JASON R

Jason, I swear you will never find anyone who was more afraid of surgery than me. Honestly.

Please ask God and Jesus to help reduce your fear level. And trust me, you stand a better chance of dieing driving to the hospital for the surgery than actually having the surgery. Its such a simple proceedure. Plus you have to rememeber, no surgeon wants to loose a patient on thier watch either. You said it yourself, they have already done 450 of them without death! Thats because its such a easy proceedure.

If you write that note, dont tell your wife about it. Just leave it somewhere where it could be found later. This way you can tear it up. But believe me, no matter what your going to say, she already knows.

They say something like 1 in 2000 people die of lapband surgery. I can tell you right now, that number is wrong. There are far more than 2000 surgerys for lapband going on everyday. I am willing to bet it more like 1 in 10,000 and I bet that number is low!

Do you fly? Do you think about crashing and death? No, of course not. Thats because its not common. Nor is death with lapband surgery.

My fear level was through the roof. I was waking up EVERY NIGHT about 2am saying I am not doing it. Then the daylight came and I would calm down again. I did a ton of prying asking God and Jesus to send angels and guides my way to releave this fear from me.

When I was on my way to the hospital, I had a strange calm to me. I just felt at ease. I wasnt questioned where it came from, but I was glad it was there. It stayed with me right into being wheeled into the operating room. I didnt even take the calming drug they give you before surgery! I put myself on the operating table and made jokes. Then they asked me to breath into the mask and I remember saying to myself, no big deal, your just taking a little nap. You will be awake soon!

Next thing I remember I was in the recovery room and kicking myself for being so worried!

If you want to ask me any questions, feel free to email me.

wishiwas@juno.com