Hello there.. Well I got 9 lbs to lose before seeing my doctor again, so they can schedule an appointment for surgery.. But It just seems like this last past days I can't help but think, is what if I don't make it out alive.. I got 3 beautiful boys, if I do say so myself. . and this is the second opportunity that I will be able to do this. About 5 years ago, I went through the whole thing.. Just to chicken out and not have it done. Okay just had to vent.