cindymaried

You look fabulous and so happy!! I can't wait to be on the losing side!! You are inspirational!!!

Thank you. I have never been a huge believer in God persay. Yes I believe there is a God but do not believe in organized religion necessarily... But I believe my son is in heaven. And it helps. His birthday was 10 days ago and we all dealt with it the best way we could. I am doing better and have been doing fairly well considering. I keep busy and search this site for anything. But again thank you for all of your support.

I am on day 2 of a 9 day liquid diet... And although I am hungry when it comes time for Snacks and b l d I am doing pretty dang good. I lost 2 lbs over night and I feel OK. Slight headache and head hunger but I have been to a grocery store and even though my mouth waters I am not tempted. I think my head is in it for the big picture... My surgeon told me he didn't think I was ready because I had gained a couple lbs within the 12 days I had seen him last... I had to drive 2 hours away and my ankles were hugely swollen and I have been constipated (sorry tmi) for a few days.. He didn't believe me... Of course. The nut said she believed me and just to really stick to this pre op diet like no other and prove him wrong. Now the sad thing is, is that I spent over a hundres dollars on 2 weeks worth of Optifast at their place and I tried 3 different things and felt completely nauseous.. So I switched back to my Protein rtd's added skim milk to get calories, got cream of chicken Soup and portion out the right amount, sugar free pudding, sugar free Jello and some flavored Water... I am staying exactly at calories and drinking as much water as I can. Sorry for the long post. Hoping I don't regret saying I feel good lol I am hoping that they will give me a refund on what I haven't opened cuz that's a lot of money...

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Thank you. He wasn't very thorough yesterday. K don't know if he was in a hurry or what... I feel much better now but I will call on the clear liquid thing and when I should stop eating/drinking.

So I had my pre op meeting today, did the bod pod! That was pretty cool.. Talked to my NUT and she said that I need to have 110 grams of Protein a day... Having been looking around on here, that seems like ALOT!! I will, of course, do it to my best ability but just seems crazy high. I also LOVE that i know how much fat and how much muscle/bone mass I have. It makes me have a better idea of what I want to lose. My surgeon told me 60-80 lbs.... I weigh 309 and am 5'11.. I was like um no I need to lose a lot more than that. He said well you can lose what you want, you get out what you put in... I just thought that was a strange response... Any one else have to have that much protein?? OH and i start my liquid diet tomorrow for 10 days.. I didn't get told to do a clear liquid diet the day before, should I call and ask about that, or just do what they said??? Thanks Cindy

I am also 5'11" and would love inspiration... Love the pictures and success stories. Being 5'11" what was your goal weight. I haven't got a number but under 200# is my first goal!! Surgery date July 29

You look So GOOD!!!! Congrats on the weight loss so far!!

I have my pre op appointment tomorrow!!!! Meeting with the surgeon one last time before surgery and the but for a bod pod reading. I am still so worried that my insurance is going to get denied but am trying so hard to stay positive. They have until July 29 the to give us the answer but that's my scheduled surgery date.. I am praying I know. I got denied the first time because the correct paper work wasn't sent in now its an appeal. Need some prayer and positive thoughts my way. How do I go through a 10 day liquid diet with out knowing whether I'm going to have surgery. But I WILL do it because I Want this so bad!!!!! Wish me luck..

I heard back super quick from insurance... Denied because my coordinator failed to send in all the paperwork needed.... Anyone know how long an appeal can take. I have my date set for the 29th do you think it will have to be moved. I am so angry....

I guess I just don't understand she deals with this stuff all the time. First she lies about when she sent them in and then to not send in the right stuff... I feel sick to my stomach. I am just praying I can keep my pre op and surgery date. Has anyone been denied twice??

Same happened to me. They were supposed to submit on the 1st I checked with my insurance the 5th nothing... Called again Monday... Nothing... They finally sent it in the 9th and now I wait...

I want to wear skinny jeans lol and dresses.... I know adventurous right

So I have done my 6 months of time which included PCP supervised diet, 4 meetings with a registered dietician, met with my surgeon, met with psych, met with my surgeons dietician... Every hoop I have jumped. Now my surgery is scheduled for July 29 the and pre op for 18th. Awesome right!! Well my coordinator said that July 1st she sent in paperwork. I checked with my insurance July 5th and nope nothing. Granted it was a short week... So my insurance lady I talked to call early Monday and they said they would fax everything on the 8th... Well I just got informed that they sent it in yesterday morning.. My insurance lady said the utilization team hasn't entered it so we have it as pending but once it gets entered it shouldn't take long for an answer... OK great but they technically have 14 days to decide which puts me really close to surgery.... And what if they deny me then what??? Should I move everything back if I don't hear before my preop date?? Should I go ahead with preop and start my liquid diet and pray it happens. I know if I did my liquid diet for nothing I would be super angry!!! Has anyone else gone through this?? I am so mad cuz if she would have sent it in on July 1st I would have had extra time maybe even to appeal a denial.. Sorry for the long rant I am beyond annoyed!!

