desertmom

Yes,last ***ht I had the fright of my life and decided to really start exercising. I exercised yesterday and today.Still play a mean game of squash even with no energy! Also did some arm and leg circuits and I can feel it! Of course I immediately wanted food afterwards but had a cup of tea and will have a nice protein dinner!

Are you taking a PPI?Might be reflux as well.

i just read the scariest thread on OH. A lady,4 years and 8 months out and gaining rapidly.Feeling lost and having no idea how to get out of the mud.She is back to not really knowing how she will lose the weight again. This scares me senseless! What if what I think is mindful changes is just a matter of not being able to eat a lot?What if the WANT to outeat the sleeve starts in me too?How am I going to do this in the long term?I dont want to be on diet for the rest of my life. I can do what I am doing now for the rest of my life,IF ONLY IT WORKS! The problem does seem to be eating around the sleeve.Eating constantly,eating junk like crisps and a lot of carbs and sugar.But what if the changes I feel,like not depriving but not over indulging,keeping a good balance,saying no to myself to bad stuff most of the time,isnt real? What if I am not learning to eat like a normal skinny person? How do we know what will work for the FOREVER we need? I am really freaked out by this as I saw a therapist for a year.In that year she aimed to teach me what normal was.I lost 70 pounds in 6 months and then went on holiday to the family.My brother and me had an argument and he seriously hurt my feelings.It was 4 days before I was to come home.I GAVE MYSELF PERMISSION to eat emosionally just for those 4 days until I could get away from them and I LOST NORMAL in those 4 days.I never could get back on track and it took me about 3 months to regain all 70 pounds again.This was 2 years ago. What if this happens again.Of course I have the resolve to not let it.Maybe that is another reason to have all the plastics done.Arms,legs,tummy,boobs.If I gain a 100 pounds then I will surely explode and that will just be the end of that! Now I have to try and calm down to sleep!

I have started tracking my daily calorie and even though Im hitting 60g of protein most days my calories have been around 450 to 600 which kind of explains to me why I just cannot even play badmington with my 11 year old.I realized that during the holiday I dropped my cals just automatically without even noticing.I have not even attempted to playa game of squash as even the thought of it made me tired. Today I decided to eat more.Back to 1000 when I need energy to exercise. The thing is even though it wasnt really too much,I dont feel to well.I am hyper aware of my stomach all day and I think of food,something I havent done in a month. Tomorrow I will go back to eating very little again.I will drink my tea with milk,eat my 2 tiny tiny meals but to that I will start adding a protein shake to help with the protein.I will try and buy a shake that is high in vitamins too as drinking a multi feels like it irritates my stomach and makes me hungry. Hopefully that will give me a little energy.But the exercise is on.It was shocking to see how little I could do and I had a huge drop in blood sugar to boot halfway through.These are things that I now need to fix as my friend has aked me to run the 10k in November or December with her and I stupidly said,of course I will. That was me for the day.Weight still the same!

Ok,I cant comment about the meds but I can tell you this. The surgery is done.No turning back.At 2 months to 3 months I mourned the loss of eating.Then I decided to start enjoying it again.If I can only lick that fork,well it is the tastiest lick I will ever have.If it is 3 bites,which often happens when I eat out,it is the greatest 3 bites I have ever had.(ok,still need to learn to take smaller bites...lol) In the beginning I would constantly feel that by the time others are just warmed up to eat,I was finished.Then I decided to argue this out with myself and to WIN. Rule one is to be mindful when I eat those 4 bites.Slowly and deliberately.Look at it,beautiful,smell it..mmmm...taste it,delicious. Now,when my 3 or 4 bites are finished,I have to tell myself the following:wasnt that just great?Isnt it just awesome that I am actually full without being the one to scoff down mine plus my kid's food?why do I believe I cannot be satisfied with what I have eaten? And then I choose to let the plate go.No take away bag,nothing.Just tell them to take it.And I am so happy that I chose that.I won! I keep telling people struggling with this issue.Now is the time to figure out how to be happy with the fact that you can only eat a little.And you can mourn the loss of a lot of food and you need to have a great talk with yourself and you need to congratulate yourself when you manage to feel you've won! I suppose this is advice not support but if a friend of mine didnt have a very frank discussion with me about the fact that I just seemed so sad and depressed after my surgery and that I should let go of eating a lot without letting go of enjoying food,I would still be sitting in front of my plate of food,crying. It just made me think how in control I can be if I am just prepared to be in control.That I decide,that I can turn this into a win win situation for me all the way. Now,I dont diet,low carb,low fat,deprive myself of anything. Baby portions of the best qualitly food I can possibly eat.I dont like something,I just wont touch it.Tasty food,well presented food,healthy food. Good luck with your journey and I hope you can find this great balance and start really enjoying your food again. At 4 months out you will really be able to eat a little more than you can now.You will learn to say as I do....it is awesome that I cannot eat that huge plate of food anymore. xxo

My first words after every surgery! I am so happy for you.Now,sleep!

