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So I seriously just listened to the worst presentations of my life and my principal was in here helping me grade them. He too said that they were really bad and that we had a long ways to go to get these kids where they need to be. His goal is that in 3 years, our current freshman will actually have learned something! Right now all they do is regurgitate information that has no meaning. I wanted to cry, but he told me that it had nothing to do with me and all to do with the system they had come from. I wish I believed that. On the lap band front, I am STARVING. I have been so hungry this week. I do think that I am going to have to have that fill. I have one scheduled for March 10 and it won't be very much, but I feel like I have not been eating too much. I don't write down the foods that I eat, I just remember them and add up the calories mentally at night, but since I have been avoiding the constant alorie counting I feel like I am eating way too much. I may not have, but without frantically counting calories I feel lost! Well my prep period just started and I have a ton of work to do I will try and check back in before the end of the day. We are going to a play tonight so I don't know if I will be one. But I will check in tomorrow.

Oh and by the way Janet and Kari...I only exercise off the calories that I have consumed during breakfast/lunch/snack. Not the whole day. Even I am not that crazy!!

Couple of things! Thank God I found a cooker! My BF loves to cook, (now if only I could train him on healthy things!). Sometimes we fight about who gets to cook dinner. One of the many things that I will miss when he goes to night shift. However, there are certainly a few qualities that I am not going to miss!! I eat pizza every once in a while, but just 1 piece. It is funny (though not a license to eat pizza daily) but every single time I have eaten pizza I have dropped at least 1/2 pound the next day. I will get to the suspected reasoning behind that later in the post. Stay tuned for a science lesson. As for your lunch. The reason you may be starving is that all of that food is on the mushie side. For me the only way that I can stay full is to eat very solid food. I had a chicken burger for lunch with some peas and that kept me from 10:30 until 2:30 before I was starving again. Now I just had some of my chicken and three bean chili and it will last me until dinner around 6. I have given up yogurt and cottage cheese because 20 minutes later I am hungry (no matter how tight my fill!) Yep and I finally have a mom that I can honor! So how do I get up. Shear determination. I needed to get my lists together for my students so they know if they are failing or not and I was motivated because if they have not met the standard then I get to make them have lunch detention. It was a good reason to get up! And yes I am crazy. I don't usually have a problem getting up early, as long as I can go to bed early. Alright here is my best impression of a biochemist! WARNING THIS IS HIGHLY SCIENTIFIC:thumbup:, BUT YOU MIGHT GET SOMETHING OUT OF IT! I got some help from a biology teacher. For anyone reading that has a degree in biochemistry and can add to this please feel free. This is just what we came up with in the 20 minutes we were talking! 1. There are 3600 calories in 1 pound of fat. Calories are not something that you can touch. It is the energy stored in the food. To be more specific it is stored in the bonds that hold the chemicals in the food together (carbohydrates, fats, proteins). 2. When you eat the food the body has special chemicals (called enzymes) that exist in your cells that can break apart the different nutrients that we eat. Those enzymes are like little kids playing with legos. They take apart one structure and build something else. In the process of breaking down the nutrients that we eat, energy is released. That energy helps fuel other chemicals whose job it is to transfer then energy to where it is needed. One of the places that it can take it is to the storage chemicals. There job is to take the energy and some of the parts of the nutrients that we eat and make fat molecules to store for future energy needs. 3. When we exercise our body has three places that it can pull the energy from to keep our muscles going. The first two places run out of stored energy VERY quickly (like in just a few seconds). Then our body starts burning the fat stored in our bodies. Just like those enzymes we talked about earlier break down the fat in our food, they can break down the fat in our bodies. Only this time the energy goes to help repair our muscles or to heat up our bodies or to make sweat! The biggest part however goes to fixing our muscles. 4. When we exercise we cause little tears in our muscles (its a good thing) and our body needs to use some of the broken down nutrients to fix them. So here is why I think that we hold onto weight a when we exercise so hard for several days in a row. First, our body feels the need to replenish some of the fat that it burned that allowed us to workout. Just like everything in biology the system (our body) likes to stay the same. So our bodies think that they have lost something that is necessary and keeps trying to replenish it (our fat molecules do not look at the number on the scale and do not look in the mirror:lol:). Also, when we keep exercising so hard our muscles keep getting torn (very small tears) and so the body is not as efficient at keeping up with fixing them. When we take a day or two off, the body goes into full fledged repair mode and it takes a lot of calories to completly repair those muscle tissues. Therefore during the days that we stop exercising our bodies are still working and using up those excess nutrients at the same time that the body has STOPPED storing the fat. Hence we see a weight loss. 5. Okay are you going to gain 1 pound if you eat a pound of food? Yes and no. If you were to drink a gallong of water and not go to the bathroom but step on the scale you would see an 8 pound weight gain. But that would be the same if you just held the water in your hand and stepped on the scale. But that weight would NOT be fat weight which is what we are concerned about. Once you go potty the extra weight of the water would go away. However, if you did eat 3600 calories worth of food you would gain 1 pound of fat, because your ezymes (the little lego building chemicals) would have enough energy to build 1 pound worth of fat. :mad: 6. Now if you don't eat enough calories your body does think that it is going to starve (not get enough energy to make more nutrients). You will not lose fat because it will take the energy to build them in case for some reason you have to stop eating all together. This is why you could live for 3 weeks without food, but only 3 days without water. But did you know this? If you did not eat for 2 weeks, your body would not break down as much fat as it would muscle. Protein (what your muscle is made of) is easier to break apart than fat is. Plus your body is trained to STORE fat for future energy use, so why would it take it apart, when it worked so hard to put it there in the first place! Alright my head is going to explode and I need to get to the gym, so I had best sign off. I hope I didn't overload anyone. I am not responsible for painful memories of school, science class, or any other adolescent memories!

