Nykee

On sunday, I fell .... I was at a park/river with at leaste a hundred other people.. I was walking down the rock embankment and I fell.. I tumbled.. I broke my sun glasses I scraped my elbow, both my legs, my entire forearm, I have about 12 bruises My right boob is sore, my chin and the back of my head.. My right foot is swollen and my pinky toe is purple bruised.. Thats just to show how bad I fell... tumbled..... Half the park laughed and half the park was nice ya know. Lots of people asked me if I were ok and were genuinely concerned.. I wasnt hurt so bad.. I told everyone I was fine and I got in the Water.. I wasnt bleeding or nothing.. My foot and toes hurt real bad.. but I was able to walk out and back up the hill successfully... most those 'injuries I didnt feel till the next day" I will say "I WAS sooo embarrassed" oe "THAT was embarrassing" and it was of course... But the truth is I wasnt that embarrassed... I dont get all offended that half the park laughed as an initial reaction.. I didnt think about that until I saw this thread pop up in my inbox notifications..... I understand.. and Thats not cuz I am one of those people who laugh as a first reasction to those kinds of things.. I AM NOT! I am the opposite and to everyone.. but it shows what america is like.. and I am GLAD I am not.. and then I feel so THANKFULL and so PROUD and so GLAD that I am NOT that way.. that feeling bad is kinda hard.. lol But I just dont get that embarrassed..... and I am GLAD.. I have enough problems, enough neggative thinking and enough bad self esteem issues as it is.. Sometimes I get very angry if something is Malicious.. but no one did anything else or said anything to me later....and I was at the park for 5 more hours after I fell... ...........on a better note..... I went to a park today.. with a concert.... and I wore my nicest clothes and I looked nice and I was complimented by 6 people... and I didnt notice anyone do anything to me, as I was prolly the biggest one there... I had a nice time... the worst is seeing all the cute young boys... lol ............ :biggrin1: :biggrin1: :biggrin1: :biggrin1:

Jack, thank you BUT its totally YOU that gives me encouragement... your the biggest inspiration to me because of the diabeties and sugar and carb control you have overcome.... You amaze me, plus I love your poetic way of posting... this is kinda silly, but I was at Larwood (a river park in scio) and I saw a bearbed man of your age in the water, who reminded me of you, prolly cuz of your avatar but also cuz he was talking to these two overweight ladies about diabeties and he was throwing out numbers and medical talk and they were all interested.... but then he walked out onto land... sorry, I thought it was interestting how I thought of you like that. THANK YOU for being you. lianna, Thank you.. you miss me really? thats sweet.. YES! the water thing.. thats a good thing... I am very proud of that cuz I HATE water.. THANKYOU for noticing!! and I am happy that you heard me as happy and upbeat, I didnt notice till now, but your right.. I do feel alot better.. Marimaru, Jerky isnt for me, and I cant imagine being able to get it down.. but it IS perfect for lowcarb dieting.. my daughter who has gained 25 pounds in the last 6 months(???) LOVES jerky.. thanks for reminding me about it.. I think the baked chips and the low calories chips like wholegrain sun chips and the like are ok as long as you dont eat too many! lol loves to all xoxoxox

