Ammariehs mommy

You got lucky .lol I think it's because I weigh so much. I start at 484 and he wanted me to be at 450. I had my first appointment on July 5th. I've lost about 30 pounds so far. So I'm really close. Well good luck with your journey you have come to the right place for encouragement!

Welcome!! I am pre op as well. I have to loose 34 pounds before I can get my second appointment with my surgeon. Do you have to loose any weight before your surgery?

I will not miss having to ask for a chair with no arms. It's so embarrassing! I also will not miss having to wait for an electric scooter when I go to the store. I won't miss not being able to shop at stores who don't have electric scooters. I won't miss this war going on in my brain. Fighting not to eat when I know I am not hungry. I just want to snack. I will not miss the stares and snickers I get when I am in a scooter at a store. I defiantly won't miss little kids pointing and saying "look mommy she's fat". When I'm with my own kids and they get mad and defensive and wants to knock the little kid out. I won't miss not being able to carry my daughter around. I was so happy when she started walking so I could walk with her and hold her hand. I was never able to carry her to far. Mostly because of my back pain and leg and knee pain. The last thing I won't miss is people tell me I am going to fail. People saying come on let's go out to eat when they know you are trying to loose weight. I sometimes have to cuss people out because they don't understand what I am fighting for. I am fighting for my life here. No I don't need that pizza or those burgers and fries!! Let me have my shake and stop asking me!!

Good luck!! Hopes for a speedy recovery!!!

So Im still trying to loose the 34 pounds the doctor wants me to loose before my second appointment. Well I only have about 5or6 more pounds to go. I feel like I am just stuck. I have been slipping on my diet. Eating fast food because I have been so busy the last few days. Everyday I wake up with the mind frame of I'm getting back on the band wagon today. I just feel so frustrated at times. Why me? Why couldn't I have a skinny healthy body? I am a good person. I have a daycare, I adopted a baby girl who would have been lost into the system. I have foster children. I give back to society. And yet here I am weighing 456 pounds and struggling to loose weight. I just feel like its not fair at times. Does anyone else feel that way sometimes? Sorry for ranting but I have been feeling a little lost lately.

Thanks for the encouragement! I sure need it! I'm just so tired of fighting this food addiction. It's like I'm on drugs!! Lbvs

So glad everyone is doing good!! I can't wait to be on the loser bench with you all!! I'm so jealous.. Lol

Thanks for the play by play!! It gave me an idea of what to expect!! Glad you are doing good! Keep up the good work!

I totally understand where you are coming from. I have to loose 34pounds before I can even see my surgeon again for my second appointment. I have been dieting like crazy but I feel like its moving so slow!! I just hope and pray its not all for nothing. I still have to go through the insurance stuff. So fingers crossed I can hit my goal soon and get the ball rolling! Good luck on getting your ball rolling too!! Don't give up or get discouraged!!

I'm sorry to hear about your Dad! My whole family is over weight but I am the biggest. I weigh 454 now. I started at 484. I am still pre op. My mom has a lot of health issues due to her weight. She weighs about 360. She has diabetes, high blood pressure, back and knee problems. She is in denial. She's addicted to food and nothing can stop her from eating. At family get togethers she sneaks in the kitchen and eats. I have been on a diet for the last 6 weeks and I have been trying to get her to do things with me but she won't. I feel like I can not do anything to help her. I try to talk to her every time I see her but it goes in one ear and out the other. I'm stuck between a rock and a hard place with her. Maybe when I get my surgery she will see how well I am doing and she will start to help her self. At least that's what I'm hoping for!!

I didn't really have any ah ha moments. It was just life in general. I have been over weight my entire life. I always wanted to get the surgery but never had insurance that would cover it. I adopted a baby girl last year and I couldn't even carry her up and down the stairs. God forbid there's a fire I would be huffing and puffing trying I get her to safety. When I applied for hard ship insurance through the local hospital I was told that if I wanted the surgery it was covered 100%! That was the day I made my first appointment. I seen the surgeon three weeks later and he told me he wanted me to loose 34pounds because he didn't feel comfortable operating on me at my weight which was 484 pounds. So now about 6weeks later I am down about 30 pounds. I have changed my eating habits and yeah I have slips but the next day I'm right back on track! I want to live to see my daughter graduate and get married. I'm doing this for myself as well as for her. She deserves the best and at 484 pounds I can't give it to her. So far I have seen a few changes with myself. I can now walk up the stairs without getting winded. I can carry my daughter up and down the stairs with no problems. My back doesn't hurt when I walk. My clothes are looser and people are asking me if I have lost weight because they say my face is thinner. I can not wait to hit this 34pound goal and start out on my next goal!!

I did too at first then I got fed up with level 65 I had too! Lol that's how they make all that money. They won't let you pass a level until you pay for something. Now I'm stuck on level 130. Been there for three weeks. But I'm not paying this time.. Lbvs

I was stuck on level 65 for a month!! I actually paid $5 for the sprinkle balls to pass it.. Guess you can say I cheated! Lol but that's the only money I ever spent on the game..lbvs good luck!!

I know exactly how you feel! My daughters first birthday party was a few weeks ago and I felt horrible watching everyone else eat cake that I paid $100 to have specially made for her. I wasn't on my pre op liquid diet but I still have to loose weight to get my second appointment. I didn't want to risk it by eating a piece. The thing is to step away while everyone else is eating. Get on here . Down load the app on our phone. That's what I did. It helped because I was focused on something other than food. I also downloaded some games . I play candy crush when I'm hungry. Lol I'm focused on trying to pass to the next level.

Thanks for the advice! I recently started making tutus and hair bows. I just need to buy more supplies. I'm sure I will be doing a lot more of it in the future!

Since I have started this journey I have realized that I am a bored eater. I eat when there is nothing to do. I am constantly checking my Facebook and coming on here to see if there are any new topics or updates to try to curb my mind off of food. I need a new hobby or activity. I can't walk to much because of my knee. I would go swimming more but I can't take the kids with me. Uggh! Does anyone else that's pre op feel the same way I do? The good thing is though since I have started to change my eating habits the food cravings and mind manipulation has went down dramatically. I now have some kind of control. Which is a good thing!!