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MARCH 19 2pm 1/4 cup clam chowder (half came up) two sips limeaid 4pm three tablespoons mashed potatoes, with butter (spit up half) 6:30 pm 10 ounces hot cocoa (stayed down) 8pm-10pm three legs crab and 1/4 cup body crab meat (my daughter went crabbing and came home with it.. yum yum) (stayed down) 9:00pm 2C Roasted redpepper soup (gagged up first bitem then it was fine) 5 slices processed cheese (ate two and threee went into soup) 3 tbs parm cheese 32 ounces 1% milk 16 ounces limeaid 3tbs Frosting and peanutbutter mixed 1 grahm cracker 1 cup ovalteen (before bed) Calories: 1870 Fat: 74 carbs: 228 Protein: 76 FINAlly A DECENT DAY.. THE SOUP WITH CHEESE REALLY FILLED ME UP. :eek: :confused: :rolleyes: :rolleyes: TODAY: 9am 1ounce fruit punch pop 11:30 Hot cocoa, 6 ounces 3pm nacho chips, 1ounce cheese, ketsup (all came up plus more) 4:30 almonds (came up) 6:45 1/4 cup, noodles, chicken, corn, cheese goulash stuff (felt sticky and quit eating) 9pm 16 ounces milk. (Was sipping to see if I was open again, it was going ok) 9:45 mashed potatoes and butter (came up) 10pm Sipping milk again. calories....1087 fat...........38 carb.........127 protein....61 so far

I HAD this problem. (it was GREAT) Now I have another one. (its not as great, but still better than PRE banding)

I will mail mine as close to the holiday as possible!

yes. I got a fill to 2.0 Jan. 31st And after a week it really inflamed and I blamed my menstral. A week or so later, it became evident it wasnt that. So Then my fill doctor left the counrty for a month so I was stuck. I was not tolerating liquids, not even at night.. and I was sliming like everything up.. even milk and juice.. even hot liquids. AND I been taking mass amounts of Solu-medral to keep it at bay. In the first week of April, my fill doctor is back and I will go to 1.9 and I hope thats all it takes to get this finicky tightness to go away. My doctors are working with me till then, the medicine works well if you see my food log, but I need that with the fill, not the meds. I am ready to eat more solids. (yes, I knew you guys were right all along) I read the book "potatoes not prozac" and more about these kinds of issue's. The issue's of refined sugars and whole grains and the right carbs. I have to have some unfill to even attempt to try it another way. I have to do something.. cuz I will continue to ingest over 3000 calories a day mostly in milk and juice and candy if its up to me and the band will fail to work for me (thats eating around it) So, pretty much.. I HAVE TO TRY.. thanks for your support.

I havent started yet, but wanted to get the thread made so i wont forget..

MARCH 17 5 cheetos one drink chocolate milk 125 ml solu-medral intravenious 5 bites of rice, chicken and pineapple (came up) 8 ounces of ovalteen (came up) half cup of pineapple jiuoce (came up) 45 cheetos (total over time) FINALLY opened up (when the doc says the shot lasts 7 hours I think he means it takes 7 hours to KICK IN!) I ate the rest of the night: 1/2 cup mashed potatoes and a spoon of butter 1 cup 1% milk (OMG, I realized I was open, so I went for MORE) 1 cup of parm noodles and butter.. (chew chew chew!!!) 2 cups ovalteen THEN I drank 2 quarts of OJ and just under a gallon of thick apple cider till 5am. 4000 calories 83 fat 650 carbs Protein 102 MARCH 18th Waking: about 15 cheetos 3pm one bag kissables one cup milk 5pm 1/4 cup spegetti and parm (was tight) one cup milk 6pm 15 more cheetos 9pm 2 sliced bread no crust (tight for a minute and then was FINE) 3 tbs lite mayo some chicken two cup's milk 10pm Chicken leg and thigh (boiled) (no restriction) 3 tbs ranch 2 cups limeaid cup limeaid 11pm brownie ice cream cup chocolate syrup cup of milk 1am cup of milk and chocolate syrup cal: 3130 fat: 128 carb: 389 protein: 115 MARCH 19 2pm 1/4 cup clam chowder (half came up) two sips limeaid 4pm three tablespoons mashed potatoes, with butter (spit up half) 6:30 pm 10 ounces hot cocoa (stayed down) WORK IN PROGRESS