I got in another 1.5 hours, but it was lackluster. I didn't run because my legs are really sore today. I rode the bike for most of it. Tomorrow I will be back to the regular workout. I haven't had a candy bar either, though I am beginning to think that my Protein bars aren't much better. I am going to stop eating them daily and instead only eat them every other day! I have really learned to make the right food choices and the substitutions that I have found seem to be working for me. It is really nice to finally realize that all food is not the enemy...the WRONG food is...and it is a battle that I am winning. We can do this. I am a food cop on the July board, so I am just going to remind you that 650 calories takes at least an hour to work off in the gym...I know I don't want to work out an additional hour. I think the phrase goes "nothing tastes as good as thin feels" well I have changed it for me "nothing tastes good enough to workout an additional hour!" Just a thought. Forget what happened today or yesterday and move on to tomorrow...a new day...new food choices...and yes MORE exercise!

OHHHH. I will give you a big hug:huggie: I always weigh SEVERAL pounds more at night. Here is one fact that I can give you. If you drank a bottle of water within 2 hours of weighing then you can be up .5 pounds. Now add food and more water and you can start piling up the pounds that have NOTHING to do with fat. That is why I only do my weight in the morning. It is too bad that you have to transition to the evening. It really does make a big difference. Is this the official weight that you use? As for the DH, the next time he stubs his toe, or bumps into a wall or does anything, I think that you should tell him what he did wrong. But that is just me. See I really am Janet's kid. We are sooooo much alike!

Sorry :frown: I was sooooo busy today and seriously didn't have a moment until right now. I was at work at 4:30AM this morning and then went right to the gym and then home. I didn't get my normal cooking in on Sunday so that I would have lunches so on top of making dinner tonight I made enough food for lunches for this week and next week. Not sure how they will turn out as I didn't want to eat them because I was going to eat dinner. I am trying a new experiment with some chicken breasts. We have a kitchen aid and the meat grinder that goes along with it. So I took some chicken tenders and ground them and then used the ground chicken to make chicken and three bean chili. I also made chicken burgers with dry mustard, ginger, onions and garlic. I am excited to try those tomorrow because it smelled yummy when it was cooking. :tt2: Today was a tough day for eating. I was STARVING all day. :tt2: I think the main reason was that I was up so damn early this morning. That threw my day off completly. I am a schedule person and when anything disrupts my schedule I get all flustered:confused_smile: Alright I need to go back and read what was written after Janet's post. WHen I saw that my band mommy was worried I decided to post right then and there!

