birdmadgirl

I havent logged on in a long time. I was sleeved 9-23-13. my heighest weight was 270. I am currently 195. I feel like I have failed. I never went back after my 6 month follow up because I was too ashamed of going back to my old habits and being a slow loser. I was down as low as 185 but that was it. I graze, I drink pop, I eat crappy foods. I rarely excersice. I am currently stuggling with depression issues and I really believe thats part of it. What do I do now? A year and a half out and I am so ashamed. I feel like everyone is judging me and thinks I am a failure. Where do I even start?

aww! thank you so much for reminding me of this thread and for being so kind. One thing I did do is ask my family doctor to put me back on adipex temporarily. Ive been doing that for about a week and have lost about 4 pounds. The only reason I did it was to get my mind back on track and do a little "reset". When I am hungry, I'm trying to reach for a quest bar instead of a cookie. I still have not made a follow up with my surgeon (which I WILL do)... I am just so nervous about going after so long. I figure I'll just put it all on the table and beg for mercy. Bought some more premeir shakes, trying to work those in in the morning. Keep up the encouraging words, they are so helpful. I appreciate you guys.

Hey all. I had the sleeve in September 2013. The most I lost is 75lbs. I have regained about 15. I asked my family doc to prescribe me adipex to get things going in the right direction. Thoughts?

Wow, you guys.. really (gettin teary)... I should have known that I would get this kind of feedback from such wonderful people but this is overwhelming. It was really hard for me to come back here and I am so thankful that I did. Please keep up all the positive encouragement. I started tracking everything in myfitnesspal today. baby steps but steps at least.

I am 7 months post op and have lost just under 60lbs. I havent lost anything in a month and a half. I am so worried that I will never lose another pound and that I am done forever. help!

can someone give me some info on the pouch test? I am looking forward to trying it next week. I need to break this awful stall. I am worried that I am done losing for good. something has to give. 53lbs down in 6 1/2 months.

YES, I have started to revert to old habits because I can. I need to not do this anymore... I have started to be more strict with things lately. I have heard of people on here doing the pouch test.. Cant it work the same way?

Chest pains woke me out of a dead sleep the other night. this is the 3rd time this has happened to me in a month so I decided it was time to get it checked out as I was terrified. The pain was horrible. Went to the ER and got a chest xray, EKG, and blood work. all normal. turns out I had and esophogeal spasm brought on by eating too early before bed. the doc said because of my surgery, the acid built up in my stomach and caused the horrible radiating chest pain. I had had a few bites of chicken right before bed. were any of you told you couldnt eat before bed? I was not but my friend said her surgeon was very specific about waiting 2 hours before bed to eat. I was not told this. any of you had this happen or been told to not eat before bed? well, they mean it!

at some point, the woe is me stuff needs to stop. You had the surgery, you are losing at a good rate FOR YOU.. you cant compare yourself to others or you will fail everytime.

Judging by that formula, I have lost 47% in 6 months. I suppose this is pretty good.

Hi! Welcome to the best support group you will ever encounter. I am 6 months post op and have lost 53 lbs. I'm considered a slow loser but thats ok because I am losing!~ There are wonderful people here with wonderful advice so ask a lot of questions and stay focused. Good luck and keep us posted!

Tell me I will start losing again? I am worried that this is as much as I am going to lose. Ive only lost 50lbs in 6 months and I have stalled for the last 3 weeks. I admit that I am not making all the right choices and I have a hard time gettting all of my Protein and Water in lately. If I get back on track will I start losing again? Tell me its not over!!!

no not really. softball season starts soon so theres a plus. I am currently getting over a debilitating winter depression. I did go for a walk the last few days though..

