Ladies your response has been overwhelming!! I did feel very alone. My husband is soooo supportive,but He cannot feel what I feel. Just a quick history. I saw my surgeon in May 2013, i then saw a zillion doctors. i had two sleep studies, cardio, pulm, endo, etc etc...I had ONE visit with psych and ONE visit with NUT( i paid 300 extra for three visits with her, have not done that yet). Had surg sept 30.Basically on my own. No complication, so trouble, no pain. easy recovery, but here I am...waiting for it to happen, and day after day, i weigh, and nothing, this morning I cried. My starting weight was 231 (I am 5'3", BM! was 41). Lost 14 lb, pre-op. today 199.6. REALLY? I totally appreciate all of you encouragement, it got me through today.I have logged on MFP, I need friends and am new to this forum. I have the same name on MFP, please friend me, I need the guidance. Drs appt this friday, lets see what they say!!!