So how many calories do you think you are eating a day? I don't think you are a piggy, but you have to look at the calories. I know it is a big pain in the butt, however, this is not going to work if we don't reduce our calories. It is certainly not an exact science on how many calories one should eat, but it does have to be less than what you work off. I saw your post on the other thread and you said that you have only lost 10 pounds. Are you exercising? Are you getting your Water? It looks like your carb/protein ratio might not be optimal. I am not one for giving up any food group (though you are taking to the queen of Taliban Atkins!:biggrin:) but what is in the breakfast burrito? We would love to help you out. This is a great group of people and we are very supportive. Feel free to join us on the exercise thread as we can really get people motivated there. Something has to be happening to cause you to only have lost 10 pounds, but the more information we have the more that we can help you. I don't know if you have posted here before or not...I post on two boards and I don't always remember those that don't post often:confused_smile:. But if you are new or newer WELCOME!

Another 1.5 hours. Tried the stairmaster today but I DON'T like that.

I guess I will sacrifice myself for the good of the group and become the lab rat! Actually I guess the fact that I have stopped weighing myself except for 1 times per month means that I am getting close to maintenance. I think what I really want to convince myself of is that I can stop being so paranoid all the time. Seriously I feel like I am waging a war on all fronts all the time and I need to relax about something or I am going to explode. So I have to decide if I am going to relax about money, school, or weight. At this point I think the one that I can give up the most control on and still be successful is the weight issue. Really I am happy right now about where I am, but I don't want to become complacent. I do have a VERY SMALL fill schedule for March 8 so I think whatever happens after that will be where I end up. I want to be done by the end of the school year. I want my summer to not be focused on losing weight for the first time since I remember. Well gotta get back to class.

So you really got me thinking last night. I have been to the point in the last few weeks (since my scale has not moved) that I should pick a goal size and call it at that. My goal was 150, but even at that I am going to be overweight by the BMI charts. However I am such a numbers person that I don't know if I would be satisified with stopping at whatever number my scale says I am. I have gotten rid of the scale so I won't know what I weigh until March 9. I guess I could really start thinking about this then. Originally my clothing size goal was a size 10, but I am there NOW.:scared2: All 6 pairs of pants that I bought this weekend were a size 10. I still am in amazement. I think you said that you wanted to wear your pants inside out to show the world. I almost (by accident) :laugh:left the little sticker on my pants today that said the size. I wouldn't have minded it one bit. I am thinking that maybe that a size 8 would be good, but then the little doubts come creeping back into my head. :wink2: Why shouldn't I be able to lose those last 24 pounds? But really no one sees what the damn scale says except me! I seriously need therapy. Here is my real problem. I want to go to maintanance soon because I am happy with the way that I look dressed. (Undressed :eek: whole other story!) But at the same time, I am afraid of maintanance because I have never been there. I don't want to end up gaining weight and settling up a size. Have I confused everyone now?:confused2: I don't know what would change if I went to maintenance. I would still workout at least an hour a day and I would pretty much eat the same thing, so I don't know what I would do differently. Maybe I would stop worrying so much???? I don't know. I need help and who better to turn to than my family...YOU!:wub::tt1:

1.5 hours at the gym today. This week I might make it to the gym each night. No conferences, no late work nights, no excuses!