It is just wonderful.Congrats! You've just made me realize that my 11 year old(whom I cannot carry around anymore) weighs less than I have lost. Great going!

I still think I see more women with long hair saying that the have bad hair loss. Does the women with short hair,that does not need tying up at all, also lose a lot of hair? Mine started falling out at 4 months but my mom got me stuff thats called placenta with bergamot and I am convinced it is really helping.I am still only 4.5 months out but the hair fall has slowed considerably.It still comes out but not in strands of hair anymore.The hair that is growing back is gray though,something I didnt expect at all. Still worth every hair I have lost so far.

O,I read a post today about nausea...it said that she felt sick in the morning and couldnt eat and was given the advice to drink more Water before bed time and ever since she is fine.It has to do with getting dehydrated at night. I actually said I would try it from tonight. Am going to drink my water now and will let you know if it helps.

I lost nothing for 10 days.then I dropped 20 pounds in the next 2weeks.(I also came home 8 pounds heavier than when I went in)

No regrets here,a little sadness that I couldnt have done this at the age of 30,fifteen years ago! I love my sleeve!

Hi I've written about it somewhere as well.I have what we call (joke with my kids) pukey days! It just happens some days.Dont know why,dont know what causes it.On those days I just eat very very little and I dont focus on Protein which seems to make it worse.Then,boom,just like that it is gone again. Seems to me that I should just not plan anything as far as food's concerned as my plans just dont work out.I now get up and see how I feel and eat accordingly. Can you find a pattern to the throwing up?

Sgbrown,why does the dr not change your PPI?

No,never had a hernia.But boy do I know about reflux.I have an online blog of the earlier years with the band and let me tell you I was petrified that it would be the same with the sleeve. Having said that.I still do not eat anything that gave me reflux when I had the band.I know which foods to avoid and I do.Fruit is almost a no no in my life,coffee,any acid forming foods,yogurt,tomato,and loads more mind you.Tried a strawberry recently and it gave me heartburn.When I take Probiotics I get heartburn....I know how to live not to get reflux and I do.Carbs ease the stomach in small portions.When I eat only Proteins it is potential reflux and when I overeat I die and so on and so on....the 7 years before the sleeve helped a lot now. Hope you can come to a decision and that it work great for you. I also found that prilosec and the other PPI's didnt work for me.I drink nexium.

Hi Never had reflux before the band and had it badly for years with the band. I am on nexium for the first 6 months of the sleeve but I dont think I have it at all now at 4.5 months out.Had a bit of heartburn in the beginning when I took another ppi but the nexium sorted it out. You alone can decide this but I love my sleeve! Its everything I thought the band would be and wasnt.

Really?I will start doing this too. Since surgery I have never been able to do Breakfast,just the thought makes me feel sick. Dont know if this is good or bad as I now like only eating 2 meals (less danger of doing to many calories) Yes,yes I know breakfast is important...lol

When my body takes the time to readjust (stall..lol) the scale stays exactly the same to the .100.Morning noon and night.And I do jump on the scale every 10 minutes so I really know this as a fact. It can stay like that for quite a while too.....and then I drop quite a few pounds. Every time I restart the exercising thing I stall for longer than 10 days....not a .1 down,nothing. Do what you say you are doing and the weight will come off....be patient.

O great.This is my biggest fear,that the hunger ( which I dont have anymore,dont know if I really ever had it as I had a lot of head hunger to deal with after surgery) will return. O well,that is why I am aiming to eat normal even now.So that there just wont be a diet to fall off of ever again.

Ok,the sandwich will not really help as far as protein's concerned.And your hair will fall out (anyway) but more so if you dont hit your Protein per day. As a portion at 3 weeks out half a sandwich and strawberries do sound like a lot.Do you not feel over full with that amount? At 3 weeks we were still on very mushy foods and I could really really only do half a cup sometimes (more like .25 plus another bite or 2 ) What I have always found was eating stimulated me to want to eat more.The smaller my portion size the less I feel like eating,the way we want it to be,not feeling hungry,not thinking of food all the time. Make that appointment with your nut quickly to get the food help you need.

Hi God is in control.I am glad you are on your way ro recovery now. My best friend had gastric bypass 2 years ago and she is so happy she did it.Reached her goal and is staying right there without much effort. She doesnt dump on small amounts of sugar and she loves loves her bypass. May the future hold lots of good things for you.

