TheWatcher

The most frustrating part for me is that I do feel that I have been out of a relationship for too long but... I am not willing to settle... I could be in a relationship in a week if I wanted... But I would (by my preferences) be settling.

Thank you thats is very helpful... i can live without for a couple months hell even 5-6 months but somethings i just cant dream of completely letting go. The first time i met the dietitian she was worried cause i am a wateraholic and i had about a full gallon at the start of our meeting and 30 mins later a lil less than half... she was letting me know that my days of chugging everything are over. Beer i never chug so thats good and ill probably wait 3-4 months before diving into another beer. i am going to miss chugging Water after football or exercise but ill just have to learn to be more patient with my hydration.

The messed up part is i seriously can pick a clear winner healthier thinner vs fulfilled and happy some may think im joking about this but this is kinda serious to me i mean i was just getting graeted to brew my own micro brew

arghh damn now i have a situation.

see thats different for me cause i never stopped dating and its not that i wont date someone big but i don't chase them either. Now that i am thinking about it i have a pretty sharp double standard

Ok so i was just going over my own personal preferences and i stumbled upon a moral quagmire. As a big person is it ok to not want to date other big people. Cause looking back on my social life and relationships i can see a definite pattern emerging. So what do you think...

My new list is going to beat all there are some great songs here.

ahhhh the bay is in the area yadadamean

HMO or PPO

Ok so im hella juiced:thumbup: i just got submitted to my insurance for approval....:tongue_smilie: i know BC of CA usually approves but how long does it take. the default date if 9-9-08:huh2: thats just too far away so i'm going to go on the wait list after i get approved. so tell me if you had blue cross how long did your approval take?

Ok so im hella juiced i just got submitted to my insurance for approval.... i know BC of CA usually approves but how long does it take. the default date if 9-9-08 thats just too far away so i'm going to go on the wait list after i get approved. anyone with BC of CA HMO?

thats whats im talking about some great songs im close to butting close by nine inch nails at the top of my list. i mean the hook:thumbup: says it all

C-mon people i know there are more people out there with a list.... share

I'm just tired of sitting here watching these people and gaining respect for these people then i hear thing like i did it the right way ... without surgery or anything. Wtf is wrong with these people last time i checked thats not real and if it wasn't for that damn show you would be in the same boat as the rest of us. they didn't have t wait thought the plateaus that sometimes take months they are spoon fed a diet and like a horse to Water lead through their workout day in and day out for 100 days ... seriously don't you people have jobs last time i checked if i took a 100 day vaca i wont have a job when i get back .... not to mention that i would be broke. those lucky pricks should just be happy... not talking about how they did it the right way. its bullshit. ahhh i feel better now:ranger:

So now it becomes real for me... one more test then i get my surgery date. I am almost worried ... something that i never thought i would feel at this point. not that the surgery wont happen or wont go well... but that my body won't recover as well as my health will... anyone have any idea how the skin reacts in men... personal stories... im 24 now and i have been fat all my life... Almost. So now that im going to change that will i have to be constantly reminded of how i used to treat my body?

So now it becomes real for me... one more test then i get my surgery date. I am almost worried ... something that i never thought i would feel at this point. not that the surgery wont happen or wont go well... but that my body won't recover as well as my health will... anyone have any idea how the skin reacts in men... personal stories... im 24 now and i have been fat all my life... Almost. So now that im going to change that will i have to be constantly reminded of how i used to treat my body?

Pre op testing .... this may actually happen .... something i need will actually happen for me .... im juiced

thats great but you would be supprised to find out how many people have not had that revelation.

OK to after the consultation what hoops am i likely to have to jump through... My doc said they may be hesitant cause the only things that im being affected by is bmi over 60 and sleep apnea. So other than the psych eval whats test and things are they likely to run???

OK to after the consultation what hoops am i likely to have to jump through... My doc said they may be hesitant cause the only things that im being affected by is bmi over 60 and sleep apnea. So other than the psych eval whats test and things are they likely to run???

OK to after the consultation what hoops am i likely to have to jump through... My doc said they may be hesitant cause the only things that im being affected by is bmi over 60 and sleep apnea. So other than the psych eval whats test and things are they likely to run???:ranger:

I wasn't accusing or trying to put words in your mouth .... its just to me it seemed that way

so u bane blue cross of California then thats what im getting since you are telling me that insurance co's all at the exact same way thats what i getting from you... and i honestly dont believe that all fat people have a eating disorder and that all fat people are fat for the same reason... im just saying just cause a dr or a therapist or a nutritionist says that you have a disorder don't make it the truth

according to one of those calculators 62. yes but if u have no controll during a depression and u now have more control then that would make it a mental disorder. at least in my book... not i got help and got over it... i came to terms for the reason that i was depressed now im just angry... the depression has gone... im back to my old cocky borderline arrogant self again.... its actually a relief. i feel like my life is getting back to normal.... and the reason i need the band is so that i can stop the scycle of obesity in my family. cause even if i control my of weight i will only go doen to a point usually i do well all year and then the holidays come and i balloon back up... the holidays for me represent a onset of the most delicious soul food in existence skinny people come to my familys holiday parties and leave heavier.