Janet - A few bites was okay and the fact that you threw it out is what saved you from getting flamed. The other day I had whole wheat saltines and I could not seem to stop going back for more. So the next time I went to get some I grabbed the box, ran them underwater and tossed them into the garbage. So there is the lesson that we must realize. Even "good" foods can cause us problems. Food really is an addiction and the toughest to get over because we can't just STOP eating it forever. I don't keep bad foods in the house. To emphasize how much my mind still thinks about food, I will tell you my story of my workout. So I ate really good during the day today and only ate 633 calories up until my workout. My goal at my workout is to work off all the calories that I have eaten for the day. Well today I worked off an extra hundred and so instead of thinking "Oh look I am 100 calories closer to losing that next pound" I think "hmm I wonder what I could have for dessert tonight since I worked off those pounds." Now when I get to maintanance those are the thoughts that I could have, but not now. FRUSTRATING. Kari - I am glad that today went better. I am telling you the day after my last birthday was the worst/best days of my life. I had a mental melt down and ate an entire homemade 9x11 pan of carrot cake as I sat down and got financing for my surgery! At that point I had been dieting for 20 straight years and I had had enough. So while gorging myself :cursing:I got my loan and who new that on my half birthday I would be smaller than ever. I am happy for you in the progress that you have made. It must be wonderful to see that kind of progress. Telling you...that is better than anything the scale can say. And it is okay to be lengthy. Have you seen my posts!:thumbup: Peaches!!!!! 2 cups of M&Ms. My band mommy already scolded you but I didn't want you to think that I was going to let you off the hook. However, I do want to compliment you on the efforts that you went through to get rid of them. Very impressive!:thumbup: Phyl - My thoughts are with you. I hope the best for your family. And Phyl you can make it when you go shopping, though I am not going to lie, it is pretty overwhelming for me now. I used to have 6 racks to choose from and only 1/2 of one contained clothing that I would even remotely wear. Now there are 6 areas to shop with more choices that I can imagine. My head was spinning by the time I was finished. :wink: Unlike Janet I don't like shopping. Never have and I don't think I ever will. I don't like to spend money. Though I did splurge and get a new LCD monitor for my computer!:smile2: It is great. My BF and I play on online game called world of warcraft and it is BEAUTIFUL now with my widescreen 19" monitor. Better than clothes. Though I was pretty excited over my 10s! Ruby - That is how I usually am with shopping. Impatient and "frustrated":tongue:. Though this time I actually had to buy clothes because mine were seriously getting to the point of risking my job:tt2: Car - Got to agree yet again with my wonderful band mommy. I never thought that 10s would fit but sometimes you just have to brave it. Even if they don't fit at least you can judge how close you are. But if 12s are loose, they are going to fit! Okay I KNOW I have missed someone, but this has taken me about an hour to write because I am writing in between my battles on World of Warcraft! My new addiction. So I apologize. I have no age excuses, just lack of brain power after a long days work.

Okay I have been so busy the last couple days that I have been sneaking in my workouts when I get the chance. I really don't think there is going to be anyway that I am going to get to my goal, but this month started out crappy when I was so sick. However I am still hitting the gym even though I haven't been posting. I should be back here on a regular basis tomorrow. Becky and Whosya you are doing fabulous. Frangi welcome back!

I was so fat and out of shape by the time I was in high school that I used my brains "literally and figuratively" to get out of PE. There was this loophole that said you could waive your PE credits if you were taking a certain number of Honors and high level math and science classes. So needless to say (I am a chemistry teacher!) I took every math and science courses offered and never once had to take PE. I love fancy bras and panties. Funny I used to get them at Lane Bryant before surgery but now I just have the plain ol'white ones. I have changed bra sizes 3 times since surgery so I have decided to hold off on getting the fancy ones until I get to my final size. I am spending my money on outer clothing! That is alright, it never hurts to try them. My tastebuds might disagree, but they did survive. They are better than muscle milk and a lot of people suggest those. There is just a bitter taste that I couldn't get over. I have never purchased a thing from Victoria's Secret and I don't know that I will. I am still big on top and they don't seem to make things that fit us "blessed" women in there. There are many people who love that store so your regift will make someone's day! Thanks for the compliments. I really do feel like a different person. One of my friends just emailed me and said that I don't even remind her of the same person, and she has known me since 2nd grade! I sent a very funny email along with the pictures and she did comment that while I don't look the same, I still seem to be the same ol' person. I don't think I have changed too much in the way of personality. I am a bit more confident, but hell who wouldn't be! Congrats on both HUGE compliments. I hope the panel turns out to be legitimate because you would be a great representative. Oh I am sorry to hear that. I know that birthdays can be a pain. My last 2 birthdays were pretty good but the 20 before that sucked. I told my BF on my first birthday after we were together that he had 1 shot to make my birthday good or I was done with them forever. To this day I would rather celebrate my bandster birtday than my real birthday because that is when my real life started! Okay if I missed anyone, I am sorry. Oh Steph- I hope your little one is doing better. Good luck on your fill. The needle is there for just a little bit, but the fill will help you for a long time. Just think that when you get nervous about needles! Alright, I am sure that I have missed someone, but DANG there was a lot of activity that I missed out on. Well I have got to get to bed so that I can get up before the crack of dawn! Night

