TOPA momma

I had every intention of keeping this up every week for the past 1 1/2 years. July 8th is my 2 year anniversary. I've lost 116.9 pounds. I'm thrilled. I'm sooooooooooo glad I had the courage to do this program. I was terrified all the way to shaking terribly on the operating table. My nurse toldme I could get up and walk out at any time. I stayed and what a fantastic ride it's been. I have discovered I MUST stay on the food program that my Doctor recommended. Protein first, no carbs. When I cheat and have those French fries or a taste of my kids ice cream, I don't lose weight. I gain and lose the same 5 pounds over and over. I don't do any gluten. Well, I try not to. I get bloated and feel achy in my hands when I have gluten/wheat. I do miss some foods but there is a healthy substitute for everything. I LOVE LOVE LOVE being a size 14 and medium. I have gone nuts with my clothes. I literally have racks of them in my home. I have 3/4 of a walk in closet, 2 racks outside my closet doors and 2 racks in the hallway. I have all my clothes organized according to size, from 24 to 8. I plan on alternating all the larger sizes to my soon to be goal weight. I was going to alter them as I went down in weight but had way toooo much fun buying smaller clothes on my journey. It was an incentive to get into the smaller gorgeous clothes. I would buy something too small and hang it on my closet door and druel over it everyday until one day, it fit. Now some of those goal clothes are hanging on the 2 racks outside my sewing studio waiting to be permanently altered into my goal weight. I love how I feel and look. I take pictures of myself almost every day. I'm working on my weight loss blog, which I've been to scared and self conscience to make public. Being over weight is a very very personal thing and I never wanted anyone to know how much I weighed. If I ignored it hopefully everyone else could ignore it too. Still today I cover my numbers on the scale. I weigh myself every morning and keep a calendar with my weight in the month at a glance part and record what I eat in the weekly at a glance part. I write it all down. Even if I ate stuff I shouldn't. That's how I know I don't lose weight when I cheat. It's hard to stay on track every day. I got bored and took bites and then wouldn't lose. I do have the problem of obsessing over food I can't eat so I do have small bites. As long as I keep it to one bite and small and savor it. That helps me a lot. Otherwise, I would obsess over it and hide the food. I still hide food from my family. I won't openly sit down with a bite of their donut. Yes, they still bring that crap into our home and then wonder where it went. They try to hide it but a donut box underneath the loaf of bread is not concealed when a hungry fat girl is on the prowl. I just treated myself hugely to a wonderful Valentine's day gift. On Valentine's day I got a MACS mini facelift. The first of my recovery surgeries. I'm very angry at myself for allowing myself to get sooo heavy, but it is what it is and I've been dealt this deck of cards for a reason so I might as well make lemonade. That's what I'm doing and I've accomplished so much. I'm very happy and my husband is tooooooooo.