jbellastar

So its been a while since I have updated. hmmmm where do I begin..... I started my journey in October12' at 372 and the day of surgery May 21 2013, I weighed 342 to date I am 303. So im losing but its been a battle. I am doing great with fluids but eating is a whole other ball game for me. I have got sick a few times where ive thrown up and there have been sometimes where I wish I would just throw up. im doing well with my vitamins. I have no clue what to eat anymore and I am so tired of eating the same things over and over. I stalled about a month out where my weight didn't really change. I know I need to eat more that way I can burn more weight but its so hard. My best friend had the surgery as well a few weeks before me and shes just rocking it. Kind of envious of her at times but I know we are all different. I look on this website like a bible. It feels amazing knowing that there are 100's of people out there right at this moment who are going through and feel the same as I. All of my May people and even the other surgery months you guys look amazing. Keep up the good work!

They said no soda but I see some of the commenters saying they had a diet coke? So does anyone drink diet soda's?

I'm almost there but I'm like ravish. I want food so bad!!! Things I would never typically eat I'm willing to make exceptions for. I've worked so hard to get where I am and wouldn't jeopardize everything but still I'm thinking...... On the other hand I'm getting nervous not about the after so much but the actual surgery.....

I am 9 days post op... Feel like I'm not losing anything. Super hard trying to get all the liquids and protein in. I'm in between the moods of omg what did I do to myself and I'm so glad I made this choice to make me healthier. My best friend got the surgery done as well 3 weeks before me and she made everything look so easy....me I'm struggling. Puréed food def not my friend! Anyone else feel like me?

Well ladies and gentleman after all these months its my turn to step up to the plate. Can't describe my nerves to you right now. Just expecting the worse and hoping for the best. Report in by 0615am and surgery is at 0745. I have barely slept and I'm getting emotional. Worse part is I've came down with a cold and I'm hoping this doesn't effect anything. Well I'm going to attempt to nap or at least lay here a little while longer. Thanks for the support it was greatly appreciated through my journey. I will catch you on the post side.

2 days post op! Def was a rough ride. But I'm through it and ready to move forward. Just trying to keep liquids down

Thank you dear!

Omfg what did I get myself into. I thought oh whatever two weeks piece of cake but I'm on my first day and I literally want to start eating my arm. I'm so hungry! Any tips on how to survive 13 more days of not eating? And last min prep

With our date getting closer are you getting more nervous? I'm after day 7 for shakes and it's became easier, like just a part of my routine. We got this though!!! Months of hard work and endless appointments

I'm now starting day 4. It's got a little better but I'm having cravings. Just more so I think because I can't have it and really want it. I just keep remember there's a reason I'm doing this there's a reasons I got like this in the first place so gotta keep going. My friend had surgery a week ago and another friend 6 months ago they said cheating was going to happen because your body feels deprived. Glad to know I'm not the only may surgery:)

I am new at all of this. I have completed everything and time is winding down. Nerves are setting in. I just cleared my medical clearance and just waiting for insurance approval and then surgery date. 6 months ago i was all confidence as i was knocking out all my medical appointments and completing each nutrition classes month after month. Today i believe it all set in that i have nothing left theres no more appointments just the waiting game. I'm excited to divorce food and become a better, healthier version of myself. Over the years i have lost my whole family in car accidents or due to health reasons i am the sole survivor of my family and I will be the change. I will be a healthier person and hope to just live life to the fullest have chances that they were unable to have. I am not having this surgery for vantity purposes but for a better quality of life. I love myself reguardless of my weight. With all that said (I have a tendancy to ramble) I am nervous. I am scared that i am going to forget everything everday or im not going to be able to walk away from my "happy foods". i think about everything that im giving up and not aloud to have anymore. I understand i did this to myself with all those foods that i love and the control that i lack. I feel like the only one that feels like this.........