I am here, but I have been busy. We went shopping yesterday before our party and OMG talk about NSV's. We went to Ross to get some pants, because all of mine were starting to get to the point of putting my career on the line. I mean if they fall off when I am teaching that could put a damper on my career! So I filled up my arms with a bunch of size 12 pants and trotted off to the fitting room. By the time I finished trying them all on, I was in tears. Tears of joy that is. NONE of them fit. They were all too big. I am now in 10s. That was my original goal. I never dreamed that I could get smaller than a ten but with 24 pounds to go to get to my goal, who knows what is possible:biggrin:. So on the brag board I posted my pics along with the 10 ten things that I have learned in the last 6 months, but I want to add another one that I just thought of. Here are the original ten that I posted for those of you who don't stray from this thread often. Top ten things I have learned in 6 months 10. 650 calories takes 5 minutes to eat and 2.5 hours to work off. 9. There is NOT always room for Jello. 8. Sometimes it takes 28 years before you can finally run that mile. 7. Even if no one sees you eat it, the calories still exist. 6. Size 10 is not just for someone else. 5. A double chin is not necessary for survival. 4. I wasn't big boned...just fat. 3. The scale only gives you a number, and I am MUCH more than a number. 2. To chew or not to chew...depends on how much foam you want to spit up. And the number 1 thing that I have learned in the last 6 months... 1. To love who I have become, and to forgive myself for the past. So I think that #11 would have to be...a PB sandwich is not the same as PB'ing a sandwich!:thumbup: I wrote those for my non-bandster friends, but I don't think they would get #11! The party went really well and it was fun because it was on my 6 month bandiversary so I showed them my before and after and everyone was amazed. On another front, I have given up my scale. I have been obsessed with that thing for so long, so I made my BF hide it. I have accomplished so much in the last 6 months that I don't need to define myself by a number anymore. And if I am going to use a number to describe me it is going to be "10" for my clothing size. I will only weigh on my bandiversary dates (9th of each month) from here on out. I am running, holding my head high in cute clothes, and am no longer ashamed to look in a mirror...that is more important than what the scale says. I am not changing anything else. I am still going to workout like I have been, count calories like I have been, but I am not going to obsess about that damn scale. Well I have to get back to working. I still have a few things that I would like to get done before tomorrow. I will check in later. At that point I will go through and respond to everyone elses post. Man around here, you don't check in for a day or 2 and you could spend your whole afternoon responding! I love it!:eek:

Top ten things I have learned in 6 months 10. 650 calories takes 5 minutes to eat and 2.5 hours to work off. 9. There is NOT always room for Jello. 8. Sometimes it takes 28 years before you can finally run that mile. 7. Even if no one sees you eat it, the calories still exist. 6. Size 10 is not just for someone else. 5. A double chin is not necessary for survival. 4. I wasn't big boned...just fat. 3. The scale only gives you a number, and I am MUCH more than a number. 2. To chew or not to chew...depends on how much foam you want to spit up. And the number 1 thing that I have learned in the last 6 months... 1. To love who I have become, and to forgive myself for the past. Oh yeah...AND I'M HOT! Attached Images

10. 650 calories takes 5 minutes to eat and 2.5 hours to work off. 9. There is NOT always room for Jello. 8. Sometimes it takes 28 years before you can finally run that mile. 7. Even if no one sees you eat it, the calories still exist. 6. Size 10 is not just for someone else. 5. A double chin is not necessary for survival. 4. I wasn't big boned...just fat. 3. The scale only gives you a number, and I am MUCH more than a number. 2. To chew or not to chew...depends on how much foam you want to spit up. And the number 1 thing that I have learned in the last 6 months... 1. To love who I have become, and to forgive myself for the past. Oh yeah...AND I'M HOT!

