desertmom

Hi,i have made strict rules for myself about this. Once a month I go to the movies,to have popcorn...lol.My friend and myself share a small one and she always eats most of it anyway.So,no movie,no popcorn! I Only started doing that at about 6 months out.

Today I got a glimpse of you,yes you,the one I thought I left behind! You just never know when to stop do you?Once you start,you dont seem to have an end.And its carbs that brings you out,isnt it?You can deny it as much as you like,but I saw you! Rusks,good old South African rusks,with nuts and seeds.And before I knew I was earing like I didnt even ever had surgery.Now I see how one can gain back all your weight.You just eat something every 20 minutes.A woman on a nother board posted recently that over the weekend she had eaten almost 100 pieces of chocolate,really truely that many!Rollo and such.I thought she was very melodramatic but not anymore! I had about 4 slices of wurzel bread.(german bread that is a little thicker than a baguette) A large cup of butternut soup.Beef jerky,3 rusks and some chicken. (this is all the food for the day)Its the bread that I should not eat and the worm in my head that started after the first carbs that bugs me. I will not keep doing this to myself.I feel horribly fat just because I ate like a fatty. Back to my proteins.Thank goodness for chicken,meat and fish!

Thanks skattie,I baked beskuit that sent me way of the trail...cant stop munching the stuff.But I am back in control.So its all good!We must not wait so long before we get together again!You look fabulous too!No more baking in this house...lol

Even this far out and soooo close to goal,after losing fast for the past two months,I am now stuck again. At just 2 pounds from goal! This is frustrating as I did the chicken thing this week,no alcohol ect ect with zero results.It still messes with my mind when this happens..lol.I still doubt what I am doing and if I will be able to eat this little forever just to maintain this weight. It does feel to me at this point that it is time to be finished with the weight loss phase. My probiotics isnt helping for the constipation anymore and I have decided to start eating fiber one every day to see if this makes a difference.this will push up my carbs quite a lot but it is what it is.I can live with 2 extra pounds but I cannot live with constant constipation.I do not want to take stoolsoftners every day because I either drink to much or to little.Cannot find e dosage that is just right for me. I will be doing labs and bone scan this week.Just recently I have been having a lot of aches and pains in my "bones".My back lower and upper,and my neck is constantly aching.It feels like I am curving more and more.As if my "frame" is collapsing...lol.My joint are also super achy like when you have flu. Well,its weekend and my kids are sick so I am stuck at home.Bad thing for my eating as I am constantly wanting to eat something..lol.Will cut myself some slack for a couple of days though. This is such an interesting journey.I am mostly happy and satisfied with myself at this point and that is great.I do worry about vitamins and calsium issues and will start working on a more organized way to drink the calsium 4 hours after the PPI and other vitamins staggered throughout the day. Will report on labs next week!

Dont go there..lol I bought my family a wurzel bread to go with some butternut Soup I made an for some reason I had to eat bread today!I dont think I've had any bread for 10 months now. Of course once I started I couldnt stay away from it.AND IT STILL MAKES ME FEEL AS BAD ABOUT MYSELF as in the BAD OLD days! I hate the fact that carbs can get me so out of control! Back to good old solid Proteins.Makes me feel goooood! Bingeing sucks,even sleeve style binge!

Hehehehe,Pass! Watch this space though, next week I'll be back!

At the moment I am having a hard time coming to terms with the fact that at 45 I am now in menopause.I love being thin but I hate the fact that the weight loss screwed up my hormones so badly!And I hate these hot flushes! Of course the question of how fast am I going to age now is in my mind all the time.For goodness sake,I am skinny for the first time in 20+ years.I have planned plastics and a lot of other fun things.I dont want to start looking like a dried out old prune before I am 50.Then there is all the conflicting info on HRT.Increasing or decreasing breast cancer and stroke risk? So many studies contradicting each other that I have no idea what to do.You read about the weight gain after menopause and how difficult weight loss becomes and I think shoot,Im screwed!Makes me want to eat..lol Then there is the issue of my tea.Now I can admit I have been super bad with water,just like the exercise.But this is also because every time I start drinking more water my weight bounces up 2-3 pounds and I feel swollen.Having said this I had to get off the tea.It causes constipation when drinking it in huge quantities and I never new that.I was drinking 5-6 cups of tea (400ml cups) a day and was chuffed with myself for having found a way to side step the water...lol.But every time I come back from holiday,I get constipated.Had to look at what is different when I am gone and it must be the tea!Read up on it a bit and I think the dehydrating effect of tea made the constipation worse. Back on the probiotics and I had only 2 cups of tea today and about 2 liters of water. Now,I have about 3 pounds to get to dr's goal and have tonight decided to just do it already.I am going to cut my carbs again from tomorrow and see if it works and if it doesnt I will cut my food allowance for the day until I see results.Then I will lose 10 more pounds to SHOW THIS BLOODY MENOPAUSE that I can do it. Ugg,so my little plastics fund has increased now to include a facelift when the face actually collapse...lol O,and I will start exercising more...lol

