cindymaried

I have been overweight all my life. I remember always being the biggest kid in my class, weight and height... I was made fun of constantly, the "popular" kids were mean, I couldn't get a boyfriend... It sucked. I found a guy online and we fell in love, he was about 380lbs when I met him, so I felt small next to him. He made me feel beautiful. We had a baby when I was 19, he was 3 months premature and he spent 3 months in NICU 2 hours from home. I gained over 30 more lbs.. I was over 250 by then.. when we divorced when I was 24 I gained more.. I had another son, lost while pregnant, but gained it back after wards... I kept gaining.. met my husband, dropped back down to 250 and a size 16. Smallest size I had worn in YEARS!!! His son, became my son.. he was a month old and his bio mom didn't want him, so he was mine... I kept gaining weight, I was about 279 when our son died in 2010 and I gained 50 lbs in the next year after that.. and then I hit 322 and i was so depressed.. I couldn't believe it. I already had diabetes from having half of my pancreas and spleen removed along with a softball size tumor in 2004.. I have never been able to get it under control, still can't. Recently my blood pressure has been going up.. My whole family has high blood pressure. My dad had a heart attack at 56 :(

This is my chance to get healthy and feel good about myself and my body. Have self confidence and self esteem and be able to play with my 2 boys and be around to see my grandkids someday..
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