I had gastric bypass sept 25, 2011 as of july 2012 i had lost 130 lbs. yea which brought me to about 260. Things were great but then I started feeling different. i started doing stupid things eating cookies or fried foods, knowing full well i couldnt. but now i feel like i need the sugar again. AS much as i know that i am hurting myself and cannot go back and dont want to go back why do i do this stupid stuff? Why does the depression come into play because I am doing this stupid stuff? What is wrong with my brain that I keep doing this stupid stuff? I am 50 years old, never been married, have been in several bad relationships but just want love. I know I dont love myself but does anyone know if I can be helped? Maybe this isnt the spot to write all this down, but I am frustrated and dont know where else to vent.. So thanks for listening.