Weird question... in your calorie totals, do you count the stuff that comes up?? For me, it always depends on how quickly it comes up and how much comes up.... >>>I count it all.. I never had anything come up until the last few weeks, so its new to me to count it.. I rather be over than anything.... I'm impressed that you can even attempt Pasta and sandwiches... for me, those never worked. >>>I just have what I CAN have.. Its the bands choice.. I been trying to incorperate solids.. its a new thing for me.. chips, crackers, anything crunchy... went down fine. chocolate was never an issue either. But I bet the crunchy kissables coating would help it go down even easier >>>yeah, exactly.. I know what you mean! ..............

Hey you guys wHAT KINDS of things do you think are cool to get people.. I am feeling all uptight about it now, I dont want to get something thats NOT cool, ya know. Lets here some ideas... THANK YOU!

yes, something like that.. CYBIL.. sounds good.. (the multipersonality movie based on some chic named Cybil) I choke one minute and the next drink a gallon of juice.. Making me so dang mad.. Ohhh well.. tiss is the life.. we chose and we will be FINE! LOVES!!!!

Buy clothes that reflect my age instead of my weight. <>>>>> I wanna dress YOUNGER! I never got to.. I wanna dress like a 20 yr old.. not 40! Buy a bathing suit and wear it out in public. >>>eeeek.. That would be nice.. but even with plastic surgery I wouldnt do that.. cept the YMCA of course Buy a pair of Jimmy Choo high heels - just because! >>>Dont know WHAT your talking about.. (actually I do, but I am gonna refuse to admit it) Visit my ex-boyfriend at work and let him drool. >>>> I might have a few of these kinds of plans up my sleeve, havent thought much of it before.. sheeeet, I been OBESe since age 16 Ride a rollercoaster again. >>>>>HECK YA, I cant wait. Go skiing. >>>>ALWAYS has been on my list!!! Go to my high school reunion. >>>hummmmm.. I dont think I ever get invited.. lol 1. Remind myself daily that just because men look at me, it doesn't mean bad things are going to happen. >>>Deep and I get it. 2. Buy my dream outfit - faded jeans, white cotton button up shirt with a collar (tucked in), a navy blue blazer, and some boots with a heel. (a bit odd but very me) >>>mine is a white eyelet dress, sandles and a beach hat. 3. Go camping >>>>I go several times every year, its a staple in my life I would DIE without.. (I live in oregon) BUT WOW how much easier is it gonna BE!!! 4. Go hiking (is this really any fun??lol) 5. Take my grandson to the park - and PLAY with him Ack, grandkids.. they are surely gonna happen in a couple few years... GOTTA be prepared! (I got two sexually active girls.. ON BIRTH control) 6. Attend a week long outdoor photography workshop in Yellowstone Park. >>>>love it.. I hope you get to!! 7. Go back to my home town and shock everyone (they knew me skinny and fat) >>>they all know me both ways, fluck them. 8. Sit on my husband's lap, facing him with my arms around his neck (I've never sat on his lap) >>>my boys MAKE ME.. but it'll be nice to feeeeeel comfortable ya know!!! 9. Wear shorts in public >>>> I dunno.. CAPRI's would be good.. (I do that already though) 10. Ride a horse again >>> I nEVER have.. It would be cool to see what its like. 11. Go on snowshoe trips with my mother (yes, she can outdo me!) >>>>I LOVE SNOW, but thats like a hiking thing again.. I cant see how walking is fun yet.. lol 15. Get a set of nails >>>>>DO IT NOW!!! NO reason to wait.. (well, for me there is.. WIPING my BUTT) BUT I do it sometimes. well I used to. 18. Have a family portrait done - with me in it! >>>>>>YES!!!!!! NOW THATS IMPORTANT>