tuesday 2 tbs peanut butter 3 peanut butter cookies LOW carb (1cup PB, 1C splenda, 1 egg..bake) ice water, lots (!!) 1/4 serving cheetos (I threw the bag away now) ICe pop (these were on sale for 99cents and been in the freezer, usually I am not tempted, but now I wish I had bought sugar free ones! one can tomatoe soup with water two slices cheese 1tbs parm 2 cups milk (broke down and had a "real meal" and felt great, but paid for it in calorie counts!) 4 ounces grape juice lite 1 cup 1/3 less sugar frosted flakes (stayed up till 3am with Cry, she had some cerial and soooooo I did too) ovalteen 1 cup (I have this thing where I think I need this to sleep..sigh) cal 2107 fat 102 carb 196 pro 88 wednesday 1/2 slice bacon 1 egg 1 tbs cheese 1 tbs sugar free syrup (This meal didnt go down well.. so I didnt eat much at all) Smoothie strawberry (I was hungry and (tight) and all we have is the Big Train full sugar smoothie mix, but I did mix it HALF strength.. I always do to save on it ecconomically anyway) potpie (not low fat not low carb.. but not a big one either) 1 mini bag red hots (SOOOO NOT worth it! NEED TO KEEP it out of house!) 2 low carb peanutbutter cookie dough.balls..(taste ok) 1 low carb peanut butter cookie...(taste nasty) water 1 ounce chicken 1 tbs corn 1 tbs mashed potatoes 1 tsp butter (here I tried to have a tv dinner, was too tight) grape juice lite 1 cup (with pills) ovalteen 12 ounces (now.. 3am.. before bed) cal 1769 fat 78 carb 197 pro 52 IF I can stay under 2000 calories, 300 carbs (most non sugar ones), 100 grams of fat.... I MAY ACTUALLY lose some weight again, SLOWLY but surely.. Its been 5 days and I am amazed at my self... I feel empowered. I feel like I am never gonna let candy rule my life again.. (secret... I been eating tons of candy and chips and smoothies and my hair is falling out... I dont know if its related...(cuz milk has plenty of protein) BUT My hair has NEVER fallen out before. Plus I gained like 20 pounds (I THINK??) Not till these last few days have I realized how tight my band can be when I cant eat chips and candy and drinks all day long..... I was whining to my daughter about it (she hasnt been around the last few days) and she said "but mom, all you can eat is candy and chips.." and she was sincere (she is 15 and knows dang well about junk foods and all that) but I guess I have convinced here that eating anyother way wasnt possible.. it IS, its just not FUN.. lol I had a giant bag of m&m's and I took handfulls whenever I felt hungry and the bag lasted forever... like 2 weeks.. and I tell myself that if I was a true candy hog the bag would be gone... like in a few days... and feel all good just cuz its lasting.. Well, fact is.. I am eating candy all day long... everyday... and THATS BAD>> I am ready to get an attitude against candy... but I dont know.. we are going camping agian (the reason I bought the bag of m&ms before).. for over a week and I cant imagine having to deal with this crap during camp.. BUT I can have BAKED chips and sun chips instead of cheeto's and liter candies.. I dont know.;. dieting sucks ass I cant wait till my "diet" is just normal... and isnt considered a "diet" IF that ever happens.. I dont wanna struggle till I die.. I really dont.

The point of the pre-op diet is to reduce the fat in your liver. Your body fat plays havoc with this organ and makes it heavy and brittle. When the doctor places the band he must first retract your liver to get to your stomach. If the liver is to big, or too brittle to move, your doctor will stop the surgery and you will wake up without a band - but with several scars and with a smaller bank account - or pissed off insurance that won't spend the money for another surgery if you want to try it again. Do the diet. >>>>this is what I was told and what scared me into being able to lose 40 pounds in about a month... (the above statement I mean.. I was self pay and NOT GOING was NOT an option and waking up with no band cuz my liver was too fat was NOT an option) I was told 40 to 60 pounds pre op loss OR ELSE and I was told 1 1/2 months before my surgery date.. I slacked for two weeks then I DID IT.. (LOW carb WORKS!) IF I could find that kind of motivation again.. THAT would be GREAT... although at the time I thought the band was going to be my salvation THUS the motivation... ended up not to be.. but I still have that 41 pounds off, plus more.. .. But I have never been able to 'diet' since to help myself lose weight I have been stalled for months on end.. loosing and gaining the same 20 pounds over and over. grrrr

Rachel, Thank you! (((hugs))) that made me feel good.. The band was not the best choice for me, but I was scared of the bypass and convinced myself that it would be. >>>>>>>>>>>>>Thats exactly what I did.... Elis, thank you, I am trying not to sell my self short, and I am trying to make this band work for me... I do have about 85 pounds down right now, and I know I sound really silly to say thats its nothing..... but I would not do it all over again IF this is where it ends... SO, I hope this is NOT where it ends (although I have been stalled for half a year)................ :tea: <!-- / message --><!-- sig -->

I usually have a hard time with it.. its weird cuz I can get othet things down that I would think would be worse. my band just dont like it.. I LOVE EASY MAC.!

for me personally, I mean it like I have an addiction to drinking sugar and thats impossible to do with the GB.. and very possible with the lapband.. I DONT know if I would do anything to sabotage the GB OR if The dumping syndrom and the impossible size of the stomach to withstand all the liquids I drink at a time, would be what I need to succeed, I THINk its what I need to succeed.. Its drastic.. its not the best, I KNOW that.. but I think it would of been best option FOR ME.. I dont think I am determined to fail.. But I am also not willing to 'do my part'.. obviouslly thats true when I DONT do my part.. I dont force anything past my band.... I dont have PB's and golf balls and all that.. I STOP when it feels the slightest bit weird and I call that "tight".. this fact makes me feel I am not being completely self destructive, but that I am still unable to control my junk food (candy and chips) and sugar liquids that I have been eating all my life.. even FOOD to me was sugar or junk (tomatoe Soup, nachos)... I almost never ate meals before.. anyway..

