lexiss22

Hello all my fellow sleevers! I'm 5 months into my nutritional visits so I have 1 more before I get to submit to insurace for approval. Iv been having second thoughts about the surgery and its giving me so much anxiety I can barely sleep at night. My life is great.. To a point. I have amazing friends and we love to go out and party quite often. There's only one thing.. I miss out on so much because I hate my body. Its kills my self esteem every time I'm out and I can't even get a guys head to turn because I'm constantly surrounded by my beautiful tiny friends. I want to lose the weight, I want to be happy but I just wonder, how am I going to be happy if I loose the weight and can't go out and have fun? And please don't judge me when I say this, but I'm 21 and "going out and having fun" always includes drinking. I mean I know I'm going to have to stay away from alcohol for a good 3 months after and my tolerance is going to be a lot lower but has anyone been able to maintain a party life with healthy vsg foods and proper exercise? And I know alcohol is extra calories but I really could use some insite from someone my age who understands the struggles I'm having. PLEASE comment!! Is there anyone out there who's like me?!

Thank you all for your opinions, i truly appreciate all of them and I'm taking everyone's pointers to heart! Including the tough love! These are all things I will contemplate on in the next few weeks and I know if I continue with the surgery I will be 100% positive and ready but until then, I'll keep you guys updated on my journey! Thanks again!

love this. I appreciate the support!! ????

Thank you both so much, and MrsSugarbabe you make a very valid point when you say how will my life be any different if I don't have the surgery. And BTW I'm trying to update my profile and add my pictures but I'm 251lbs 5'6 and I'm 5 lbs down from my highest weight.