Hi This looks like an exact copy of a post I wrote when I was about 3 weeks post op.Except I always lost faster before,not directly pre op. Listen,here's what I had to do.Be PATIENT,it will happen.You know what you are eating.How much you are moving (I wasnt moving much at all though)I also know the doubt..."Im doing the right things,why am I not losing?Im doing it wrong somehow but only eating 800 cals?Im going to do more to make it work...and at the end of the day,it comes off at its own pace!Your body will let go of the weight the way it needs to and you will have to get to a point where you accept that.Difficult in the beginning but you have to learn to not rely on the scale alone. Go and look at the totals of everyone thats been sleeved longer.Even people that considers themselves slow losers lose a lot and keep losing. I think patience is one of the build in lessons of this surgery.Maybe one we need to actually stick with the program until the end (maybe something we never really did before thus always gaining the weight back) Good luck and I cant wait to see your progress in a month or so. O,and when you can start,exercise girl,exercise!(I am the new exercise preacher as I didnt and have loads of skin and very little muscle mass!..lol) You are going to do great,look great and feel great,just you wait and see!

Before I was sleeved I gained about 30 pounds from January until surgery on the 13th of March. When I saw the dr first I weighed about 8 pounds less than surgery day and when I came home after surgery I was up 10 pounds more. At the time when I did my ticker I thought the 18 pounds gained cannot count...I had to start where I first saw the dr. Recently I realized I was being stupid to say the least.Every pound I had lost post-op,counts.It changed my perspective from being a low loser to being an average to speedy (older,yoyo dieter) loser. Now for the kicker...lol EXERCISE PEOPLE,EXERCISE! My size is bigger than ever before at this weight and I look like a sharpay dog from behind...folds and folds of skin...lol. I should have exercised! All in all I am very happy about the surgery and my fear of failure is slowly getting better.I had the band for 7 years and felt like a real failure for most of them.Going into this surgery I didnt allow myself any expectations,it was just the last resort for a very desperate person and I think that is also why I've been so resistant about increasing my exercise.Mind you,when the scale goes up even 100 grams the fear sometimes still overcomes me and I have to reason with my mind not my feelings. I dont low carb or low fat but I dont high carb or high fat either.I avoid unhealthy foods and concentrate on Proteins and veggies.I dont eat sweets or any such rubbish,just dont feel like it any more.I have the occasional glass of wine and I really really enjoy my little bit of food more than ever.When my weight loss slows down I focus more on Protein and I do cut carbs more. My Vit B12 do seem to go low before the 3 months is up so I get B12 and D injections more often.Placenta with bergamot seems to help slow the hair loss way down.I think...lol I am really starting to believe that this might be for real.This might be permanent if I follow the rules of never overeating or out eating the sleeve,that I might actually get to my goal weight for the first time in 20 years.I have always regained before I got there. So,now for the last 50 pounds.The 50 that always somehow stayed no matter what I did. And exercise...exercise people,exercise! LOL This website have become my go-to,my sanity sometimes and I love reading how this surgery have saved so many people!

The sleeve is so different from the band isnt it? At some point I realized how I would out eat the band just because I never felt restriction per se but was so sick with heartburn and pain all the time. It left a deep psychological scar because I felt like an utter failure for so long. Now I am starting to feel free.Free from this monster stomach that could hold so much food and free from the head that just wanted to feed it...lol Anyway you are doing great.Keep up the good work!

I am a revision and whereas the people thats been sleeved longer can tell you about long term struggles,in the short term the sleeve is what I thought the band would be, and wasnt. It feels awesome to not be able to eat that much anymore or to not struggle with the band anymore. What I would like to know from the 2010 sleevers is did the actual physical hunger return?

Hi Brian I am only 4.5 months out but I have been on a 3 week holiday to my home country recently.When we go home we eat out all the time...some times twice a day...its holiday after all. I've had to sit in front of an almost full plate and have that momentary argument with myself every single time.Why do I want to continue eating when I am full and have enjoyed the food and the experience of it so much? But the moment I convinced myself it is my choice to stop (i dont have a full feeling in my stomach, I get what I call mentally uncomfortable...a thought or feeling in my head that I've had enough) I feel satisfied. It has made me wonder if this will ever change?Will there ever be a time when I am satisfied when I know I have to stop eating?Or will I have to have this track in my mind forever?I can do it,but it would be nice to just stop and not to have to convince myself I have to stop and be happy about it. It is very encouraging to see it still matters as much after 2 years,that you practice saying no to yourself now as you did when you were still losing weight. I must say I have also realized how much people around me really eat and a lot of them also eat way beyond the point of enough. This sleeve rocks doesnt it?