BeachBabe(soon)

:paranoid O.k. First I've always had a low self esteem. Mostly when it comes to MEN and sex. I guess because I don't like my body especialy after having kids and gaining weight with each of them. My Dh has never seen my body completly naked since I had kids. And I know he doesn't understand why I've gotten shy towards having sex. I know if i lose weight this belly will drop down and become even uglier. A apron my mother calls it. My issue is this...I'm already feeling a little resentful that my DH will pay more attention to when I lose weight then he did before . I'm worried I'll end up feeling like he likes me better after I loss weight. Does it bother anyone when their partner looks at other naked movies/pis whatever. What if I come to find out my DH isn't attractied to now. This has been very hard to write, even harder to click the submit botton. Please handle w/ care. Thanks, Tina

Thank You All for the positive words. I read, I cryed and in the end I put my shoulders back, my chin up and said"What about me?" I have a bad habit of letting other people dictate what I think of myself. I'm going to walk forward and let the chips fall where they may. Your right I need to focus on "ME". What I posted doesn't carry the same weight anymore. It doesn't have the same taboo. I feel freer. I'm going to live in the present and as for the future, come what may. Thanks for the pep talk and kind words. I super glued them to my back bone.

I have UHC also. I called them again, 5th time, they always said the same thing. "NO...exclusion! Your employer did not chose to have this." Today the "nice" girl said the same thing, but...............she also said " Go to whoever can write you a better letter of why you need this surgery as in "medicaly nessesery". I asked her to tell me honestly if I have a chance and she a "very good one". So I'm going to make a appt. with a surgeon under my plan and see what happens. Got my fingers crossed. I'll let you know what happens. Tina

Hi all. My name is Tina and I live in S.Florida. S.Florida summers are hard on us heavy girls. I want to shed some of this :tired unwanted insulation. I've been lurking and I really like everyones down to earth attitude. It's very refreshing. I have a plan of action, it goes like this: Get money, go to Mexico, get banded, loss weight. thats it. Sounds good to me.:banana Tina

Thanks all............... Everyone I know is thin or have an awful 10lbs to lose(boo hoo) So theres no understanding among them. I think theres some underlying issues that need to be addressed between DH and I. And I think It needs to be resolved before an surgery happens. Thank you all so much. It's so helpful to hear from other (heavy) women. :kiss Tina A