So I have been on this site for awhile but have never posted. I am now posting because I feel I need a group of people behind me. I have been struggling with my weight since I was 5. So being overweight is nothing new to me. I am at my highest weight right now of 380. I hate to even write that down let alone let someone know how much I weigh. I have never told anyone how much I weigh not even my husband. My weight is an everyday battle at this point. I go to the mall with friends and they want to go to places like Charlotte Russe and I always feel like I am the fat girl that can only buy shoes and earrings. I never even glance at the clothing in the stores. But after awhile I guess I got used to it. Now after surgery I want to be able to shop in those stores. I am now very dedicated to my weight loss.
I have been through all of my dietician meetings and now I am just waiting to have my appt with the surgeon to schedule my surgery. I am very excited to have my RNY surgery. I do fear that I will get stuck in certain stages and not want to move on. I fear I will enjoy the weight loss and not want to eat solid foods or move on to higher amounts of food. My family tells me they are behind me but I do not feel like they understand everything. They have never been at this high of a weight. This is why I am now posting to RNY talk. I feel if I have support from other people who have been through the surgery or about where I am at this would help me.
