can take her to the Zoo. My kids are older now. I was always heavy but when they were small, I was able to do a lot more bcuz I wasn't this heavy. They are 15 and 20 now and don't want to do much with mom these days lol. I remember asking God to just allow me to live to see my son graduate because I didn't think it was possible to live long enough to see my daughter graduate too the way I was feeling. He graduated in 2011...and I'm still here so its time to do me and get my health in order so I can see my daughter graduate too :-) and hopefully not be the biggest proud mom in the crowd pristine around. You are right...WE CAN DO THIS!!! (Pre op) Journey Starting Weight: 341, Current Weight: 319, Goal weight: 140 (After GB) Hoping for December surgery date!!!

I feel so crappy when I cheat. I beat myself up mentally so my cheats have only lasted 1 day at time. I'm scared that will change once I quit smoking this weekend. Glad you are back up now. I'm rooting for you you to get those last 5 pounds off!!! You can do it girl!!! (Pre op) Journey Starting Weight: 341, Current Weight: 319, Goal weight: 140 (After GB) Hoping for December surgery date!!!

My first appt was July 3rd. My 3rd appt. Is September 3rd and my 2nd class is the same day. I had to lose 17 pounds and I lost 22. I have to quit smoking so I was required to lose half of 10% of my starting weight. They won't submit to insurance until December so Im hoping its approved and I can get it done in December as well. Maybe not realistic but I'm hoping. Fingers crossed!! (Pre op) Journey Starting Weight: 341, Current Weight: 319, Goal weight: 140 (After GB) Hoping for December surgery date!!!

Yeah...I broke a step on my deck today. As if I didn't already feel fat, it had to be confirmed by a step collapsing underneath me on my way to work. What a great way to start my day :-( In all fairness, the deck is old and needs replacing but still, it didn't collapse on my thin family members and probably never would have. My knee is so swollen and bruised, I can barely walk. So, have you broken anything that wouldn't have broken if you were of normal size??

Exactly how I feel. Have you had your surgery or do you have a surgery date?? My first appointment was also in July of this year. (Pre op) Journey Starting Weight: 341, Current Weight: 319, Goal weight: 140 <--- After GB

Thanks for all the replies. I just joined here and I think I'm going to love it. Discussing my weight or the many things that come along with being overweight are something I never discussed with anyone. I think its things smaller people would never understand unless they've lived it. I honestly feel comfortable here because obviously, we're all in or were in the same boat and understand the difficulties of living large. The fear of breaking something everytime we sit down. Or how about the fear of getting seated in a booth at a restraunt that you have to pry yourself in and out of?? I took my son to TGI Friday's for his birthday and the booth we got seated at actually left bruises on my stomach by the time I pryed myself out of it. I wanted to cry through the entire dinner and did cry alone afterwards. I felt like the whole restraunt watched me stuff my face as I was stuffed into that booth. Unless someone experienced something like that, they would never get it. My journey to surgery is 3 months in. September 3rd is my 3rd Dr visit and 2nd class. I've lost the weight I needed to lose which was 17lbs (half of the 10% normally required for surgery bcuz I have to quit smoking as well) I've lost 22lbs so far. Now I need to quit the cigarettes and that scares the sh*t out of me but I know I have to. So this weekend after my cigarettes are gone, I'm going to quit cold turkey. I pray I'm as successful as some of the quitters I've read about here :-) Sorry this is so long...

Terry...Great post!!! Very encouraging. I can't wait to be on the other side of this...nightmare. I can't tell you the last time I bought clothes and tried them on. The dressing rooms arent made for large people and it just seems like too much "work" to be disappointed when the item doesnt fit or, does fit...but nothing ever really looks good. I avoid full length mirrors like the plague and have for many years. I can't wait to feel good physically and look so much better as well. I never carried a small cute purse. I've always felt too large to carry something so tiny. With a large suitcase purse, I kinda feel I can hide behind its monstrosity in a sense...plus plenty of room to carry some snacks...which I dont do anymore BTW. Counting the days until December. Can I sleep til then??