Thanks for the reply Blund.. I am so sorry to hear of your troubles and pain..I understand somewhat you are going thru, but can imagine being my hubby. I have had a terrible time with the grief, I am on meds and have gone to my third grief group. I am 5 ft. and well, 189 lbs. yah, too heavy. My mother was similar stature, actually shorter. She was heavy after she had me, at 39. When she died from the cancer, to see her deteriorate down to 84 lbs. was ASTONISHING AND HEART WRENCHING and nearlly killed me.
But so many times as she lay in bed, she kept asking me to lose weight. I told her when I got the band, but not really sure she understood. I am still having a hard time witih it, but it is time that i take care of myself. I am not getting any younger. It always shocks me when I hear people lose so much weight, and wonder, why cant I lose a mere 50????
I have already lost 45, I just have 50 more to go...!@!!@
The number seems so small. I have never been tiny, but I looked real good at 137 lbs. So, be proud that you are taking care of yourself, because you wil be no good to anyone if you are sick. I spent too much money, money that I didnt have on this thing, I aint giving up. I just want to lose as much as I possibly can. Sometimes we think we are not strong, but we have the inner strength.
REmember, " Your deepest struggles become your deepest strengths..." You can quote me on that. I will pray that you all be blessed with the strength to continue this difficult journey and find peace in your hearts. Dont get filled too tight, which was my problem. Doctor said my esophagus was three times the size it should be. It should only be one finger wide, mine was three times wide. I thought it was just the stress, not the fact that I was too tight. Day two and I feel so much better. And I am watching very carefully what I am eating. And I have begun drinking my water again. Lets keep in touch and I wish you much strength and never lose the faith....