I am new as well to the community. I definitely am on the same page as you are. I have to children and want to be there for mines as well, You are taking care of you and to be there for your son. As far as what others are saying they are not in your shoes so let them say what they will. I commend you for being brave and putting your health and love for your son first. Being afraid is natural. Just remember "YOU MATTER." Stay strong and never give in to what others say. Its your choice to make. God bless:-)