I had VSG June of 2013 and had amazing results. I still can't believe it. I lost 72 lbs in less than 6 months! I didn't waiver in my commitment to eating right, being physical, drinking fluids and so on. You know the drill. Then I went home to Thanksgiving and the attention from my family overwhelmed me. And unnerved me. And undid me.
Here I am a year later, and have re-gained 24 lbs. and am so frustrated with myself. I just want to scream. I cannot seem to get myself wholly focused again. I have weeks of complete alignment of doing all the things I want and should do and then BAM! I get out of step and it all comes crashing back.
I finally faced my surgeon and went back for my one-year post-op in November and confessed all to him. He was extremely supportive. We have developed a three-pronged approach to get back on the success track: counseling; nutritional guidance and fitness (which I don't have troubles with in general).
I'm sitting here on the second day of the New Year and want to be the girl of my dreams I just can not figure out why I keep getting derailed? I love food. I no longer enjoy eating because of those voices in my head. Which was not caused by my surgery. They have been there for many, many years. I need to stop being so hard on myself.
I have recently started reading and learning about Intuitive Eating. It really does speak to me. This is what I'm focusing on from now.
Rather than setting New Year's Resolutions, I choose a word for the year. And my word for 2015 is Determined.
I am Determined to be......
I know I can.
I already am.
Thank you for listening.