So what they're really saying is "morbidly obese people don't have the discipline to avoid milkshakes." :biggrin1: >>>>>>>>>>>>>some dont. or havent for 20 plus years..

My surgeon explained to me that just a few years ago, many MDs would not perform lapbanding on obese patients who were empty carbohydrate eaters. >>>> I agree with that. If LIKE me, I have always drank my calories and snacked all day long.. (A gallon of milk and juice a day or MORE....no joke) I am someone who does not think that GB is better than the Band BUT that the GB is what I needed in order to help me personally Its MY best choice... But I didnt realize that.. and now I have a band that doesnt 'work' for me.

I like fit day... I tried sparkle and I couldnt get the hang of it (I assume I am too used to fitday) (i do agree that fitday is hard to manage, man it took me forever to get used to it) but now sparkle spams me constantly.. I dont get any mail from fit day EVER. and I didnt like the messege boards on sparkle.. but its not liek I looked around a whole lot either.. I have not gave sparkle much time.. so I cant really compare.. This is just my first impression of them

SATURDAY Day 1 4 ounces 1% milk (with 2 chopped up vicodan) One slice of bacon (in two peices, 15 minutes apart) 4 ounces Jet tea smoothie (very diluted) one slice Cantalope One hamburger patty (at least 1/3 spit out) One ounce cheese 2TBS mayo some mustard 1/4 delite low carb pizza (2 servings) water (20 ounces. just tasted good with the pizza and FILLED me up too) crystal lite (about 6 ounces I was able to choke down) one serving 1/3 less frosted flakes (yes I am measuring) 1 cup 15 milk calories 1287 carb 92 fat 76 protein 40 Sunday two bites 1/3 less sugar frosted flakes and 1% milk (I craved it but I was too tight) Water with my pills (yeah me) 1 cup Chocolate milk (at a store buyin ice for the trip to the river, I drank half and gave the other half to a kid, it was 99cents.. I felt like I just HAD to have it..grr ) 3 hawiaan punch... full sugar kind (pretty DANG good for 9 hours at a river in 100 degree heat.. sorry but I am proud of myself here!) Tortilla chips (2 servings) and 1/2 cup dip (this was at the river.. I didnt have any hotdog/bun, only chips and dip for 9 hours) one serving cheetos.... (MY daughter left these in my car and I ate them on the way home after I had resisted the whole time at the river) one serving low carb pizza..(ate this at home around 10pm) 1 cup grape juice 1/3 less sugar (drank some before bed) Cal 1901 fat 72 carb 275 protein 20 MOnday 12 ounces 1% milk (AM wake up) (NEED TO get some SUNRISE crystal lite) 1 serving cheetos..(they were laying on the table.. and stale too) 3/4 serving tortillas chips. (craving carbs!) 1 ounce cheese (melted on chips) ketsup, sour cream 1tbs each 2 bacon and 2 eggs syrup....2tbs.....(trying to stay low carb and satisfy my "hunger") 16 ounces, grape juice.. 1/3 less (this was in drinks throughout the day) low carb pizza one serving With lots of water! (!!!!) 2 cup ovalteen with ice (I was going crazy and it totally worked to cal m me and I went to bed) cal 1617 fat 67 carb 164 protein 20 OK so I aint gonna lose 20 pounds by the fair! BUT I am really doing good (FOR ME.. NOT IN GENERAL!!)

wheetsen/ token atheist NO FAIR! lol Sorry I just noticed that.. loves

A VERY bitter nasty medication is prednisone and its liquid form prednisolone.. I CANNOT swallow it crushed or swallow the liquid ... I have tried and I vomit and gag and cry, yes, I literally cry.. Viccodan is nothing.. taste good compared to prednisone.. And I dont taste the Metformin at all. and I coulndt and cant go with out it.. I got injections for a long time when I was too tight for pills.. too tiny even to swallow them in tiny little bits.. IS there anything WORSE tasting than prenisone?? even when you swallow the pills they leave an after taste I have never experienced in all the meds I have ever tasted. I dont know what to tell you.. I was physically unable to keep any amount down that I needed... I dont like having to get shots..