My surgery is over 2 hours away... they do do group every wednesday and I will try to go at least once a month.. but he is trying to get our group here in town to skype with them every time we get together.. That is a great idea and yes I am going to start looking around for some kind of counseling that will fit my income! Thank you!

2 days til what would have/still is his 5th birthday.. God be with me.. we are sending him balloons and letters and pictures.. Us adults write our messages on the balloons and my 2 boys Jayden is 10 and Zander is almost 6 write letters and draw pictures that we tie to the end and some them back. I don't know if any of you have heard of or believe in mediums but about a month ago we went and saw Long Island Medium Theresa Caputo in Spkane Wa. And although we didn't get a direct reading we know that he gets the balloons and know what they say. That is comforting. There are also a few of us that have memorial tattoos in memory. My husband has his hand print over his heart.. the hand print from the day he passed away And it says Hi Daddy.. because every day and every single time he came through the door it was Hi Daddy about a million times.. it was THE CUTEST!!! I have his foot print from the day he died on my back with "My little Angel" then Jonny Robert and 07-09-08 to 11-11-10 under it.. My sister has angel wings with his initials on her wrist and my little sister has a heart with a halo and wings on her wrist. His grandma is wanting one too. We also have wings and halos with his initials on our cars.. I also have a ty teddy bear angel that sits in my car by my gear shift. He is litterally every where with us and I wouldn't have it any other way.. I miss him so much.. Thanks for listening, or reading.. and responding.. I appreciate all of you!

You are so not alone... I have 22 days, pending insurance approval.. All i want to talk about is the surgery and all I dream about is surgery.. Good luck!!!

Thanks again. I know that sometimes in the " real" world when I talk about or sometimes I post things on Facebook I feel like people are thinking I should just get over it... No one has really said it but you know how it feels to feel like people are judging you. I am glad that you all don't think I just posted this to get attention. I have been reading this forum for months with out posting but I really feel like this is my safe spot...

I seriously love this place. Than you all for your kind word and prayers and thoughts. I appreciate you all so much.

Thank you. Have I thought about counseling absolutely. But our insurance is ridiculous and makes us pay a 30 copay every visit. As of right now we have no extra money. My husband and I went to marriage counseling not too long after it happened because we were falling apart. But it was just too expensive. This may be offensive to some but if I believed in church and God I would find a counselor through church but after losing our son I just don't know what to believe in. I have never been a very religious person or believe in organized religion I believe there is a god of some sort and that heaven is real. I do pray but I just can't get past when people say it was Gods plan. Well if that's so I don't like him. The funny thing was about 6 months prior to his death we found a church that we loved. They accepted people for who they were. You didn't have to dress up and they spoke in words you could relate to. Do I miss it... Sometimes and sometimes I wanna go back but I can't bring myself to step foot in the doors. The pastor was the one who did Jonny's funeral and just seeing him reminds me of that day. Anyways sorry got a little off track... I have seen counselors on and off through out my life. Have never cared much for them. I had one that I enjoyed back about 11 yes ago but she no longer works around here. I do like my sons counselor but like I said I can't afford an extra 30-120 a month depending on the amount of times I go. It does feel good to type it out here. The whole church thing I haven't really told anyone. It makes me feel better just getting it off my chest. I know I am ready for this surgery... But I need to find an escape for eating my emotions. I know this site has helped tremendously already... Thanks again for your kind words and sorry if I offended anyone with the god part of my message.

So I called my scheduler/ coordinator to make sure she had everything she needed to send in for pre authorization. She said yes I will send everything in by the end of the day. That was Monday July 1st. I talked to my insurance company today and low and behold NOTHING has been sent in from them.... I get people are busy and she may have put it off. But then she had Tuesday and Wednesday. And of course they are closed today... So hopefully Monday I can get some answers from someone... Sorry for the rant I am just super irritated. My insurance has 14 days to make a decision and my pre op appt is the 18th. Well why would I go to that if I haven't been approved.. Grrr

Honestly I just feel that if you are going to do something you should. If she would have said they will have it by the beginning of next week I would have said awesome! But I just feel like people lack honesty in some areas just to try to please a person... Its been a long week and an emotional one. I'm trying to stay on this stupid diet and I'm frustrated. Thanks for the input. I am sure it was a mix up... Or she just forgot or got too busy

You look great and what a positive attitude!!! Thanks for sharing. Inspiration to me that's for sure!!

I am 7/29 as long as insurance approves and a 10 day liquid diet... Looking forward to surgery not pre op liquid diet. I have already replaced 2 meals wit protein shake and bar.... Worried that I am gonna have a total meltdown the first few days on liquids.

Hey all so my coordinator at the surgery center said she would have all my stuff sent in yesterday. I was told they have 14 days to either approve or deny. I keep hearing to just expect a denial but that seems so unfair. I have a bmi of 41 or so I believe plus type 2 uncontrolled diabetes. I meet all the medical criteria but am still feeling like I might as well just be prepared to be told no.... I have bcbs of Oregon and get employee benefits because my husband works for Regence. Just praying I find out soon and its approved....