It gets better.A lot better!Just be vigilant with the vitamins calcium and protein and you life will be normal in no time.A new normal,but in a lot of ways sooooo much better.Hang in there!

I am one that uses the word skinny!Let me explain. My 57 year old friend that had GB 3 years ago came to visit just after my surgery and said to me I will also be able to call myself skinny!I told her that I have never and will never be "skinny". She said just wait and see!You will have skin everywhere,on you tummy,on your arms,on your legs and on your butt. When she visited again 4 months later I had to agree with her and we declared ourselves "skinny"...lol. It is our favourite word now..lol.We were fat toghether for 20 odd years and we will be skinny togehter until we decide to have PS. It is just a word we use in jest! We can laugh about the skin,or cry about it and we choose to just "be skinny" for now! We are both at a normal 25 BMI and we will never be "skinny" in the normal sense of the word.But at the same time we are very,very "skinny"!Having said all this,most days we both still "feel" fat..lol.We certainly dont look normal,unless we cover up good!

Mine is contantly up and down!Can drive you crazy but if I've exercised I often go up before it drops down further. Just keep on plan and dont weigh too often.( yeah,yeah,we all do it...lol)

See,if the dr says the meds and sleeve is compatible,it should be ok. The meds help the kidneys to retain the Water and I think the big question is,how effective is your meds now and how quickly will you dehydrate now if you would cut back on your water? We all experience intense thirst often after the sleeve,I did anyway.Dry mouth need to drink a gallon, thirst!But you can only sip,sip,sip,sip,all the time in the beginning.The actual requirement for water is 64oz and more per day which is more than what most people drink anyway,so after you are healed you will be able to drink bigger sips and will just have to drink often,like most of us post sleeve. Does this make sense?

Ok,but what meds are you on for it?

The band sucks and you will regret doing it.There,I couldnt have said it any different. Go on the revision boards and failed WLS boards and read up on it. The sleev is what they promise us the band will be.The band does not work!Protein gets stuck and you vomit all the time.You might up having severe reflux like a lot of us had and you might end us miserable and feeling a bigger failure,like a lot of us have. It is not safer.Most people end up having complications from the band,it is just not directly post op but long term.Which seems worse to you?you will need more surgery,to remove it. People are scared for us.The fact that you can,and will have to,remove the band does not solve our permanent issue of obesity.Only a permanent procedure can do that. The cost,the emotional and physical trauma,the multiple surgeries,just not worth it! Get the sleeve or wait.Dont be bullied into something that might just turn your life into a nightmare.

Ok,just a different take on this. We set our lives up the way we want it to be,or we are suppose to..lol.One of the problems overweight people have is not taking care of themselves.Your wife is in the lucky position to be skinny but she still choses what she eats and how much.If she decided to start over eating she would get fat,no doubt! Now you start doing the same for yourself. Taking responsibility for your eating would be the best way you can handle a sitation like this.And guys can cook.(Not much cooking involved as normal portions can be devided into 5 meals at least for a couple of months)And you making peace with the fact that this is something you might have to do for yourself,by yourself.And there can be many excuses not to do this,but what would the outcome be?Stress in your relationship.I have found that for myself,it was way better for me to not try to hold someone else "co-responsible" for my eating.It will be my success or my failure. Thin people cannot and do not understand our issues.They think we need more self control..lol. your family might still eat their take outs. And you are not going to be able to stop them.And in the beginning you are really not going to like them for that.But that is life for normal people.And why not,she is skinny! And maybe once you suggest you do your own meals,she might be way more willing to help you. In a year's time,you will be able to join the meals she cooks again and choose what you want to eat of it.If she orders take outs then it will not bug you because a can of tuna takes 10 seconds to open and you will be ok with doing it. All this might sound harsh to you now,but I was so resentful just after I was sleeved that I just had to sit and ask myslef what would make life in this house better again,for everyone. It works.Nothing but myself can now get me off track.It makes me take responsibility for my life and it takes 2 hours over the weekend to plan and make most of my meals for the week. A partnership is give and take but we cannot force people to give or take.It doesnt make her selfish.It is just not as important to her than to you because she doesnt have a weight problem. I often hear people say but its about the support I support her in what she wants to do,or I dont have time,or its her job she doesnt work outside the house or bla bla bla...so what?We cannot always get people to co-operate with what we want.This should also take that co-responsibility you give her now for you being overweight away and it should make you a lot happier not having to be a little mad at her for it...lol You can do this.I did and it feels good! O,and as for support.She is supporting you already.She agrees that you have to do what you need to.With "you" being the key word here!

