My name is Marisa. I'm 23 years old and weigh about 300lbs. I have been overweight since I was 10. I hit puberty and everything went downhill from there. I was bullied in school because of my weight. I've never been in a relationship or been on a date. I've never had a first kiss. That's not my reason for considering this surgery. Sure, health is a factor as well as appearance. However, my main reason is to stop my mom from worrying about me. She worries for my health and my life. I want to do this for myself as well as her.
The thing is, I'm terrified. I suffer from severe anxiety and depression. I have trouble handling change. I've tried all sorts of diets and my main reason for failing is that there was nothing stopping me from getting off track except my own guilt. Obviously, that didn't work. If I tried to go off my diet after the surgery, I would get sick, which would get me back on track.
I want to be able to go on roller coasters again. I want to ride my bike, go on hikes, do all the things I can't do now. Yet, even though I know in the long run it will be for the better, I can't help being scared.
I'm going to my PCP tomorrow for a regular check up and I plan on mention this.
Any tips and reassurance you all can give me would be much appreciate.
I've attached a recent photo just in case.