I will take a hot bath in a standard tub with only my head sticking out of the Water. >>>>>WOW, I have never even THOUGHT of that! That would be sooooo nice. I will use a camping stool, excercise equipment, and a trampoline without having to check the maximum weight allowance. >>>>ohhhh me too.. I sit in those chairs that say 225 pound limet (here I was at 400 pounds.. they would last.. ONE summer) I will get friendly with my husband in the woods >>>>Ohhh I get friendly in the woods alot.. already (Drink some alcohal,it helps.. lol) I CANT WAIT TILL SUMMER!!! OR just some spring with decent weather!!!! Buy cheap active wear from Wal-Mart. And Target. And Kohl's. And Ross. >>>yeah me too Buy expensive lingerie from Nordstrom or Macy's. >>>>NOpe.. have no money. Wear high heels. >>>>ouch.. why? I am a simple girl Go scuba diving in Cozumel. >>>wow.. I cant imagine this.. Have professional photographs taken. >>>i dunno.. maybe Go to the movies on opening weekend. <<<the line.. I get it.. I like waiting for the dvd.. Attend every office function of my husband's job. >>>Thats special! Get a massage. >>>HECK YA! (but I would do it NOW, if I had the funds) THESE are MY takes on your ideas.. not me judging your ideas BTW~ loves

GREAT THREAD!! I made a list like a long time ago in a journal.. its huge I would like to find that list and recopy it here So notify~

Alexandrea, I am on top of it.. My fill doctor is in April and will unfill me and till then I am being dosed up with lots of antinflamiroties, I opened up last night BIG time after my shot and all its fine.. THANKS for your caring!

mine is called a dirty bastard name right now. j/k

awwwww. I love you guys too... ((((HUGS))))) Today March 17th.. I am having a hard time.. REALLY getting pissy.. ALMOST ready to invite a boy over, have crazy sex and see if that amount of activity opens me enough SO I CAN EAT SOMETHING!! lol at myself. 5 cheetos one drink chocolate milk 125 ml solu-medral intravenious 5 bites of rice, chicken and pineapple (came up) 8 ounces of ovalteen (came up) half cup of pineapple jiuoce (came up) eating cheetos now and they are staying down BUT I CANT drink any milk or juice and I REALLY WANNA Grrrrrr

OK.. I am logging again'' starting today I am having complications and want to log it.. Here is today so far, I wanted to get this in here So I wont forget.. There will be more to add by tomarrow.. march 16 1:30.... 6 cheetos 2:30... one drink apple juice (too tight, stayed down) 3;50... 1/4 bag kissables 4:00... 2 bites Mcdonalds fish sand (burped and hiccuped, didnt slime) 6pm... 3/4 bag kissables and 12 cheetos and one sip chocolate milk 7pm... 8 ounces 1% milk 7:45.. about 1/4 cup butter parm noodles (not sitting well at all, spit up last bite, will try later) not gonna do fitday yet.

got my person am researchng her and will shop and send by the first~! thanks!

Well I went and all is fine I get all the care I need It was super simple I had a panic attack for nothing I got a shot I can come in whenever I need and get more Till April 11th I was able to keep down milk and juice and some chips and cheese today. Life is good WHEN I am helped in my health care in such a way.. Its heaven PLUs I am HIGH on these steroids.. NOTHING feels better than having this evergy and the power to BE YOURSELF.. I could name like 50 things that I have done that I NEVER do.. Or things done int he last 2 days that usaully take months.. But ...... THATS just a neat side affect.. I wanna mention but realize it NOT the point.. STEROIDS BAD.. I have to take a disolveable heartburn pill.. to ward off ULSER that the steroids cause.. AND have insulin.. Then after the Unfill.. ALL should be gravy again.. CANT wait..

Well I went and all is fine I get all the care I need It was super simple I had a panic attack for nothing I got a shot I can come in whenever I need and get more Till April 11th I was able to keep down milk and juice and some chips and cheese today. Life is good WHEN I am helped in my health care in such a way.. Its heaven PLUs I am HIGH on these steroids.. NOTHING feels better than having this evergy and the power to BE YOURSELF.. I could name like 50 things that I have done that I NEVER do.. Or things done int he last 2 days that usaully take months.. But ...... THATS just a neat side affect.. I wanna mention but realize it NOT the point.. STEROIDS BAD.. I have to take a disolveable heartburn pill.. to ward off ULSER that the steroids cause.. AND have insulin.. Then after the Unfill.. ALL should be gravy again.. CANT wait..

