jgriffith0726

HW 230 DOS 8/22/12 SX 217 CW 166

I live outside of Reading, PA. I had my surgery 8/22.

I am 4 months post-op and feeling quite lonely. I wondering if I made the correct decision to have this surgery. Unfortunately, I do not know anyone who has had the surgery that I can talk to. My husband said he would be supportive of my decision to have the surgery but that does not seem to be happening. I'm not looking for people to praise me on all that I have lost. Has anyone else every felt this way, like you have no one to talk to that understands what you are going through.

Nenie. I was just like you. I was diagnosed when i was 20 years old with pcos and insulin resistance. No matter what i did i could never get my insulin down. The lowest i ever got it was 15 which was still considered high. I had my sx on 8/22 and just had my 4 month post op labs in december. My insulin is 4 and my testosterone is normal for the first time. I also started to have my periods normal and was able to go off the birth control almost immediately. I have this sx was the best choice i could have made to reverse my pcos/ir.

So my day started off really shitty. Got an email from some chick saying my husband is cheating. Im a frickin mess and all I want to do is shove food in my face so I can feel numb. This wasnt how things were supposed to go. Im supposed to be feeling great and thats not happening. I cant take much more.

Thanks gurlie. Its so hard we have been together for almost 12 years and have 2 kids together. I dont want to put the kids threw that shit. I wen threw it and it f'ed me up and caused many of my issues that led me to be 230 pounds.

Its one of those i would rather just know the truth so i can move on. All this emotional stuff i so wasnt ready for. I never realized how much i knumbed it with food.

I dont know what to believe. He did it 6 yrs ago so i dont know what to believe

No that does not sound crazy.. can i ask y u havent advanced to pureed foods yet

Here is my story. I am 29 yrs old, married and a mother of 2 boys (ages 10 & 5). I have battled my weight my whole life and turned to food at a very young age to fill the emotional voids. It was my best friend, was always there for me and never judged me. I have battled with depression pretty much my whole life. I got pregnant when I was 18 and got married. Over the past 11 years I have been a yo-yo between 185, 215 and 230 being the highest. I have seen that damn 230 quite a few times. I delivered both my boys at exactly 230. I have lost and gained and lost and gained. In 2004 I was diagnosed with polycystic ovarian syndrome and also insulin resistant. I went through hell and back with my hormones and meds. I went threw fertility treatments, etc. There was one thing that was always there for me, food, any hour of any day or night. The last time I hit 230 was a year ago. I had had enough and made the decision that I was going to get the lap-band. I went to a seminar @ my local hospital and while sitting there listening to all 3 procedures, I decided that the band was not for me. I needed the RNY. I needed something to kick me in the ass, make me sick if I ate the stuff I shouldn't. I'm a very impatient person and knew the band would be too slow for me. So I began the process of a very long 6 months. I had my surgery on 8/22/12 and weighed in at 217. I stayed in the hospital 1 day and couldnt wait to get out. I cant sit. There were many times throughout the 1st month I asked myself what the hell did I get myself into. There was times when I had pain so bad I wanted to die. My own fault because I advanced my foods too soon. I am 4 months out and weigh 170. It has been an emotional rollercoaster. If you are considering surgery here are a few things to consider. I went into this with a "I've gave birth to a 10lb kid naturally and had a c-section and was back up full speed in 5 days". Let me tell you giving birth was a hell of a lot easier. Make sure you are ready and have a handle on your food addiction. I thought it would be so easy to kick once I had my surgery. I still struggle with it everyday. I have thrown up many times because I have eaten stuff I shouldn't. I have wanted to die many times when the dumping started. Sitting down and eating dinner with your family (especially if u have kids), will not happen for awhile. This was one thing I was not prepared for. There is still times when I cant eat with my kids or I find out what I made, doesn't sit. Going out to eat is pretty much next to impossible, unless u wanna waste ur money. There pretty much isnt shit to eat on the menu that will guarentee to sit well. The other problem is they give you all this food, and your brain still reverts back to that "eat everything that is on your plate" mentality. Well, at least mine does. Your hair will fall out, some more than others. Mine has fallen out quite a bit, still waiting for it to stop. The doctor said it should be soon. If you have PCOS, do not think that your hair will stop growing other places. It still does, except for your damn head. Some days are better than others. I can eat something one day and eat the same very thing the next day, and feel like crap. I still cannot eat bread. What I would do for a sandwich, yes really a sandwich. Have a good support system. I dont and it is very difficult. No one understands, that I know, what this is like. It is not the easy way out. This is harder than just losing weight. It is truly a life change. You may think you are so ready, but there will come a point, when you look up at the sky, and ask yourself "What the Hell did I do." "Is this worth it". I would love to sit here and say absolutely, but I'm still not there. Yes, I have lost 45 pounds in 4 months and have 30 to get to my target goal of 140. That is the easy part. The emotional changes that you have to make are hard. People will look at you differently. People will judge you and think you took the easy road. So the question is did I kick my love affair with food. The answer is: I'm a work in progress and its an addiction. One day at a time.

Does any one always find them selves cold to the bone all the time. I am 4 months PO. I cant warm up

Ok so im not crazy

172 last week 170 today. 30 to go

I have to say i have been struggling all week but after writing and talking people who know what we r going through. I know i at still have much to learn

My vit/supplements are good. They told me to stop the protein drinks, plus pretty much all I eat is meat. Working on the water and I have to get my butt back to the gym. It has been hard getting there right now with the holidays and my boys are involved in so many sports right now. I did just have all my blood work done and everything is great except for my vit D, which was low before sx. Im not anemic or anything like that.

Do not give up. The first few weeks are the hardest. I never got the amount of protein in I was supposed to. The protein drinks made me want to throw up. Listen to your body, it knows best. Everyone is different and moves at different speeds.

I did not have to take Iron pre-op but it sounds like you are anemic. I was severly anemic with my first son and had to take that much iron. I used to also work in OB-GYN so we saw a lot of anemia. A few tips that will help you. 1st make sure you take an stool softener, because I promise you, you are going to get constipated. 2nd take your iron with something acidic like orange juice. The iron can upset your stomach so I used to take mine with milk. Big mistake because milk does not let it absorb well. Only found this out years later. Make sure you take it because they will probably not do ur surgery if your hemoglobin does not go up. Good luck and best wishes.

Thank you all for the kind words. I think you are correct M'Lane, I'm trying to deal with all this emotional "crap" and always turned to food and now I cant. Thats how I became 230 pounds, along with other reasons. I have no problems talking but it is very disappointing when your "other half" tells you they dont want to hear or talk about "your feelings". I guess is numbing the pain all these years with food has finally caught up to me. I know I am supposed to be feeling all energenic and stuff but I find that I still want to sleep all the time and am still very tired. Is this normal @ 4 months or is this because Im depressed.

I got my period a week after sx anf had it for two weeks. I have pcos and am insulin resistant. For the first time in 9 yrs i am actually regular but i am bleeding much more. I just had my 4 month labs done and my insulin is normal and my body is back to normal. Guess its a good thing