I was seriously going to start a thread about this very exact thing!!! Its like I wrote this myself! I had my surgery september 23rd and I have lost a little over 50lbs. I started at 262. lately, I drink pop (soda), eat cookies, dont excercise, and sleep as much as I can. I have been diagnosed with depression and anxiety and take meds for it. I have a job where I sit for 10+ hours a day. I feel so lost that I really dont know what to do. This winter has sucked the life out of me and my depression has gotten the best of me. I am self sabotaging myself right out of success. It take a lot to admit that I am failing but I dont know where else to turn to. I live in a smaller town so I dont think there will be any psyches that specialize in eating disorders but I am willing to try to talk to a therapist if I can get through a session without crying my eyes out. I have been eating healthier the last few days but I need to get back on the shakes and water. I just feel like its too late and the honeymoon is over. is it?

I always get really depressed and anxious this time of year. This year has been completely unbearable. I went to my meds doctor last week and told him the struggles I have had and he said he wouldnt change my meds because they should be working and suggested light therapy. I cry everyday. Can barely get out of bed to go to work. I feel like I have nothing to look forward to. Money problems, messy house that I cant bring myself to clean, boring job that I dont like... etc. I had my surgery in sept so along with taking away my comfort (food), winter set in and made things so much worse. I feel hopeless on a daily basis and I really need help too. I understand where you are coming from. feel free to message me to talk anytime. I could use it too.

Mine have been crazy too! Especially the depression. When did you have your surgery? I had mine the end of september and Ill tell you what, the michigan winter did NOT help me at all. I dont feel any different. everyone keeps asking me if I feel better and I dont. I think I feel worse. I can see that I am losing the weight but my mental health is still the same as it was before if not worse. I saw my meds doctor and told him whats been going on. I take 60mg of cymbalta and 10mg of abilify and he said that he doesnt want to put me on more medications because what I am on should be fixing the problem. so theres that. keep in touch and let me know how you are doing.

I think you look amazing and I love the pink jeans on you!

Keep up the good work and keep us posted to all your successes. I'm 4 months out and doing pretty good. down 47lbs.

I'm not really concerned about it.. in fact, it kinda makes me giggle. Anyone else experience this?

I was full of regret after my surgery (sept 23rd)... I thought "what the hell have I done? did I try everything first to lose weight?" I mourned food and still do to an extent. My boyfriend and I spent the night at a hotel out of town for our 6 year anniversary this weekend. for lunch, we went to our favorite sushi restaurant. I had probably 5 - 6 pieces and was really full but completely satisfied that I was finished. I packed up a to go box and looked forward to munching on it later. I wasnt sad that I couldnt eat my normal 30 bucks worth of sushi because I am used to it and its no big deal anymore. For dinner, we went to our favorite Indian place. I had a tiny bit of some saag paneer and was really full but again, happy and satisfied. again, packed it up go to and knew how great it would taste for lunch the next day. you just have to look at things in a different perspective. I cried myself to sleep many a night wanting a piece of pizza like a normal person. I can have that now.. I just choose to get thin crust and eat half a piece now and the other half later. maybe get a chicken wing or two when everyone else is scarfing on carbs. there are alternatives to pigging out and they are wonderful. one of my favorite things to do is make huge pitchers of different teas and lemonades and sip on them all day as a treat. I love toasted vanilla coconut yogurt... I still love food just a little less of it. I am only down 43lbs since surgery but I can see my waist now and my jeans are falling off of me. My boyfriend notices and I can finally see some results which is very encouraging. Winter sucks... I am having the hardest time with this weather. once you can get outside and be a little more active, I think your spirits will lift as well. I know this was wordy but I hope it helped! good luck to you!

I feel like a failure. I haven't done all that I should be doing so its mostly my fault but I am still a very slow loser. I've had tons of stalls. I feel like this is not working for me. starting weight 262, current weight 229

down 27lbs- starting weight 262. sleeved sept 23rd.

surgery date 9/23 HW-262 CW- 236 moving slowly but moving. Ive had quite a few stalls along the way. Trying not to get discouraged.

sleeved sept 23rd, down only 25lbs but starting weight was 262.

I wish I had known how emotional not being able to eat would be. It was very very difficult in many many ways and I was not prepared for that.