DITTO!!!!!!!!!!!!!! finally learning my lesson

DITTO WOW THANK YOU for sharing.. THIS is a real miracle.. I am glad to know others are having these changes and feelings as I am.. ((((HUGS))))

THOSE NSV's are AMAZING.. I CANT do those things and I have lost. I totally agree that you did not give up and you are not failing due to your attitude.. I understand that more than anypone.. WE know ourselves and what we are capible (or some os us anyway) and I trust that you do! YOUR goona make it.... weather you lose alot more or not.. I see that in you, your just a strong and GOOD and upstanding person.. I love you.. ((((HUGS)))))

I weigh 329.. he he he.. Today it was 327.. HE HE HE

I weigh 329.. he he he.. Today it was 327.. HE HE HE

Update: March 14th Been having a hard time. Been to the doctors alot.. Been having anxiety and depression. Prolly the hardest time I have had in a decade emotionally and financially, but definately not physically, I want to make that clear. My Follow up, fill doctor who is less than an hour from me, totally accomodating and I have complete access to.. happens to have took a month long vacation/training that is out of the country and I happen to be having problems.. SO, I have been forced to try to get the care I need with my pcp, different urgent care doctors and at the ER. This is actually gone very well IMO, BUt not the best.. But better than I could exspect, its still frusterating.. the whole situation. My situation is that I was adjusted on jan. 31, and about a week later I was too tight and I blamed it on my menstral that came early and instead of a unfill, I knew with some steroid antiinflamitory (solumederol) I could ward off abuse of the band for the week or so.. It worked well. Well, I have come to find out, its just too tight.. period.. and every little thing is inflaming it.. and NOW she is out of town till April. I am forced to keep my infalamation down ON MY OWn,, for all this time.. ITS very hard. Keeping my inflamation down, simply mean to keep from getting to the point or staying at the point of choking or spitting up my own saliva... as long as I burp it or gurgle it and it opens up enough at night for liquids than ITS FINE.. BUT.. I have been puking for over a week.. everything.. and sometimes untill midnight and being up for hours.. Two drink of milk HAS to come up. I still bring it up my self.. but that is cuz of the pressure.. and if I waitm its comes up with alot of slime just prooving my saliva was collecting as the liquid was stuck and IT NEEDED to come out.. I think its BAD" to make my self puke every thing out, but it doesnt come on its own, I can feel the pressure, I can feel my band being affected and with every swallow of saliva it build up more and I cant imagine keeping it in is the right thing to do.. I try to drink about once an hour,.. or have some soup when I am really getting hungry and frusterated and I have made a small habit of puking up every thing I ate.. So, FINALLY.. I decided enough is enough and I went again to ask for the solumederal.. (thing is they are hesitant to give it to me, cuz its not a good medicatiion for the obese or diabetic) PLUS they do not know the band and although it has always worked out.. I really avoid going as much as possible cuz its this big ordeal I JUST dont want to or like to have to do.. BUT I went again yesterday,.. I got the 125ml shot and FUCK, I should of NEVEr let my self PUKe for over a week ... There is a point where you get TOO inflamed where this treatment isnt going to work good enough... The first time last month I went in, I was open in one hour and open for 3 days.. the second time I was open within a few hours and it lasted almost 2 days, NOW I couldnt drink without PUKING untill midnight.. then I took the two valium and then an hour later I coulnt drink again wihtout discomfort. Well knowing the solumederal might not be working for me is only going to lead to an emergency type situation (if your fill doctor is out of town and you have no way to get to your band doctor) comletete UNFILL.. and the only option.. and they take it all out as they are not educated here to just take out the 1 or 2 cc's that would help me. This all caused me a 3 hour long panic attack last night.. all this and a few other stressors.. When I got the solumederal.. I was called later and told my blood sugar was 303... THAT, plus all of its implications.. made me panic more and more by the minute and I ended up in the ER. (I am ashamed and embarrassed.. I have a psychology degree and I understand how anxiety works when you have a malfunction in the brain, it makes things that normally you dont PANIC or FREAK out over.. BUt you cant help it either no matter how smart or level you think you are and it gets away with you.. out of controll... anyway.. I really hate that.. I feel horrible.. It doesnt help your healthcare to be known for this as everyone looks at you as a freak and your