Like the title says today I am 2mo and 3 days out from surgery. I am 51 lbs down from the date of surgery and 76 lbs down from my 1st Dr. appt. I wanted to put how I am feeling about this cause it may help someone else, and to find out if anyone else has felt the same.
I have mixed emotions about this.
1. Is wow 76 pounds gone that’s awesome.
2. Why is it not more? I should be doing better.
I am nowhere near as excited about this as the people around me are. So I went and talked to my Physiologist about this. What he had to say made a lot of since. He talked about the 5 steps of depression over a loss. He told that the surgery can be viewed as an emotional loss for a lot of people. He said think about it you had over 45,000 meals in your life, food was always there and your relationship with it has changed dramatically. After talking a bit more we came to the conclusion that I am bouncing back and forth between step 4 Depression and step 5 acceptance. How can I be really excited for something when I have not fully grieved the loss of my old relationship with food and fully accepted the new relationship with it?
Now this all made prefect since to me. Since that talk I have felt better and am getting more excited about the weight I have lost and trying to make little games out it to motivate me more and hit bigger weight loss numbers. Like if I worked out for 30 minutes today let’s see if I can do 40 today. Or maybe get more done in that 30 minute time frame.
To me this has been 99.9% mental and knowing that I been able to fix it slowly but surely.
I and hoping to lose at least another 25 pounds by 3 mo. Out that April 28th