Okay the foam thing is the worst. The slime was bad, but the foam was AWFUL. :eek: I was disgusted by it when it happened to me. I don't know how you are standing to be this tight cause I couldn't do it. If I had been spitting out the foam like I was yesterday, damn the 6 hour drive I would have been back. You are braver and a more patient soul than I am. Steph - Sorry to hear about your little guy. :sad: It will work out for the best I am certain. Though you do need to take care of yourself, and that fill will help you get through the rest of the situations. Fortunately for me I had the surgery 3 weeks before school started so I didn't have to take any sick days. Though I did miss the first day of school to get my first fill. Only the freshman were there and I don't teach them so it wasn't too big of a deal. I have missed more days of school this year than normal though because of some of the issues that I have had. Plus I have needed some mental health days!:tt2: Good for you on getting your water in. I am getting there. Slowly but surely. I did really well with my water at the beginning, but now I am slacking. Janet - Broccoli pb:ohmy: That sounds uncomfortable. Like I said earlier I have never pb'd but I was praying yesterday that I would. I'm with you on the mental thing though. It has been pretty bad for me the last few days. It just seems mentally that I am not eating as much as I did before(2 months ago), but that I am consuming more calories. I am still eating the same types of foods, but we are back in a rut when it comes to food. I need to do some serious cooking this weekend, but not certain what to cook?:confused2: We are going to a party tomorrow (bunch of us teachers get together) but I doubt that I will eat anything. I will be too scared that I will still be too tight/swollen. Some of these people saw me at my worst yesterday, but I don't want to put them (or me) through that again. Alright so I tried the low-carb slimfast drinks and I am telling you I wanted to HURL. They are AWFUL. And I bought two boxes of them. :eek: On a good note I can still drink pretty quickly so I can plug my nose and get it down in a few gulps. Then I just hold my breath for a little while so that the taste will go away. Seriously I hate protein drinks and this one is towards the top of the ucky list. Not as bad as muscle milk, but close. So I still don't feel hungry after yesterday and it is kind of nice. It is like I am back to how I was right after I was banded. For about 3 months after I was banded I never felt hungry AT ALL. Since being unfilled, refilled, and then defilled slightly I have faced actual hunger again, but now that feeling seems to have disappeared. :biggrin2: How critical is it that I get in my full 60 grams of protein today and tomorrow while I am on liquids? Daily I get my full allotment, plus some, so I am assuming that I won't lose all my hair or do any serious nutritional damage if I don't get in my protein for the next two days. Protein drinks and I just don't get along. They don't settle with my stomach because most are dairy based and if I try to mix the powder with water, I want to cut my tongue out so that I don't taste it. :glare: Wow this turned out to be really long. You don't realize how long it can get when you have interruptions in the middle. :w00t:

Maybe I need a ticker for my water intake. I am terrible at getting in all of my water. Though it shouldn't be too difficult today since I am back on liquids. I did finally find some of the slimfast low-carb drinks so hopefully my weightloss won't completely stall while I allow my tummy to heal after yesterdays horrible ordeal. So I have never pb'd before and I didn't yesterday just slimed/foamed for 1.5 hours. Does it normally take that long? I know the last time I got something stuck from not chewing I only had pain for about 20 minutes but it was NOTHING like yesterday. Seriously that was the worst experience of my life outside of kidney stones. Surgery didn't even come close to being worse! I can really tell that my stomach is swollen though because my body is like a clock when it comes time to eat. I know when it is 6:30, 10:30, 2:30 and 6:00 without even looking at the clock because that is when I get hungry. However i just forced myself to drink some soup because conferences are going to start here in about an hour and I had eaten anything. I am not hungry at all, kind of like I was right after surgery! So there is an upside to yesterday. Jackie - I have to agree with my band mommy. When the scale doesn't move is when you need to post here more. That is the time that we need support, not when the scale is dropping like a rock. We all can stay on track and be happy about ourselves when the weight does that. It is during the rough times that we need to lean on our friends and get their support. I just got over having a cold so I know what that is like. AWFUL! Though I did find that when I worked out it actually did make me feel better. So maybe if you can find any energy to get 5 or 10 minutes out of the eliptical you would feel even better. Okay I have spent too long on here and I need to get some papers copied before conferences start. I will check in later.

You are certainly not behind the game. You have to look at total % of excess weight lost. You have lost 65% of what you wanted to lose. So comparing that to someone that needed to lose the full 100 pounds, that is equivalent to them losing 65 pounds, which makes up for the 10-15 pounds that you feel behind. Weight is just a number and you have to remember that this is an individual journey. However if you do want to compare yourself to gauge your progress don't look at the "number" of pounds you have lost in comparison to everyone else, go and look at the "percentage" of pounds that you have lost. It does make it a lot fairer! Also, when you don't have as much to lose, it is going to come off slower. We are about the same distance to goal and I know that my weightloss has slowed significantly.