not taking seriously.. I have always hid my anxiety.. but the attatck last night was one of the worst I have ever had and the others I had I was already in the hospital.. this was the real first one at home.. All I could think about was how I CANNOT let my self get an emergency unfill.. it takes months to build that back up and MONEY I DONT have.. I have lost another 600$ a month in child support last month. (as I already lost 75% of my income in July).... anyway.. If I am down for 6 months.. I KNOW for a fact i will gain all 80 pounds back.. I am not being neggative, I KNOW it will happen cuz I know my self, I know my past habits and whats happened every time.. In order NOT to let this happen.. I MUST keep this inflamation at bay until APRIL ... I must have lots of solumederal till then.. I got my A1c level taken alittle over a week ago.. and it was 8.2 It was 8.2 a yr ago as well.. That means I run around an everage level of 160... THIS IS actully GOOD.. First, its the same as a year ago.. PLUS this is surprising low for a 400 pound person.. who lives on sugar.. I HAVE been very lucky and done pretty good about my diabeties compared to many, BUT.. yesterday afternoon I was 303, last night I was 350, (doctors said so) and then I tested my self this morning and my monitor said 375..(I was certain it was stress that made me high, but this morning I was calm as a cucumber, I had two valium last night and I was Over it.. AND STILL THE HIGH numbers) NEVER in my life have I EVER been this high.... (well only when I had back sugery and they said it was all cuz of stress,.,.as soon as I was home, it was back to around 150 and such again) So.,. this is a huge factor in them giving me the solumederal.... PLUS they gave me liquid prednislone to keep the steroids high in mee... The solumedraol didnt keep me open.. IT DID HELP alittle.. I can sip juice.. about 6 drink this morning and no need to puke it up (absolutely IMPOSSIBLE if I had not got the shot) BUT it is impossible to drink the liquid.. I tried, one vile and I had to chase it with acidy OJ.. and I choked on it.. Soooooooooooooooooooooooo I have an appointment tomarrow at 11am with my pcp.. THESE are MINE and HIS options: #1... Let me come in every other day for a shot of steroidal antinflamitory. (or less as I see necessary, it is very obvious to me when I need it. I will not take anymore than is needed to stop the PUKINg and stop the choking on saliva) My guess would be 80 ml, or so... OR let me take home the shots, I can easily give them to my self.. they dont hurt, they go in the vein or muscle and I perfectly capible.. This is neceassary as upon waking I CANNOT take the liquid.. I cannot take it all day in the anount necessary and at night MY only meal intake cannot be this liquid, plus chaser, AND it keeps you up ALL night long (it really makes me hyper and energetic like nothing else) and then I will sleep all day and then its this vicious cycle cuz it swells upon sleeping, so its INSANE to take it at night.. I must have shots in the AM.. TILL aprill... My levels of 300 can be controlled with insolin for this time.. I was told by the ER doctor that people like me go years at levels of 300 every day and NO IT WILL NOT KILL ME or harm me much to be at this level for a month.. THERE is proof as of just a week ago I had my A1c levels taken, PROOVING I am NOT normally NOR have I been for long anywhere Near these levels.. My PCP has to care more about my band and my MORBID obesity and go against than a month long risk of the solumederal and diabeties he is used to protecting.. HE has to realize the BAND issues NEGATES this normal practice.. #2.... FIND someone who will take out 1 to 2 cc's in an 'emergency type' capacity as no one is trained OR they may not do it in any other capacity as malpractivce fears.. THE port is RIGHT there.. STICK a needle in and pull out a few cc's NOT ALL OF IT.. IS that a REMOTE possibilty?? #3.. Go to ER.. have them pull out all my Fill, as that is all they are really able to do, and are instucted to do.. once its an emergency where nothing can help me. A few cc's will not help anyway... A full unfill will be necesarry.. IF I am not helped.. I will end up having to do this within less than two weeks.. (and two weeks shy of getting my unfill I need) Of course I am in favor of option one.. My appointment is tomarrow.. We will see.. I dont want to feel the emotions, the fear, the panic, the anxiety and the depression.. (that I know can lead to bad places) that I think will happen if he denies me.. I know what happened last night just comtemplating all these things.. Tomarrow it will be final.. I hate admitting so much weak ass shit.. But I made descisons about my life before I got the band.. this is about not being a burdon on my kids and my family.. Well, I am not going to stress today, so enough about that,. I LOVE myself.. I DO I DO I DO... I CAN get through this... ((((((((HUGS))))))))))))