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krystacoyle

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  1. krystacoyle

    Scared To Be Skinny

    I definitely agree, as I sat down for my psych veal, he asked if I had insight into the addiction model relating to food. He went on to say it makes no sense to him and food is not an addiction. I launched into a 10 minute speech about my views and it most certainly is. Times of joy, eat, times of sorrow, eat, boredom, eat, birthday, eat, graduation, eat, gathering, let's eat!! Well looks at drugs and alcohol, it's all the same. As post op speaking my (triggers) are bill boards with a red bright and shiny large fountain coke from mcdonalds. Or it's my birthday where are we going for dinner. I found it hard to believe he had no insight into this connection what so ever. Food is an addiction, it makes us happy, it makes us sad, it makes us sick,it makes us salivate just to the smell of it.
  2. krystacoyle

    Three Days Post Op

    3to 4 since surgery. ....is that high, I am on 1oz for the first 4 weeks.... Wait are I talking food or liquid haha
  3. krystacoyle

    Call Me Crazy

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    100%juice

    Hey all, I heard we may have 100% juice. So can we have juicy juice. It has 26 grams of sugar in entire bottle, but is that all natural???
  5. krystacoyle

    How Much Is Too Much?

    I would say eat slower....it's a pain but worth it...lick the spoon instead of bites
  6. krystacoyle

    Tomorrow Morning

    Good luck, everything will so smooth. OSF is among the best!!!! Let me know if you have last minute questions???
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    Weird Pre-Surgery Jitters

    Well I do remember being wheeled into surgery but after that I have no recollection of them putting me to sleep or anything .. It eased me allllot
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    Weird Pre-Surgery Jitters

    Well my experience is that when I arrive 2 hr before hand than gave me a nice shot of Benadryl. I was a lil slap happy and then surgery came and went and I woke up 6 hours later???????lol no recollection
  9. krystacoyle

    2 Weeks Out Update

    Good Job!!!! And your lucky I am still on full liquid for 3 more days lol. Also still have this drain with a lot of pain ugh!!!!! And we had surgery on the same date
  10. Yes, I would say too much. I think we're at 1oz 3 x daily for at least 3 weeks post op. you do or want to stretch it. Possibly snack on Popsicles to feed your brain hunger
  11. krystacoyle

    This Is Me.