So I had the worst sliming/stuck episode of my life. I was in the middle of eating my lunch when a student came in and asked a profound question. I was so amazed that I swallowed my food and OMG it got stuck. I tried to pb, but it wouldn't come up. Instead for an hour and a half I kept spitting out slime and foam. It was awful. You would have thought that I would have learned my lesson from the first time that I didn't chew properly. So this means that I am going to be back on liquids for the next few days. There is no way I am going to chance foods and risk the possibility of having to get unfilled. I know that I am swollen right now because I haven't eaten since 11:20 this morning and it was on the second bite of food that I got stuck, so in reality I haven't eaten since 8:45 and I am not hungry. On a good note, conferences went very well, and it looks as if I am only going to put in 15 hours today! I know I shouldn't kill myself over these kids, but conferences are a big deal around here. Well I have 11 minutes until I am free. I will check back in later.

That is why it pisses me off when people make the comment about others "doing it on their own!" Hello!!!!! I will give them my 2 cents as well, but not until I have sacrificed my self to the world of education. Today is conferences (I personally think that conferences at the high school level are a waste of time) and we have a scheduled 14 hour work day. That means of course that I put in an additional 4 hours as normal so I that makes an 18 hour work day for me. You should see the look of excitement on my face. Okay just had to check in cause I was going to run out in the middle of the street and beg a car to hit me if I didn't. So far I have graded 286 projects 143 labs, and 120 tests. Now I have to enter about 875 grades into my electronic gradebook that they force us to use. AND IF ONE MORE STUDENT COMES IN HERE AND ASKS ME IF THEY CAN MAKE UP A TEST YOU ARE GOING TO SEE ME ON THE NEWS.

:eek::biggrin::eek:BREAKING NEWS!:biggrin::eek: I RAN 1 MILE TODAY!!! That's right I made it one full mile today and didn't die. I wasn't certain that I was going to be alive when I was finished, but I kept going. That in itself is huge but considering that I then went on to walk 3 more miles (varied the incline and speed) and then did 30 more minutes on the bike. I tried for 2 hours today because I am so far behind, but that is a really long time to work out so I am going to have to just workout for 1.5 hours for the rest of this month to make up the time I have missed in the last few days. Oh well! I don't care, I RAN A FULL MILE TODAY. I have been waiting to do that since 4th grade!:eek::biggrin: Phyl - Congrats on the loss. :frown: Oh and Janet I may have over done it a little, but I actually felt so much better after going to the gym. I think I sweated out all the bugs. Good for you for going to the gym. I know we are like little angels sitting on your shoulder. Hope you have broad shoulders though cause I still weigh a fair amount and me continuing to sit there could get a bit heavy!

:eek::biggrin::eek:BREAKING NEWS!:biggrin::eek: I RAN 1 MILE TODAY!!! That's right I made it one full mile today and didn't die. I wasn't certain that I was going to be alive when I was finished, but I kept going. That in itself is huge but considering that I then went on to walk 3 more miles (varied the incline and speed) and then did 30 more minutes on the bike. I tried for 2 hours today because I am so far behind, but that is a really long time to work out so I am going to have to just workout for 1.5 hours for the rest of this month to make up the time I have missed in the last few days. Oh well! I don't care, I RAN A FULL MILE TODAY. I have been waiting to do that since 4th grade!:eek::biggrin:

I am sure she deserved it. Besides maybe saying that will have her running back to the books to look up some other things she may have neglected in her research. I knew what Pbing was and I less than three weeks between my decision to do this and my actual surger. Litterally though for those three weeks I did nothing but research. I was so bad I wasn't sleeping at night! :rolleyes2:I say things like that all the time to my students and I don't ever feel one bit bad about it. So I have officially come to the conclusion that I am never going to get caught up and so there is no point in killing myself trying. I am going to the gym for a couple of hours tonight and then I will head home and do a few things, but I am NOT, I repeat NOT going to frantically get things pulled together for these kids that don't do CRAP for me. There I said it and I feel much better. Okay grading for 10 minutes and then to the gym.