the.new.cassie

MY GOD THIS IS SO HARD! Two weeks out and Im having such a hard time coping. My husband swears he understands and is supporting me but really he doesn't get this at all. Especially when he is stuffing his face with all sorts of trouble in front of me. I'm still on my MUSH DIET. And, I hate it! I had my daughters 2nd birthday party cookout yesterday and there was all sorts of food that I got to cook and ate NONE OF IT. Wait... I'm lying I snuck two shrimps and had to literally throw the rest away because I was having a serious self control issue. Thursday I'm being put on stage 4 where I can eat ground meat. That will be glorious! But, Im so scared of breaking! I have not had any serious moments where I ate junk. Just the shrimp and a small bite of potato salad which I spit out because IM TERRIFIED OF DUMPING! Has this happened to anyone else!?! How did you cope? Im scared of being an exception to the surgery and never losing the weight, yet I have been sticking to my diet and walking allot. Everyone has told me I lost weight, but I still feel as big as ever.

I had my surgery on the 25th. I weighed 237lbs. I have always drank and ate very fast and this is STILL A HUGE ISSUE! I read all these posts on here about everyone's teeney weeney pouch and how full they get. I'm scared that I don't feel the same. I can drink 4 or 5 oz of Water in less than 5 minutes and there is no immense pain! I can eat my food without taking over an hour. I ate about 1/2 a cup of riccotta with Pasta sauce and some shredded cheese on top yesterday, it only took me about 7 minutes and I did not feel incredibly full. Everyone else leaves the impression that I should have felt full after 2 bites. I have lost some weight. I now weigh 226 lbs. I'm scared that because I feel like I can eat the same as before, nothing will change. That all of this pain was for nothing!

awesome job!

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Good question. I was not given an option of date...

Well, I had my surgery on the 25th and 9 days later I was ready to attack my husband. My surgeon basically told me if I feel good enough, go for it. But, deff use birth control!!!

I really need to hear that. I had 5 bites of grilled chicken today and so badly wanted to have what my husband was having. I have kept control. I need to find ways to dodge the head hunger. Ugh! Everyday is a challenge. Im going to the gym tonight, I want to lose this weight. I want to wear heels again! So thank you dawn "I got this"!

I honestly hate doing the diary!

I have been starting to have a Protein shake for Breakfast and that has 23 g of protein. I then have crystal light with flavorless powder mixed in. It has really worked for me the past two days and for dinner I have 1/2 a can of Soup mixed with water. I have been making my fluids and protein requirements for two days now. I feel really good, more energy too. I'm starting to come around with my feelings about this whole thing too!

Well I haven't been approved to eat solids yet I am still on this mush diet. But, that makes alot of sense. I hope I get that feeling after I try solids again.

I don't really drink often but this is a concern for me because I'm a fast drinker and it doesnt take much to get me drunk anymore as is, now I will deff be a lush lol!

Thank you everyone for your feed back. My two week follow up appointment is coming and I will be asking what I can do as far as exercise. I can't wait to go back to work. This mush diet is becoming discouraging. I feel like the 60g of protein and 64oz of water is a full time task to get in. I think I have only met the quota once since surgery. Today I bought some flavorless protein powder. OMG that is expensive. 15 scoop bag =$26 at GNC.