Mycloice2lose

Overweight and Over it!!!

I've been heavy most of my life. As a kid I never realized it because I was always rewarded with food and desserts. My mom sewed these tent dresses for me because I was as round as a ball. They were all one of a kind because I couldn't shop in regular stores, they didn't carry my size. So, I always has something pretty to wear. However, whenever someone said something mean to me, I would cry to mom and then was given a cookie, piece of cake or candy. So, at a young age I associated sweets with feeling better. Much to my detriment. Sadly, it was the beginning of a long battle that I've been fighting for many years.

I've become a yo-yo dieter. My husband said I should write the "Dieters Bible" because I've tried them all. My pattern has been, go on the strict program, lose 20-30 lbs. then gain 25-35 back. I always gain it back. Just last week when I was filling out one of my papers for the doctor realized that I've been gaining an average of 10 lbs a year for the past 10 years!!! What an eye-opener. I had started going to Weight-Watchers with my mom when I was 10 years old!!!! Every year I would start, then after a few months I would quit. I remember one time one of my Leaders gave me the "Lifetime Award" that they give people who make their goal, because she said "I'd been going a lifetime already!!!!" How sad.... I mean, all these years I knew I was getting heavy, but in the mirror I looked good!

Well, I finally have taken off my rose-colored glasses and looked at myself seriously. I know I have a problem and need help. The tool that was offered to me finally made sense. Recently, I had to have an emergency hysterectomy. I also have an inguinal hernia, which if you don't know, is in the lower part of the abdomen, under the skirt of skin, as many of us know to well. The doctor said he couldn't repair it because it will break again because of my weight and that I would have to lose a significant amount before repairs could be done. Well, it is now breaking through my girly parts!!!! Ouch!!! I knew I had to take charge for once in my life and make it a permanent decision. So, for today, I'm on the road.....scheduling the doctors appointments and getting my paperwork in order.....