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I'm preparing myself for this surgery and the fact that a lot of people aren't ready for the smaller me. I think all the sass and fire I have now will annoy people when I become 'socially acceptable'. Confidence now will seem like pompous bitchiness then. I'm angry though because I have this friend that I love. I adore him and I know he loves me too. It's very clear but he doesn't love me enough to brave the talk and shit that comes with dating a bigger girl. And I'm pissed because now that I'm on this journey he's going to start being all up in my face and shit an I'm sitting here like, oh NOW I'm worth your time? Like why should I be excited that a man I've loved for 5 years is suddenly interested in me? I'm still the same bird, I'm just shopping for a new cage. But nobody buys birdcages just to look, they buy them for the bird and if you don't like my bird now, what makes you think you're going to like it in my new cage? Make sense?

Yes thank you. I'm not afraid I will never meet anyone. I was angry because someone I've known for YEARS suddenly wants to show interest now that I'm going through this preop process and I just found it to be really aggravating. Of course initial attraction is important but after 7 years, you know me and if you still didn't want it, trust me, you're not getting it now that you think I'm good enough. I was always good enough, you just didn't want to bang me lol. But I'm over it now, I feel much better, much more confident in just telling him no. He wasted too much time on looks ad that's not my problem.

Yeah, I really appreciate everyone's input. I've decided not to date him. We've known each other for 7 years and lived together for a month while I waited for dorms to open. He knows me inside and out. If he didn't want me while I'm fat, that's fine. Not everybody digs my figure. However, I want someone who loves me for me no matter what. I'm a beautiful person inside and out so--nope. He gets no play. Lol!!

Yes, I agree with every reply. I'm grateful to you guys for hearing me out. I think I'm just not going to stress about it. I'm not going to be around anyone that makes me doubt myself and I know that at 400lbs or 100lbs, I'm amazing and if he doesn't, his fcking loss.

Thanks sweetheart! I decided to say fuck it-it's open enrollment and they wouldn't let me switch doctors so I switched carriers. Lol!! Speed bumps, never stop signs

What can I do when I know that I qualify, I know that there is a surgeon willing to help me and accepts my fuck ass insurance but the doctor I'm seeing won't give me a referral? Please help me. This jerk of a doctor is so mean and so stubborn. My BMI is 72. I'm about to graduate college and I can't stand for more than 3-5 minutes without excruciating back pain. My dieting never works, exercise not doing enough. I need a way to get around this fuckhead who blames everything on obesity. He's blaming my PTSD on obesity. I was freaking attacked! That is why I have PTSD. It has absolutely nothing to do with my weight. I need to get around this jerk. Any ideas?

I'm confused. Should a gyno be able to give me a referral? I'm not trying to be condescending at all but perhaps you confused PTSD with PCOS? I don't have PCOS. :/

Thank you everyone

If you have a bad reaction to Whey protein, what other options are available and effective? Sometimes people have hypoglycemic reactions to whey protein. Has anyone experienced that here?

Thank you.

I have mcclaren Medicaid in Michigan. I've tried every avenue I can to switch doctors and its just not working. I know the Bariatric surgeons here are amazing and willing to do whatever it takes to help me but, Medicaid requires a referral.