How do you control it now?And what is the max you're allowed to drink per day?

We often learn to binge or over eat for one reason but carry on for no specific reason..lol.Its called a bad habit! For years I use to wait until my kids were asleep and then the food party would start.I would tell myself there were some good reasons to so this.I was lonely,I was depressed,I was frustrated,I was....but at the end of the day none of that has changed only I dont binge anymore.Can I? Of course I can.If I ate all night long,and the type of slider rubbish I use to eat,of course I can!But now,I choose not to.Is it easy? No,not always.It is hard sometimes.Some nights I make 20 trips to the fridge,open it,close it and walk back to the family room.Now I just figure it is extra exercise...lol. I do however allow myself certain things when the urge to eat becomes too great.Sugarfree popcicles is an absolute life saver for me and should I want up to 4,I will allow myself.But now 2 is my number. Tea has become my greatest friend at night and some nights I drink lots of it.But I now know that I started eating because of one reason and kept on doing it out of habit.Could I have broken the cycle without the sleeve?I dont think so.One gets so stuck sometimes that it takes something very radical to get you moving forward again.And this is what the sleeve did for me.when you lose the weight you do feel so much better about yourself and you just dont want to go back to that old self destructive patterns.Stupid little things in every day life can make me think darn I want to eat,but now its just a thought.Most of the time! But it takes being very mindful,not allowing yourself to make excuses,not bashing yourself all the time as that just becomes another excuse to binge,not ever giving in to feeling defeated and if you are not perfect now,to just try again. For me,more than logging and tracking and weighing food,this is the most important part of my journey.To say no to myself in spite of how I feel and to be proud of the fact that I can be normal. One day at a time!

185 pounds in 10 months?How on earth did you do that?Congrats and enjoy all the good things in your life!

Hi Cheri, Funny you should bump it today! Tonight I actually sat in front of the tv while eating my dinner.3oz of turkey breast strips.I wasnt very mindful but boy does my sleeve have my attention now! i am in pain.I never,ever finish the 3oz's but didnt think tonight and finished it.IT IS TO MUCH! It is just half an ounce more than what I usually eat and I am suffering! So,if any of you feel like bingeing,try solid Proteins,that should teach you a lesson,like I am learning now!

