Thanks guys Having people who understand completely where in coming from, helps so much. I am the one who is living my life, and that's exactly what I'll tell her of she brings it up again. I think her problem is, she does not want to see me happy, only because she is not happy with her own life well sorry, I know and will soon experience the difference between simply being alive and "living" I appreciate every one of you who help and encourage, this support group is simply amazing...