I just wanna contribute that time release pills are NOT to be crushed, thats just common sense.. I dont care if a doctor says its ok or not.. when you crush them you destroy the time release and you get your whole dose at once. IF thats morphine or somthing.. it can kill you.. BE carefull what you crush! I take about 8 to 12 pills a day and I have had the band for 16 months and I dont crush and I dont think they stay in my pouch either.. I do chope them up though sometimes if I feel too tight.. (NOT the time released ones) Since I had the band I went from 6 vicodan a day to MAYBE two a day... I DONT know why.. I am not afffected any different on alcohal.. BUt something about how the medication sits in the pouch, ... MAY make sense.. I dunno?

the smart pop butter kind is 100 calories for 6 cups and 2 grams fat and 110 calories and 20 carbs I dont know what the lite kettle korn is.. CUZ WE DONT HAVE ANY! lol

So I eat a bunch of pizza.. the DELITE LOW carb kind... and I ask to look at the whole pizza after I am done and I ONLY ATE 1/4 of it.. THATS two servings.. according to the website.. WOW.. I think thats awesome.. I am FULL and saticefied!!!! I wonder how I am going to handle my late night candy cravings....... We will see.. I should take a valium and pass out and avoiud it all.. (if that worked, I would do it nightly) lol ........... FAIR FOOD! Yum.. (this IS the food thread) (meaning I am not so embarrassed to talk about food, lol) I get to go to the fair 4 days.. I have limited money and so me and my kids get one goody per day. I already choose mine.. Cheese blimp Ice cream cone from the dairy Elephant Ear ???????

they have it in a lite version thats really good... in case you didnt know.. I THOUGHT I bought two huge family packs of it, and I just looked at them and they are BUTTER flaver.. I dont know HOW that happened!??!! So my kids are putting butter on it.. geeeesh I get the lite KETTLE Korn for a reason! (cuz they like it how it is!)

one more thing.. once I got the good fill.. I didnt take it very seriously, becasue I was so used to NOT having that restrcition everyone was talking about.. I took two TINY pills of mine the morning after ... and I choked and gagged for 9 hours, then they came up WHOLE! (thats what is called a PB) for about 30 more hours I still couldnt hold down my own saliva after tons of antiinflaitories...I had tyo have an emergency unfill in the ER.. Thus I was right back to NOT having any restriction for a few more months. so... TAKE THE PILL CRUSHING SERIOUSLY!!!!!!! lol You will know restriction when you feel it, its very obvious.

just so you have a second on that, Its true! once home after about a week and a half, I could eat anything like I wasnt even banded. I never felt the band. I was told because I was so big to begin with (400 pounds) that I would prolly notive restriction right away.. But I didnt.. Not for months.. till I got a good fill... Its very common....

Happens to me every time! crazy

I dont know if this helps.. but I have lost close to 100 pounds and I didnt excersize or follow the rules at all and have done a ton of things wrong and my band has only been filled "right" about 1/3 of the time I was banded.. So, imagine if I was a better bandster and had good fills!! I swear, if I can, anyone can!

I do the same thing and I have stopped loosing.. the band has done all it can for me... I have to diet now, if I want to lost any more weight... sucks, cuz I have always failed at that, but I am trying again... tomarrow, infact.. I want to lose 20 pounds by the first week of augest, for a fair.. Funny how being 320 or 340 makes such a big difference in me but it really does.. I will be doing low carb.. Sorry, I dont have any good advice.

plunder bunny, I am so jealous, I have tears.. ACTUALLY tears.. Ozzy is my all time favorite, for a long long time.. he is my god.. Our last ozzfest, he didnt show (washington) (i didnt go) Sometimes I think I will never see Ozzy at another ozzfest ever again.. and that makes me very very sad. I am shocked and amazed he did another one.. I havent even kept track lately.. (cuz I couldnt go (mobility) and I really thought he was gonna stop by now.. lol) and WOW, what a line up system and disturbed!!! wow wow wow!! my son just got an Avenged sevenfold tattoo.. one of the best line ups in some time! thanks for sharing!

I ignore this rule as well.. I have experimented with it alot and just dont see how it matters.. if I can drink, I will.. and it DOES not wash food down.. (not how I eat anyway) many times I CANT drink.. after eating.. you will know the minute you take a sip if you can or not (or you wont WANT to)