Today My weight is the same than last week but I am doing good.No gin and tonics..lol,clean eating! Cauliflour does not agree with me,even when pulverized in the food prosessor,dont know why. ThenI decided to put what I ate in December,lost nearly 17 pounds in 6 weeks,into fitday to see how many of what I was eating.Calories worked out to 1200 plus per day.Fats were 55 plus and carbs were about 70. At first I thought I must have made a mistake.But I did it twice and the results came out the same. This is shocking as all I ate for weeks were the following.I would take chicken breast,cup into atrips or veal cut into strips or pork cut into strips and dust it with flour.17oz of chicken takes about a cup of flour.Then I would put olive oil in the bottom of the wok and fry it.When the oil was gone,I would add more!I didnt measure it but I am sure that it was a lot that I used! Now,maybe I didnt eat as much as I think I did.Maybe I ate less of it after a week or so as usually when I eat protein only I gradually start eating less.I had 5 cups of tea with milk and 2 dolci gusto cappuchinos per day.Very little water,maybe one small bottel during the day and half at night. With only 2 pounds to goal I am going to try that again this week. At 10 and a half months out I do feel that I can eat more and should start weighing my food again.I ate like this because I regularly get a stomach ache when I eat veggies.Any veggies.I also cannot eat fruit as this causes acid even though I am on a PPI. Now to just reach goal already and then to decide if I should drop more weight.Acouple of my friend's husbands no less,have commented that I am now getting to skinny.Thr girls just say they dont recognize me!I just wish I could see what other people say they see.(they might always be lying..lol) I now wear a size 12 pants and top even though I havent lost more weight but it is very clear that my shape is changing,and not all for the good.I have saddlebags on my upper legs that appeared over the past couple of weeks and my boobs are now a size 36 C.One thing I never realized was that as we get older our waistline increases even when there isnt fat anymore.I use to be very curvy when I was young but now I am straight as a plank and my waist seems to have widened...lol.But I need to just get this weight loss phase over and done with now.It still takes up too much of the space in my head and I just dont want this anymore. I had a bit of a realitly check today when I witnessed a motorcyclist die in an accident.Life is short and all this seems so much less important tonight and in the bigger scheme of things.Accepting myself and others and living life the way the Lord has intended fo me to do is what my focus should be on all the time.I am second!But while Im counting and weighing and logging and cooking and posting I do get a bit consumed with myself which is not the way I should live my life! One more week to goal (positive self talk..lol)

I think you should start with higher calorie meal replacements that is also high in protein.They are higher in carbs and help with weight gain.My 76 year lod father had stomach surgery and he cannot eat.The meal replacements have helped him put on 10 pounds and he has kept it on.He drinks 2 meal replacements a day as snacks 2,5 hours after his small meal. You dont have to eat more food.There are lots of people,especially older people,that cannot eat and they do fine on meal replacements in addition to their food.

167 today.Only .5 down this week but I havent been very good this week so I'll take it! Next week Im going to lose 2 pounds!

Donewithdieting,I hope,really really hope you can find a way to stop drinking,quickly. I started smoking at 4 months out and this December on holiday,decided to "cut myself some slack" and have one drink every day with everyone else.Just one! I have also been trying ro cut out the 5 cups of tea I was drinking every day! Since being home I am struggling as I feel like a drink every day.The first week I had one every third night.Second week every second night and this week I had a drink 5 nights out of the week. I have stopped losing weight even though I am eating little and I get up in the morning and all of a sudden Im thinking of a drink tonight. I HAVE NEVER,EVER BEEN A DRINKER!Alcohol just didnt do anything for me and tasted bad! I realized this morning that this is the way to get into trouble with alcohol! It happens so fast and who would think that one drink can get into a persons head like this? But this is definitely how transfer addiction starts. Thanks OP for asking this question as I needed to see this thread and take responsibility for the fact that I miss food at night and I am trying to replace "something nice" that I've missed so much and cant figure out what it is, with alcohol. Of course no one around me knows about this as I am a very conservative person and I am very ashamed of the smoking (quit and start all the time now) So Donewithdieting,seek council this week.Dont wait.Being an alcoholic is an all consuming thing.It steals lives worse than fat does.Maybe just go to an AA meeting.It seems to really work.Work on a plan for yourself to change this!Change your routine,tell someone about this! As for myself I am going to tell my friend (accountability partner) and I will start going for a walk (run) in the evening and go to bed earlier.and maybe I will find myself a shrink to help me figure out why I always need a "thing". Dieting and food and being fat was my thing for years.It seems Im just trying to replace it now.

Hi,I started having them at 2 weeks out and they stopped at 3 months out.it started again at 9 months and seems to be getting less again now.I am 45 and think the drastic loss of estrogen kicked me into menopause. Not too happy about this!

Clothes can hide a multitude of sins...lol. Hi,the skin is an issue vut you are going to enjoy so many other things that even though I think it bugs all of us,it is ok.And then there is plastic surgery should you want to do it of course. Dont worry about that yet.Some of us have lots of hanging skin and some have remarkably little.I am one of the unfortunates (lost and gained way too often and genetics is not on my side) but I love being thin.

It is a scary thought.Especially since we've had one failed surgery already. But the sleeve is so different.Not easier,but different and it works! Go for it.I wasted years being to scared to do it and really wish that I had this done years ago!