    food Unfortunately has served as an addiction for all of us for way too long. Food served some sort of purpose, for me, I was never in control of anything, I was emotional, and physically abused all my life, and food was always there to make me my tummy feel warm, and a sense of fullness from something. It was my gateway to happiness. There was nothing I could control being a child in a well to do home that kept the abuse hush hush, even from other close family. I learned that when my dad was eating, he was happy, and this was the only time I did not have to hear the yelling or see the abuse, so I would eat and eat and eat, and I would never want to be done. Then as my brother, sister, and I grew bigger, no one could "mess" with us, we were 3 siblings all well over 300 in high school. It then served as my guard, my size that is. I grew to be the fat girl everyone loved, and gosh for the first time someone loved me for being the way I was. I tried to diet over the years always longing to be like my friends who were smaller. As I entered my senior year in high school we went to six flags on a class trip, this boy I really really like asked me to ride the batman with him, so we even waiting in line for the 2 seater front row! It was our turn to get in, I sat down and it wouldn't buckle. The worker made his way down and kept jammmming it, and low and behold, it wasn't going anywhere. I was mortified, I ran out of there, down the stairs, and ran to the closest food stand and gorged. That was my escape, and safe zone from harm. I then secluded myself from those friends in fear that they may ask me what happened, and I couldn't face that. I then began gng to buffets by myself, or ordering take out Chinese after school to eat in 30 minutes before I worked all night at a fast food restaurant, where I ate all night as well. I went on to seek attention from older older guys who needed money from me, but hey they gave me attention right. They touched me, as no one ever had, it made me feel amazing, and someone loved . These four years of mylife just made my insecurities worse, as these guys really just walked all over me. I then was at 350lbs!!!!!! I was in school, and just distanced my self from the bad, but went to he bars and sought out one night stands for years. Through friends, I met this amazing guy, now my fiancé, whom we have a one year child with. Which put me to my current highest weight of 386 lbs. My obgyn doctors scale only went to 350, so in the small local hospital that I got to, I was forced to go to X-ray department every weekend to weight in on the industrial wheel chair ramp that needed assembly every time, how embarrassing. I grew into a deep depression, and my fiancé stood by my side telling me he loved me over and over. My weight and everything that comes with being over weight, frusteratiob, depression, hotness, sweatiness, everything, has caused issues in our relationship, and I am robbing myself and my fiancé of a happy,life by being so unhappy, and always craving a xlarge papa johns pizza or 5 mcdubs. It's not fair to him that when I am gentry, I am upset. I made my decision to get surgery for myself, to be happy for once. With the love of my life by my side. Ironically, I graduated with my masters degree in social work, and I am a therapist, who helps people go through this same stuff that I talk about. Yet just as nurses are there worst patient, so are therapists. All in all, food is an addiction, it serves hidden purposes, and it becomes our gateway, it becomes our safe zone, it overcomes every aspect of our life. I had surgery July 24, so I am 1 week post op today, and I am ready for the rest of my life to be happy. Sure, it is a constant struggle at first because your doing something so healthy but taking away everything you love, and that makes you feel so good!!! But I am ready, I am ready to spend a HAPPY life with my fiance, and enjoy him. Rather than not be able to lay on the couch with him because I am too big. Or lay with him, and have to adjust all my clothing because my rolls are pertruding out. I am ready to stop being scared that the little 5 year old girl inside of me cannot do it. I am ready to stop hearing my father say I am worthless and will never be anything. Because you know what, I am already me, I am overcoming everything to be HEALTHY I am ready to be healthy, To be able to stand in the wind with a tshirt on and not have to pull it off my roll to make me not look AS BIG. To not sweat profusely if it is not below 65. To wear clothes again that fit. I started my liquid diet July 19, surgery July 24, and today as of July 31st, I am down 31 lbs!!!!!!!!!! Gosh, it's really my turn. It's my time, it's my time to shine!!! To do this, to succeed, for myself. NOTHING FEELS AS GOOD AS SKINNY FEELS!!!
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    My Fitness Pal

    Anyone can add me plz krystacoyle thank you
  13. krystacoyle

    Pain

    How do you know if your aroma is blocked
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    Dry Mouth

    I am doing well, except this drain is kicking my butt. Ugh too much pain lol but it comes out Friday. Yours is August 3, so your on the liquid diet now right??? After surgery pointers***** get up and walk, if you don't want to, the nurses won't make you, but it's truly for the best.
  15. krystacoyle

    Dry Mouth

    Joe-- we were at the same hospital so your answer would be lol... Surgery will take 2 hours, you will then be given swabs to wet your mouth, for 24 hours. Like I had my surg 8 am Tuesday I was out by 10 woke up 12, and drank Wednesday around 4ish. The swabs helps, and the pain meds keep you in and out so it's really not bad. Buuuut the cath comes out then you can drink,from there they expect you to be going to the. Bathroom by yourself. I was discharged Thursday by 11.
  16. Alright, thank you. Also regarding peas, does this mean no splie pea soup on the post op 1 week full liquid diet??
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    Scared To Be Skinny

    And to truly respond to the post, yes, I think we are all truly scared!! I know I am, scared beyond belief that the 5 year old girl inside of me cannot accomplish this, as I was always told I was worthless. I am scared that those emotions of hurt, pain, scared, fear, and anger will come back now that i am not gorging myself. I never remained at a constant weight, always gained. So we're in this together. I am just not taking no for an answer from myself. I keep telling myself I have this man who,loooooves me, who held me at my highest. And I want to be there to grow old with him.
  18. Question regarding citrus fruit ---- Lemon Water and limewater is it alright or no. 6 days post op
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    Pureed Recipe Sharing And Protein Shake Hacks

    Sorry krysta_06@yahoo.com thanks in advance
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    Pureed Recipe Sharing And Protein Shake Hacks

    This will not load, could you email me it, krysta06_ @yHoo.com
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    Taco Soup

    How many weeks out can we have this
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    Pizza

  23. krystacoyle

    New Food For Post Ops...

    Dlcloggin please send to me that would be great. Krysta_06@yahoo.com

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